I don't know why but I think that the rain is an ominous event to me. Because the worst day of my life also happened to be on a rainy day.

"Wait!"

Below the dark sky, illuminated by the nearby light posts on the road, I screamed.

Desperately, I reached for the arm of a girl I cared for. My hand grabbed ahold of her wet wrist, only to be smacked off.

"Don't touch me!!!!"

Her voice alone instilled grief and guilt into my heart.

I stepped back to not anger her more. Her belligerent glare that wanted to kill me, was aimed at me.

I did not believe that she could show me such animosity. However, when I think about it, it was understandable. I did not know what her exact thoughts were but I am sure that she is thinking about strangling me.

"Why are you stopping me now after what you have done!!"

"......I-.."

She gritted her teeth and lashed out at me.

"Why do I have to get punished for YOUR fault!!!"

Countless drops of rain flowed down her face. It masqueraded her tears well but that did not escape from my sight.

My lips twitched, wanting to apologize for my mistake.

"...I am s-"

"Sorry? Sorry!?!? It is too late to be saying that!! As if that would solve everything!"

My eyes were agitated. Everything she said was spitting facts to me. I could not rebuke her.

'I am sorry.'

Even if I knew those words won't solve anything, I still wanted to say it. At least, it would have alleviated my guilt. But now it was difficult.

The girl had a mocking smile as she stared at me.

"I bet you were laughing when I was getting humiliated like that."

"Huh? That is not true!".

I tried to approach her but she backed away immediately after she saw through my intention.

"Stay away from me!!"

She was scared and disgusted to even let me touch her. I stopped in my track.

Her swaying black long hair, soaked in the rain, hid her eyes when she was frantically getting away from them. She did not even try to adjust them and show me her eyes.

".....I am.....going away from you, from that shitty family....Don't come looking for me....."

She scoffed at herself for saying this.

"Although I hardly believe that you all would search for me."

She turned around with her hair still in disarray and ran amidst the heavy rain that poured onto her.

"Wait!!"

I tried to dash to her but I slipped and fell to the ground. I hit my head pretty hard and I had some light bruises on my arms and legs.

I felt dizzy but I still looked at the figure that slowly solemnly disappeared from my sight.

"DON'T GOOOOOO!!!!!!"

From the bottom of my stomach, I screamed as hard as I could, only to vanish into thin air.

'Aaaaa.....'

My visions became blurry because of the pain I felt and the tears that welled in my eyes.

It is all their fault! It was Dad's fault!! It was Mom's fault!!! But who I am to blame someone like that!?!

I must have a body filled with ego that makes me capable of not thinking that it was my fault.

At the end of the day, no matter how I see it, I am the sole one responsible for it.

And so from then on, my life turned pitiful all because I was a coward.