Seeing the stars of the bright and clear night, the vibrant light of the billboards, feeling the wind brush past my body, seeing the crowds of people hearing the laughter, people holding hands.

I felt envious of the couple seeing them smile and laugh hoping that it would have been me …

Why did God make me come to this, I have no one in this world, the only person was taken away from me.

'Thinking is this fucking world a mere phantasm' is a quote by a so-called "friend".

I didn't understand it then, but now I understand it quite well.

I pulled out my phone, set it up on a tripod, and started to record my goodbye message, as I felt it was an obligatory courtesy to adhere to.

There's no one left for me to care about in this world. This is a video for those who led me to this moment.

Saying that they won, Tears start rolling down my eyes. I wipe the tears and start the video

"Hi - Hello, if you're seeing this, it means you have won, I no longer exist in this world. The things you started to do from the past 5 years led me here, the endless backstabs, the fights, the killing"

I take a deep breath. Staring at the camera, I continue" The girl I liked, who played me like a fool, roping me around her little finger and using me, and for those who helped me and didn't let this moment come sooner thank you, goodbye. "

Thinking about it now. It wasn't climatic as I thought it would be.

I post it on social media and send my only friend a goodbye message and jump over the little fence.

I see below I turn around and jump.

Feeling the wind brush past my body at such high speed, my mind going 100 miles per hour.

I land. hearing the screams, the sirens.

Slowly losing sight and hearing, unable to feel my legs I say to myself

'Fuck u world, goodbye '