Previously
"Split up."
His last words to me
At Doon gumuho ang mundo ko
Gusto kong magwala
Gustoo kong mam bugbog
Gusto kong manuntok
Gusto kong sugatan sarili ko
Gusto kong patayin sarili ko
Pero wala na akong magagawa.
Bumitaw na siya saakin.
Siya na ang bumitaw ang sakit sobra
Hindi ko talaga mapatapatawad sarili ko sa nangyari
Sinayang ko chansa ko sakanya
Isa talaga akong malaking pagkakamali
Sinayang ko siya
Mahal na mahal ko siya
Sa tutuusin hindi ganun kadaling mag move on
Haist
Hindi ko kaya na wala siya sa buhay ko.
There goes my hope
Gone with him
Now there's not a chance on having him back to me
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Weeks have passed
Its now November 11, 2019
We're back on being strangers again
Saan ako?
Here at school reviewing
And tomorrow is the first part of our exam
Kamusta na ako?
Heto mukhang lumalala pakiramdam ko
Hmmm kailan lang biglang nanikip muli dibdib ko
Tinawa ko nalang kahit sobrang sakit
Gusto kong hawakan at ipitin
Pero
Ayaw kong makita nila yung sakit na nararamdaman ko
After school I went home and take a rest with a glass of water beside me
Ilang tao na nasabihan ko nung nararamdaman ko
Pero wala ni isang taong mahalaga at mahal ko ang nakakaalam tinatago ko
Ayaw ko silang mag alala
Ha! I wish they'll be concern about my health
But no they dont care about me
Kahit sabihin ko wala silang pake
Itinulog ko nalang
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November 12, 2019
Kahit namag review ako walang pumapasok mukhang stuck knowledge nanaman ako ah
I read all the questions and answer them all honestly
Break time
Hindi ko inisip mag recess, nag review nalang ako para sa next na test.
I'm still on water therapy
bwisit na puso bakit hindi nalang huminto kakatibok para mawala lahat ng problema
at mawala na akomg isang problema sa mundo
After the test
I came home holding my chest where I can feel my heart beat
Feeling ko bumabagal
Hmmm don't know don't care
Same as on November 13, 2019
I reviewed
Take the tests
Go home
Then sleep
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November 19, 2019
My last words
That's the last message I'll ever made
I've made my mind
I gave up
Walang wala na akong chance
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And yan na po since day july 8 to november 19
Done or is it?
Alam niyo ba ito ai isang short-story
It stops like my love story
Hahaha thank you
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Ms_Bunny