“I did but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. Zak…he’s really just going to marry Annie in name only,” I explained the source of my frustration.
“And you find that sad, right?” Reiner said understandingly.
“Yes. He says she’s truly in love with him and doesn’t mind marrying him even if he doesn’t love her. She’s so optimistic. She believes that Zak will fall in love with her eventually after they get married,” I said as I felt my brows knitting together.
“However, you don’t think so…” Reiner said, accurately summarizing my thoughts.
“Zak only believes in love at first sight. If it doesn’t happen then, then it doesn’t happen…ever. Personally, I don’t know what I want. If he doesn’t love her, then they’ll both suffer, and Annie will probably suffer the most. But if he loves her then he’ll no longer be in love with me, right?” I voiced my thoughts out loud before laughing at how foolish and hypocritical I sounded. At times like these, I just plainly hated myself.
