I sauntered into the forest and leaned on a coast redwood. My heart weighed more than usual. I felt like I needed some time to relax. I needed alcohol at that moment but where would I find a tavern in the middle of the forest? All I could do was to suffer.
There was a stinging sensation deep down the place where my heart was. Pain and disappointment made me weak. I sat down next to the wood and buried my face in my palms.
'Why did I trust her again?' I couldn't forgive myself for doing so. I made a fool out of myself, again. All that took her to forsook was just a glance of him. I am nothing to her. She never really considered me as someone important in her life. Never!
It made sense. Why would she choose a barbarous man with no known lineage? Wasn't it obvious from the beginning? All she wanted was to control me. She wanted me as her pawn. Nothing more. Nothing more...
