One hours before midnight, Camellia start make a move. She look out of the room to make sure that every light in the house is off. She put her letter on her bed hoping her parents read them when the morning comes and of course hoping that she already far from being catch before dragged home by then. She walks out of her room on her toe towards her parents' bedroom, Camellia whisper at her lowest voice to her parents. Bids good bye without confronting their eyes.
"Mom, dad I'm sorry for making these decision. I hope that you will forgive me as the time passed by. Maybe you will felt emptiness and loneliness will surround both of you with me leaving the house and you guys behind. But as the time passed the grey cloud will be gone and you will find your own happiness.
"Mom, take care of your health when I'm gone. Take care of your knee and don't forget to massage them before close your eyes at night. And stop worrying about others, just take care of yourself first. Sometimes, you need to be selfish and be important to yourself. I hope I will be gone just for awhile only. I want and will find a way to make our life better.
"Dad, you too. Take care of yourself. Stop working yourself too much, you can depend on other as well. You are supposed to work before you reach your limit, that way you will not over exhausted yourself. If money is the thing that you worry about, you can just asked me for it, by the way there is some money I left for both of you. Use it well during my mission to stop the war, only when the war reach to end then you are allowed to go and work. Don't worry too much about me. I will find my way home no matter where I am in the future. I will try to find my way out to meet you guys as soon as I can and take both of you to start our life in a new place."
Camellia's heart getting soft as she look the peaceful sleeping face of her parents but she need all her courage to fight the urge to stay. She tried to harden her heart as hard as a stone to get a way as soon as possible before she change her mind. Her parents always stay in her soft spot in her heart. Camellia don't know why her mind keep telling her to stay but her heart telling her to go and change the unknown fate and future for everyone around her. What kind of fate and future she expected is still unknown.
After she done take the last look at her parents, she walk out of the door of the house. Closed them without any noises so that nobody will get alert of her leaving. She walk out carefully, avoiding anything that might be obstacles of her way and head to the border of the village in no time. As she reach the border without anyone notice, Camellia turn around and memorise her surrounding for the last time. She want to remember everything that she will left behind where she still don't know for how long it will be.
Huffing loudly and bids goodbye to everything, she walk away quickly towards the location of the camp based on all the information she get from Jessica. She know that it will be a long journey to reach there that she should take it easy but in order to avoid herself being catch up, Camellia need to moves faster. She almost out of breath as she walk quite further then her usual mount climb and at the fast pace within one hours walking on the trail in the dark. With the only help of a small torchlight in her hand, Camellia can't see much around her.
While walking mindlessly on the trail, all in her mind is her parents. Camellia want to reduce all the burden that will fall on her parents shoulder if she did not choose these decision. They will received all the blame for refusing to bow down to the demand. Who would understand their heart? Camellia is their only child of them. But for now, everyone will think of saving the live of innocent.
Camellia's felt that she is having a hard time for breathing. Her heart feel heavy as if a huge stone fall in her chest. She not only defying their instruction to stay inside the house, yet she leave them to save others without having any discussion or asking opinion from them. She felt guilty with her action. And she know that it would break their heart by choosing to leave.
After two hours walking in a fast pace, Camellia felt that she already used all her energy she gain from the dinner her mom prepared. Her throat felt dry and thirst of water from walking non-stop all the way from her home. She decided to take some rest under a huge tree with a big roots that crawl all over the ground. She sit on one of them and have a few sip of water from her bottle she bring along.
Camellia closed her eyes and tried to regain her energy and her spirit back. She stand on her two feet with determination. She her mind keep telling her to give it another thought before it is too late. Her mind keep on giving her all possible reasons to give up and the possible result if the negotiation went south. In which it think it will failed.
But with a strong heart, Camellia told herself that she need to have a faith in her choice and it will work out somehow. 'You would never knew if you never try'. That sentence that help her to move forward everytime she still have doubt. She chant it in her heart, her brain and sometimes on her mouth to herself.
After Camellia walking for about another five hours and of course taking some rest for a few times to catch breather, she successful crossing the other side border of the second neighbouring village from where she come from. And then, there is another village where she supposed to cross and only after that she will reach at the village where the war was supposed to take place currently. So, it means that she need to cross these village, and another one before she reach the place where her mind keep telling her to walk away from.
"Two village to go before I need to face my unknown fate. *Sigh* " Whatever it is, I hope it will be a good one. As you can see, I'm doing a good deeds. Right?" Thought Camellia, finger cross.