Um... Hello?
Man, It's been a while and I don't even know how or where to start but I'll try my best so please... Bear with me.
(please forgive any spelling or grammatical mistakes🙏🏻 It's been a while)
So...
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Q. What the actual fuck happened to you Ashes?!
A. Well, to keep it brief, I got into accident. A really bad, bad car accident. And I wasn't in a car. I was hit by it.
Q. How did that acutally happen?
A. Well, I don't remember much since, its all a blurr but what I do remember is walking back home from my shitty job on a late night before there was noise of tires screeching, horns, shattering glass and people screaming and before I could turn around I felt animpact from the right side and I remember being was tossed like a ragdoll and then all I remember is pain before it all went black. Apparently some idiot on the service road lost control over his car or something and ran over 2 other pedestrians besides me and almost killed me as well. It was a hit and run and the guy was never caught.
I was in hospital for 3 months. Out of which 1 month (22 days) I spent in Intensive Care. 2nd month was me just laying down and listening to the families of other patients look at me with pity and try to make small talk or the doctors and nurses poking me and taking me to different rooms monitoring my condition. The 3rd month was basically rehabilitation training when I had to relearn how to walk among other things slowly because...
Apparently after 2 months of doing nothing your legs start to forget the only function they were designed for. -_-
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Q. How bad was the damage?
A. I don't know how bad it actually was since the doctor wouldn't tell me and my family (yes they came around once they heard I was almost squished to death.) also refused to tell me at first to not worry me. But apparently, it was a lot of broken ribs and cracked bones on the right side where I was hit, my fumer bone almost got shattered in bits but luckily I was the one hurt least.
The other two lads... They sadly passed away. One died on the spot due to impact and the other died in the ICU bed besides me.
I was very very lucky doctor told me. Even though I was suffering through a lot of broken bones none of them had shattered and punctured my lungs because that would have been bad.
Really bad.
My guts, my collarbone, my pelvic everything is in intact and although there was a lot of internal injuries, besides a few shallow scratches, my head is well. Just suffered a minor concussion or something similar. I was lucky. Really really lucky otherwise you yall would have lost your favourite writer.
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Q. So... What now?
A. I honestly don't know. It's been a few weeks since I've been brought home and I'm just taking it easy. I lost my job, I'm in debt due to the horrible Medical charges but I'll be honest man... I'm not that worried.
I spent my 21st birthday unconscious in an Intensive Care Unit.
I'm just so happy and grateful that I am even alive in the first place rn... It still fells so surreal to me.... What happened to me and that I made it out alive...
That the pain and the nightmare is over...
I have a lot of scars on my previous mostly unblemished jade like body (lmfao) but when I look at them, I tear up.
Not because I'm sad, but so relieved that I made it out alive with only this. Before accident, I was in such a bad place mentally that I had almost committed suicide a few times and I prayed for my pain to end but now that I had this encounter I know just how much I wanted to live. Just how much I wasn't ready to leave yet, just how much I wasn't ready to die.
And so now I'm just soaking up each and every moment. Death is just around the corner and it can happen to anyone of us, anytime and it just made me realise... There might not be a 'tomorrow' so...
I'm just happy with what I have today and I'm grateful that I have 'today' to enjoy in the first place. I think God gave me the second chance and I'm gonna atleast try to make most of it.
Btw I lost a lot of weight. The second good thing that came out of this accident lol.
In short, I'm just happy man. Really happy to have today.
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Q. What about the Parker fic? Will you be writing?
A. Um before my accident I had written close to 18 chapters on an app called Pure Writer on my phone and I hadn't backed it up on cloud (since I never do that) so when my phone got crushed or lost in the accident I lost it all and now that it's been close to 4 months since then I barely remember what I wrote but I remember being generally dissatisfied with that I had came up with. Just the general direction where my character was heading it felt like a mess.
So, once I start writing, I'll either continue and try to rectify the errors or I'll just reboot the series and start again from chapter 1. Personally, I wanna rewrite it since I realised the whole 'Great Destroyer' was way too unnecessary and larger than what I had initially planned for my first book. It needlessly complicated the story when it could have been a lot simpler.
I only realised this once I started reading my own book like a week ago after what feels like an eternity.
(I'll be honest, most of my memories are still fuzzy but sadly I didn't forget what I should have... Oh lord... Those embarassing memories are still as clear as the day.)
So yep. Might continue or might rewrite, but personally I'm leaning towards the latter. Let me know what you all think.
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It's been a while so I don't expect any of you to stick around but if you have then I'm so thankful that you did and I'm so sorry that I've let you all down once again. I can't make it right so I'm just really, really sorry for everything. But it was truly and really out of my hand.
A few (many) of my concerned readers reached out to me and I'm so thankful for your concerns and for your prayers.
I survived and I'm safe now. Thankyou.
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Q. Do you have any other plans in work?
A. I was recently reading/re-reading a lot of novels, manhwas, mangas. Watching a lot of TV shows, movies etc to keep me entertained while I sat my ass down and did nothing in the hospital to there are a lot of new ideas and storyboards planned out in my head, but I've only one which I have outlined.
It's a Solo Leveling fanfic, but I haven't started with the first chapter yet but considering I borrowed a lot of inspiration from Sung Jin-Woo for my version of Peter Parker I think it's only fair to give Sung Jin-Woo the respect our leige truly deserves.
Plus it might just be the change of pace I need.
But you have to understand, writing fanfic is not my priority right now considering just what I have been going through past few months and just what I'm going through right now. So I'll be really really thankful if you all could wait a bit more.
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Anyways, thats all man. It's a good feeling, being able to write to you all like this.
It feels like a reunion and I've to say guys. I've missed you all a lot.
Anyways, I'll go before I get all teary, mushy and shit. I love you all, take care and be safe.
Especially on the road or out in general.
I'll be responding to you comments as much as I can please ask any additional questions you may have.
Love you.
P.S. I started dating the nurse that was talking care of me. It's nothing serious but she's really a looker and a keeper. :))) That's the first good thing that came out of this accident haha.