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I startled as I heard the alarm and went silent for a moment.
Yup, I have anxiety disorder. It's hard sometimes to handle it. But I'm used to it now.
Though my parents don't know about it. I even tried to tell them but they never listen to me and nothing will ever change even if I tell them, they will just never believe that I can have phycological issues too.
I took a long breath and went outside my room and saw my mother cooking breakfast in the kitchen, as always dad went to work early. I sat on the crouch and switched on the TV. I'm not very close with my parents. They are very strict always, I never went against them But..
It's a pain that you can't have your own space because... Sometimes you really need it.
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"According to our report, there will be heavy rain today. Thunderstorms may occur too." - Weather Report on the TV
"Oh c'mon! it's such a lovely day. I don't think so it'll rain. Weather Reports aren't always correct" I commented on the report while opening the newspaper to read. It was my habit to read newspaper everyday.
"Mickey, Don't watch TV early in the morning go and get ready!", Mom scolded me serving breakfast on the table and asked, "What's the time? Aren't you late?"
So I eye rolled and replied carelessly, "No mommy! I woke up early today. I don't think so that I'm lat-"
I turned my head to see the time on the clock. It's 07:45 AM!!!! IM LATE!

"omg! I AM late!" I Exclaimed out of shock.
Mom became even more angry and said, "That's why I told you not to watch TV in the morning. But you NEVER listen to me."
I sighed and replied "Sorry Mommy!" in a hustle with a grin.

Sigh.. late again.. what do I do with this girl, she's always so careless. How's she even gonna face the world. I don't want her to just end up as a teacher like me. Teacher is good too but only if you get the government job otherwise that's a waste. I couldn't do more than this but I won't let my baby suffer like me.
"Mickey! Be quick!"
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I rushed towards shower, came out, dressed up, Ran to the table for breakfast. Even though I rushed everything, I still didn't had time for breakfast.

"Mom, I'm getting late for school. I won't have breakfast today." I said rushing towards the door.
Mom gave me a cheese sandwich and said, "Here, have this. Eat this on your way. One should never starve themselves. It's bad for your health to skip breakfast."
"Fine." I replied in a hustle
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I rushed towards my bus with the sandwich in my hand. There I saw Selena, my Bestie waving at me.
"Mickey here!" She exclaimed waving at me with a bright smile as always.
"Oh hey!" I rushed towards her just when I saw her.
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We have been Besties for almost 4 years now.
Just beside her was sitting, her boyfriend, Jack. She always keeps her boy beside her, no matter where. or how they are. They are together for almost 3 years now. Though I don't believe in Love but even a passerby could tell that they are truly in love.
I still remember that day when we met.
Casey, the most popular million tree mean girl of our school. Everyone just loves her or.. You can say everyone is scared of her as her dad is a political leader and her mom is a teacher in our school.
Everyone worships her as if she is a goddamn goddess or something and I just didn't like how everyone follows her just because they are so scared of her.
That day when she tried to bully Selena and acted up all like a fake bitch as if she was just fooling around with her. Everyone took it as a mere joke.. but it was more than that.
I was a freshmen at that time and I didn't really had many friends. I liked being a low-key instead of being in the spot light. I noticed that it wasn't a joke and she was really being bullied.
I felt it wasn't a good thing to bully someone for your own fun and displaying it as just a joke to everyone. I made my first move and told them to stop doing that because it wasn't just a joke.
I mean.. of course! For the sake of goodness it really wasn't.
But then again, bitches will be bitches.
Her whole gangs started laughing and she hit Selena on her face so hard that her nose stared bleeding. I was SO fucking furious at them all because I've been a bullying victim myself too.
I know how miserable it is.
I decided that wasn't the right time to fight so I helped Selena get up and to the medical room.
That's when our friendship started.
it was a beautiful sunny day today, I knew it won't rain. I loved the sweet wind blowing and the flowers were blooming as it was spring.
It was such a lovely day.
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As I was going towards her, Cassie tripped me over and I fell on the floor.
Everyone in the bus burst into laughter as if it was a comedy show or something.
As I was helping myself up Cassie smirked and said sarcastically, "oh look the great almighty protector slut fell down! Isn't anyone gonna help her up?" No one dared to reply. "Seems like I have to help you up myself" and gives me her hand then takes it back and says,"no wait! what if my precious hand gets dirty because of this bitch? Ugh you're so disgusting ew I'm scared that you might even give me a disease."
I got up and eye rolled at her. I can clearly hear her getting frustrated because I ignored her. And I was kind of enjoying it too.
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Finally, I reached Selena. She's looking all adorable as always.
"Mickey! Where were you last week? Do you know how much you've left to catch up?"
"oh. About that. I was grounded."
"oh right! I totally forgot about that!" she exclaimed.
"Yeah" I replied as I sat beside her.
She noticed something wasn't right and asked, "Wassup babez. You sound low"
"oh it's nothing." I smiled at her.
I didn't want her to be worried about me. Of course she doesn't know about my anxiety disorders too. I just go silent whenever I try to tell about it to anyone.
As I smile I notice Jack.
Pfft I totally forgot about Jack. He's always been a good friend. He's just like my elder brother. Even my parents treat him as their own son.
"hello Jackie!"
He smiled at me, "hi Mickey :)"
I make a poker face and asked, "Wassup bro? Why you being nice to me today?"
He chuckled and replied,"I'm always nice to you Lil sis"
I eye rolled at him, "yeah yeah. As if."

As I sat beside Selena, I noticed that guy talking to Jackie. He was.. So handsome and cute. Selena kept talking about everything I missed during I got grounded but I'm not really listening to her. I keep staring at him as if I'm hypnotized. I don't know what's exactly happening to me right now.
Selena noticed me and asked, "girlllll. Are you even listening?"
I still can't move my gaze away and reply ,"yeah.. I'm listening... I REALLY missed a lot of things"
She noticed who I was staring at and tried her best to stop her laughter but couldn't and giggled but my fucking stupid ass still didn't notice her.

Just as I'm lost in my world. The guy stares back at me and our eyes met. And when He smirked at me, I came back to reality and then felt embarrassed about my actions. The guy now doesn't look away and keeps staring at me. I'm getting angry now. Not on him but at myself for being so stubborn.
Selena noticed the chemistry between us and whispers Jack to introduce us to each other.

O M G! THEY FUCKING HAVE THAT CHEMISTRY. IDK maybe I'm just imagining things but what's even wrong with introducing them. Who knows what the future will be like. But TBH I SHIP IT!
I poke at Jack and whisper, "introduce them!"
Jack is confused, "introduce who???"
I giggle and reply," pfft introduce your sister and him. "
He replied with a confusing look again, "okay but why are you whispering this? "
I whisper-yell at him, "ugh just fucking do it!"
Jack replied, "okay babe calm down"

Jack moves towards us and says, "Mick, this is Taehyung. We've been best friends since childhood. Tae, this is Mickey. She's my only beloved sister I told you about."
Taehyung smirks," you can call me V or tae too, Mick"
I shutterd, "o-okay"
It was the most awkward silence after that conversation I've ever had in my life.