“After months of being forced to serve the emperor, luckily or unluckily, I became pregnant. Yes, that child is you Ren. I became the empress after safely giving birth to a healthy son. However, I felt no love for you and definitely none for your father. I was treated as less than a human being and I felt less than one. I’m sorry…” she said as her voice shook with intense emotion.
“It’s ok…mother…” Ren whispered as he squeezed his mother’s hand a little tighter.
“When I look at you all I can think about is the hatred I have for your father and all that he has done to me, my people and our land. I thought as time went by, I would forget…but it was impossible. Every time he touched me; I was so disgusted I wish I could die. Whenever I saw your face, I was reminded by all those nightmares. Whenever I felt any joy from the luxuries that the life of an empress had to offer, I felt guilty towards those who have suffered and died…” she continued on.
