Let's try ?
It was as if he could hear fireworks in his brain, a volcano erupting, and his heart about to explode. Nanren was stupid. It must have been a dream, too much to really react. Of course, this was a dream, otherwise how could the person in front of him, the person whose expression would not change if the apocalypse broke out, could his face be changed? It must have been a dream, otherwise there could be no explanation for the shyness and redness on the face of the person in front of him, so it was a dream!
If it was a dream, then he wouldn't be held responsible, would he? Could it be more daring? It was already a dream and no one could hold them accountable!
With a certain excitement and impulse, Nanren felt himself starting to become more courageous. Despite this, his blood was still boiling and he was tense to death.
Yun covered her face, the slight redness creeping up on her pale face making her more attractive and seductive, how could Nanren resist this stimulus? She felt her heart stop!
He couldn't help but take a deep breath and excitedly took a step forward.
"Really?"
Yun averted her gaze and shook her head at the thought of being nervous for the first time in a long time.
Seeing Nanren smiling like a child with candy, Yun was stunned and was unable to react at this naive smile.
Moreover, he was hugged without reaction. The body holding him has a slight tremor, and Yun also gets more tense, feeling her body being affected by his breath.
God knows how timid he was with himself when he made that decision.
Yes, coward.
As if she couldn't resist the strange sensations this would bring her, she was swept along with the current.
And with the reality that all good things come to an end. But before he could lose his mind, his face was gripped by two warm hands. His head was lifted slightly, and his pale lips were slightly wet.
His eyes flickered, being kissed by her.
But he didn't react or reject his approach.
Nanren is like a curious child. He licks, kisses, bites or sucks. He tries all kinds of things and gets more courageous the more he sees that he doesn't refuse.
Yun was stunned, dizzy, and redness was rising from the base of his ear. His brain was too numb to feel his heart beating wildly and insanely, oh Nanren, not even giving him a chance to think.
Right, how could she not know what he's thinking, in front of her all these years and the person she's loved for so long?
Nanren did not let him, knowing that he was already thinking of the future and that what he was thinking was not a good thing at all.
As long as he didn't think it was okay, as long as there was no problem he could go on.
Clearly like a seductive fairy, Nanren is more gifted than Yun, with the experiences and experiences she's learned from her dreams for a long time, and doesn't even give her a chance to react.
Nanren didn't let go until his lungs finally burst and it was so hard for him to breathe. His eyes were brighter than the star of night vision, and beneath that brightness there seemed to be a tenderness that made everything tremble. It was clearly overflowing with tears in his eyes and nearly suffocating him. Yun struggled to stand up with his weakened leg, and before he realized what had happened, he was already stricken again.
Clearly everything is happening too fast and Yun can't follow it. This speed was too extreme, so much that he didn't even have a chance to think about anything.
When she was weak, she was supported by a pair of arms wrapped around her waist, and when she lifted her head, she gasped even more weakly before those eyes that looked like they were about to be taught.
He had already moved before he could react. And again he was dragged into this mess.
When Yun regained consciousness, his clothes were disheveled, his glasses had slipped off his face, his lips were red and swollen until they were blood red, and he was slightly sore. What's more... She is... sitting on her lap.
It was as if his brain had failed, as if his system had crashed and he was still unable to react.
Already at that time, Nanren rested her head on his neck and inhaled that scent greedily.
Will he finally...wake up from the dream?
His eyes darkened, and there seemed to be a madness that was finally engulfed under those turbulent deep waves.
He held it tightly, as if it would disappear if he let go.
Yun couldn't say he hated the feeling, this kind of thing was clearly new to you, and although he was somewhat resistant to the new, he couldn't say he didn't like it.
Strangely, his heart moved.
All of his thoughts paused as his shoulder got wet. It was burning him like a scorching piece of fire.
He was worried, what was the problem?
"What happened?" Yun didn't even notice that his voice was shaking slightly.
Instead of answering, Nanren hugged him even tighter, as if that was the only way he could provide his sense of security.
Yun lightly patted her back under her trembling and waited for her to calm down, she waited, but this silence seemed to be getting worse.
After a while he seemed to have heard her voice. The whining voice was mixed with a hint of accusation and was questioning. "Are you serious ?" It made him even more speechless, as if a few words were openly blaming his insecure personality.
Evidently, Yun felt like a jerk on TV. The kind of scumbag who pays and runs after bed. He's like one of those scumbags who whisper good words in bed and turn away after he's done.
He clearly hadn't done anything like that, but that couldn't stop him from feeling good.
"Yes, of course," she said with guilt and guilt, as she finally faced an unspoken gender crisis.
"Really?"
The soft voice seems to have an effect that moves people's hearts, and even Yun cannot escape it.
"Really"
Under his consolation, they seemed to be a little calmer, but he continued to whine and whine openly.
"But... what if... will you suddenly change your mind?"
"Of course not" wasn't playing, how could he have such a thought? It was clearly even more serious!
But the person in front of him seems restless and still insecure, he continued.
"But…you harassed me before and fled" Yun froze and stiffened as he heard the accusatory voice. Does he remember?
He continued without answering.
"And then after being chopped up like nothing happened, you paid and left without looking back"
Yun:...
With an inexplicable expression, he was really starting to feel like a total jerk.
And Nanren continued.
"You threatened me on our first date, saying you gave me poison."
Of course, Yun remembered that day and had not forgotten it. Thinking that this child was quite naive at that time, he used it to achieve his deeds. His mother was ill at the time and he trusted Nanren more than him, so he didn't hesitate to do so. Also, he had warned this naive-minded person, of course, he seemed a little jealous too... this boy was preferred over his mother...
He felt even more guilt at the thought of his behavior to the naive boy at the time.
"You drank my blood... even at the campsite, in public, until you turned me into a snake without thinking, but the next day you acted like nothing had happened..."
What if he was caught? It is Yun who is clearly inconsiderate, and he dragged her on a whim.
He seemed to be asking her if she had a conscience.
Yun felt even worse. So much so that at one point he wanted to pull away and slap his own self.
"You hit my butt…" Nanren seemed to remember that it was because he had provoked her a while ago, but he didn't say that, just continued aggrieved with a faint light in his eye.
"You ignored me and left, if I hadn't hid in the spaceship, I would have thought you had disappeared from the world and reported it to the police! You obviously didn't take me seriously!"
Even her voice trembled, as if the thought of being displaced had upset her even more.
Yun was speechless and could not answer.
"You left me when I trusted you more than anything…you left without even knowing…" eyes really reddened, and Nanren finally couldn't help remembering that cold corpse in their hands. A hysterical look seemed to appear in his eyes, his mood was turbulent.
Nanren meant her death, but Yun inexplicably remembered that bar scene when she left him.
Then he looks so serene, as if he doesn't care if one's mood gets ruined, if his life gets dark.
He clearly trusted the system and knew he would call the police. But how could his sudden reckless abandonment justify him? He was wrong, he was wrong, and he couldn't find a word to object to.
He hadn't noticed until now, what kind of scumbag was he really?
And how could Nanren still be affected by a scum like your front?
The man, who was crying and whining so much that he almost choked on his neck, complaining silently, seemed to hold his heart in his hands. He was aching, constricting, making him speechless.
"When you died voluntarily… did you ever think about us for a second?" The muffled voice is terribly distressing, strangling and suffocating his soul. He opened his mouth but couldn't answer.
Yes, what to say?
He was just selfish, selfish and exhausted at the thought of putting an end to everything, he wanted to give up.
There was clearly no time, and the tue option seemed to appear before him, refusing to look for other ways, because he really…was incredulous at a certain point, maybe just wrapped up in that expression from the very beginning.
"Why are you giving us the chance to hug the body of your loved one? Is your conscience clear, to die with a good expression and walk away?"
No, but he couldn't answer, and he silently bowed his head.
Obviously, if he searched, he might have found other options, no matter how difficult, but he blindly insisted on this path. His option is clearly no different from suicide, and he has hurt everyone around him without even knowing that thought alone.
Yun could not answer because he knew the pain of death of his loved one.
He felt then that he was going crazy thinking about his family, but in the end he was making those who loved him feel the same.
Is your conscience comfortable?
Of course not.
There seemed to be a lump in her throat, while Nanren was silently vomiting all her reluctance, Yun just accepting.
What can he say? Other than saying you're right?
The more Nanren spoke, the more he felt wronged, while Yun could only silently comfort him.
Nanren was still afraid, in the face of this giving up and giving up behavior no matter what might happen in the future, so she couldn't help bringing the subject up again and again and letting it go until she was sure.
He clearly doesn't know, it's hard to say if he'd ever experience something like this again, it's hard to say if he'd crash, maybe he'd go crazy straight.
-To be continued-