"I love you with all the meaning of this word. I love you with all my senses that yearn to see you. I love you with all my longings to hear your voice. I love you with all the musical tones that this word contains. I love you with all the troubles this word hides. I say the word 'I love you' to only you . And I do not want to hear it from anyone but you. No matter how many times this word will be said to me, it will never feel the same way I feel when it is said by you. You are the one who taught me how the feeling of love is. My heart only beats with your love and I was not able to hear my heartbeats until I saw you. After all this, they still dare to ask me why do I love you this much? I wish they were able to hear my heartbeats calling for you and feel it and know how much I love you and miss you even though you are right next to me, but I still miss you." This is one of the ways that Blade used to express his love for Ian in his diary.
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