I didn't actually go fishing, I went fishing metaphorically and I caught what I was looking for. I caught inspiration.
Really quickly, I've tried, but for some reason I can't seem to write when I'm happy. I think I've made it a habit at this point and a way of thinking that I have to write when I'm in some sort of pain and suffering.
So I'm a little unhappy, which is what I call my peak writing state. Just a little bit of temporary depression.
Writing can make me happy, but I only feel like I've accomplished something when it's difficult. If it's too easy or too smooth I get really insecure and I feel I'm doing something wrong. I take success and that smoothness for granted, I have a looming fear of stagnation and questioning whether I'm actually improving.
So when I'm not writing consistently, I'm either occupied with other endeavors or that I'm actually happy. XD
Anyways, one last remark on VIP chapters.
I've been holding off on actually going premium.
Even though I really should, but at some level I don't really value myself and writing all that much. I look down too much on money to actually try to make any in exchange for passion. Which keeps my writing pure I guess? but it also seems really stupid as well.
Anyway I know I should VIP my chapter at 30, then I told myself 60, at volume 2 and volume 100. We're already at chapter 102, so maybe I'll procrastinate it until I reach chapter 150 if I ever get there.
Anyway if you're an author, value yourself, sign a contract and get paid to write. Don't be an idiot/hypocrite like me doing this for free. (an idiot for not taking my own advice, hypocrite for the same reason)
People take free chapters for granted and value paid chapters more. You'll also value yourself. Learn more about what people are willing to pay to read and gain some loyal supporters and fans.
Now without further ado, I've got more chapters to write.