The wind started to shift becoming stronger and cold. Droplets of rain begun to fall on our roof and splashing to my window. I can feel the chill even though I'm wearing a thick jacket and a pair of socks on my feet. I can't do anything if this weather last all day. This is weird but I like it. After all even on my age (19) Im not the type of person to spend a lot of time outside. I like being alone and not talking to people but that changes when a saw that girl. She's weird than me. She's on my age but out there running on the rain playing with her dog. She throw a small rock on my window and it catches my attention, "Hey you there! Do you have some small container I could borrow?" I don't know what to reply so I just drop the container on my window and then she give me a smile, "Thanks a lot! I needed this to save a caterpillar I saw back there, its been carried away by the water. I'm Kisa by the way." My eyes couldn't stop looking at her smile. I took a deep breath and,"Im Ejay and I live here, take care of the caterpillar." Of all the words I could say Im sprouting nonsense in front of her. Before she leaves I don't even get to ask where she lives. Im such an idiot.

The next day, early at the morning my mom is calling me from the kitchen," Ejay! could you please check whose knocking on the door? I cooking breakfast." I quickly go downstairs to check and when I open the door its the delivery man for the milk and egg. When I'm halfway through the stairs going back to my room there's another person knocking at the door. Oh boy! Im eager to go back to my room, im close at beating my high score in my game so I rushed to the door and when I open it I also suddenly close it. Its Kisa and I'm just on my boxer shorts. I open the door a little and saw her holding her laughter, " Good morning! Im here to return your container. Thanks a lot even though my caterpillar didn't make it home. It suffocated inside the container." She smiles and,"Don't worry I didn't saw anything. Hahaha" Her voice is a music for the ear and she's so cute when she laugh. While I'm standing behind the door," Ejay! Is that your friend? Tell her to come and join as for breakfast!" I don't know what to do at that moment I'm shocked when " Hi Tita! I'm Kisa. My family just moved here last week. Our house is just a block away from your house." My mom talk with Kisa for a bit so I rush to my room and change my clothes. The moment I came back downstairs Kisa and Mom are already so close. Maybe because its unusual for her to see a friend of mine. Because in reality I really don't have any... While eating my mom ask Kisa which school is she attending and its so happened that we are on the same school and course. Kisa is having a hard time catching up on our lessons so my mom offered some help by, " Oh! What a coincidence, your on the same department as Ejay, maybe he could help you with some of your assignments. Right Ejay?!" The table turn uncomfortable for me but seeing Kisa so happy for it, I can't turn it down. " Hmm. Yes.ss. I think I could hel..." "Yes! thanks Tita, Ejay. I'll go ask my Mom. Thanks for the breakfast by the way. Your cooking is so delicious!" I don't even get to finish what I'm saying. But she looks so happy. The same day, Kisa went at our house at night to help her with her assignments and now, she's on my room.

"Ahhhhh! Im so tired of this, I should listen very well to our teachers the next time. Math is such a pain." She looks so mad and suddenly she walk to my bed and slump. " Uhmm? Kisa?" She's not answering. She just lay down on my bed and now she's asleep? I pull myself together and sit straight to the couch. An hour passes, two hour pass I don't remember falling asleep and I just remember that I don't give her a blanket. She looks so cold. I grab a extra blanket and slowly lay it down to her. The moment I finished giving her a blanket she suddenly grab my hand and talk to her sleep," Thank you, your so kind to me." My heart is pounding, I know I'm happy but there is a feeling that I couldn't explain, and its amazing. I can't loss Kisa's hold on my hand. I don't want to freak her out if she wakes up so I let her and wait for her to loosen up her grip. Cringgg!Cringgg! Cringgg! The next time I open my eyes. Its already morning and Kisa, Kisa's face is too close on mine. What should I do? I'm feeling nervous. " Good morning Ejay! I'm sorry I dozed off. We didn't get to finish my assignments. But it's ok I'll just come here again later. Could I?" How could I say no, she's such a cutie." Its fine with me. You could come over anytime." Seeing her smile every time makes me feel happy. My Mom also seems to be comfortable with her around. As time passes by me and Kisa become more close and bestfriends. She always come over my house to study together and sometimes my Mom also taught her how to cook. Sometimes I also come over her place to hangout. On her birthday we steal some wine in her house and bring it to my place. At that time both of my parents are on  vacation so for now the whole house is ours. We play some music, dance and sing together. After some glass of wine, we already drunk half of the bottle and a bit tipsy. While dancing Kisa tripped over and accidentally grabbed on my shorts and pulled it down. She laughed at me,"Hahaha! Why your taking your clothes off? Are we going naked tonight? hahaha" and take off her shirt. " Its my birthday today so I'll do anything I waaaaant!" Then feel down and go to sleep. She's beautiful as ever. Her lips looks so soft. I wonder if its sweet. I transfer her to the bed and give her a blanket. I proceed with the couch and take a nap. Its 2am and I feel some weight on me. Its Kisa laying in top of me. I just wake her up when I moved because I'm surprised," Why? Why you don't do anything to me? Im half naked and drunk. Am I not that attractive to you?" Its a wrong move staring in her eyes while she's saying that things. Its unfair." Your beautiful, inside and out. I respect you and I love you. I don't want to take advantage of your weakness just to get a temporary happiness. If I want to do that. I'll do it with you on your free will." Her tears run down her eyes and she give me a tight hug. " Your such an idiot. For a long time time I thought you just saw me as a your friend. " My heart keeps pounding as if its gonna burst anytime now. This feeling, its my first time having this feeling.

Me and Kisa got into a relationship. Our relationship is now on its 4th year. We've been in this for a long time but Kisa's father seems not to like me that much compared to the time that we were still just bestfriends. He's approach towards me changes and getting worse as time passes. One day, Kisa was ask by her father to go visit her grandparents but after that our means of communication disappear. Days, weeks and a month passes we still haven't heard a word from Kisa. Her Mom due to my everyday visit in asking for update of her tell me the truth. Kisa is now engaged with the son of her father's business partner. The time I know the truth, I couldn't believe, I couldn't accept it. Is there really a chance she could actually done it to me? Kisa? My long time bestfriend and the first ever girl to enter my life I couldn't accept it. After that day I locked my self  inside my room not ready to see anyone. But that day, my Mom knocked on my door telling me Kisa is outside and wanted to talk to me. I couldn't walk straight for I barely eat anything for 2 days. I looked directly in her eyes. She's smiling but all I see in her eyes are pure sadness," Why did you do this to me Kisa? I love you more than my life. We've been together for a long time. You promise me you me." My voice is trembling with my tears getting on my mouth, " My wedding is tomorrow, here is the invitation. Please come. Please..." By pure anger the invitation that she handed me, I throw it away under the bed and I've been swallowed by my anger. Tomorrow I'm going to attend Kisa's wedding but not as a guest but to take the life if those who betrayed me.

The next day I come to the church slamming its door. Kisa looks so beautiful in her white dress. I always dreamed of the day together with her but now I'm not the one on her side. I run towards her now seeing happiness in her eyes, I closed mine as I point the gun in her head. The moment before I pulled the trigger," Thank you for coming. I love you and I will always will. Don't worry everythings gonna be alright." After that moment I saw my life and our memories flashing back into my eyes and saw the woman I love the most cover in blood. I killed the most important person in my life. "I should end my life too..." But before I pulled the trigger I've been taken down by some of the guest. I've been sent to prison for 12 years, my sentence should be 30 years but due to good behavior I've been released early. My house especially my room when I got back home looks so dirty so I started cleaning. I moved the bed and saw a invitation. Its the same invitation Kisa gives me. Actually its the actual invitation. I don't even think to open it 12 years ago because of my anger. I open it and a letter is inside not an invitation," Please help me Ejay, I don't want to mary that guy. I dont even know him. His just the son of my dad's business partner. Save me please. Lets run away and start our own life away from them. I love you so much and I can't do that thing especially to betrayed you. Please come. I'll be waiting for you. " Its a letter from Kisa. "Ohh God, what I have done." My strength started to disappear. I could stand on my own. I couldn't control my tears from taking over me. " I'm so sorry Kisa!"

The same gun I used to killed her was still in me. I should go myself to personally apologize to her. I'm coming my love, I'm coming.