“We are not going to go further than this,” I said in a firm voice as I gripped both of Natalia’s wrists using just one of my hands. She is so small compared to me. Her wrists are tiny and thin in my hand.
I did my best to fulfill Natalia’s desires today and I firmly refuse to go any further. My first time with her will not be in a car and not when she’s still confused about how she feels like this. There will be many more opportunities to fully indulge in our desires in the future once we are clearer about our feelings and their implications. There is no need for us to rush things. Most importantly, I don’t want Natalia to regret any of her decisions from now on.
Natalia is a lot more stubborn than I thought and I can see the displeasure in her eyes when she heard my refusal. She must learn patience and how to make smart decisions. I hope I will be able to teach her a bit of this while I’m still with her…
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