I'm still stuck in my soon to be mother's womb.
...
Weird.
In the beginning, I did try to count the time or something, but I soon realized that doing something like was pointless and… boring.
All I could was pray that my soon to be mother, would just go into labor soon.
As I literally had all the time in the world, I've given much thought to my current predicament and my future plans.
At first, I just wanted to die as soon as possible.
My death would be my punishment for being the cause of my daughter's death.
Everybody I cared about died.... see the common denominator here ?
It's me.
I'm the fucking problem.
I make everybody around me suffer.
So it's only reasonable that I kill myself, right ?
But I didn't know how to end my life which hadn't even truly begun. So, I ultimately decided to end my life after being born.
'Uhh... it's all very complicated.', I think to myself.
But I changed my decision once I realized something.
From what I've been told, my original dimension was right next to this one..... Lather also mentioned something about a cycle of reincarnation.... I'm pretty sure that my wife and daughter are in heaven, they're not like me.
I remember that bastard god saying something about how the people in heaven gets a choice... to stay in heaven or to reincarnate...
What if Katrina or Daisy choose.....to reincarnate ?
Lather didn't specifically say that the reincarnation cycle was random...so if my guess is right.... then if the both of them did indeed choose to reincarnate, then the chance of them being in the dimension I'm in right now was....very high.
I might have unconsciously made up some kind of excuse to prevent my own death.... but the hope that ignited in my heart after thinking this didn't go out...and it will never go out until I find them.
Don't ask me how or when....but I'll do it and this time I'll protect them properly.
To protect them.... I need power.
So the first thing that I have decided to do after being born is build up my strength, using that mana and shit and then find my wife and child.
I strengthened my resolve and kicked for the first time in this life after making this decision.
I was surprised to hear muffled noises after I kicked, I always thought that the information that babies can hear in the womb was horseshit, but it seems that there's some truth to it.
I try to decipher the words but give up as soon as I started because I couldn't understand anything.
Now that I think about it, is the language spoken in the this world similar to the language back home, it's most probably something different.
It's going to be hard to learn a whole new language from scratch, but I was always a quick learner so it should be fine.
Now all I had to do was get out of this damn womb.
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After a long time, finally there was a change.
I could see a very bright light at the opposite end.
From my viewpoint it looked like the light at the end of the tunnel, my hope.
But I knew what it really was, it was my mother's v-...
Let's just not think about it.
I struggle to move forward but manage to reach the light.
'Finally.... it's time.', I think as the bright light engulfs me.
It takes me some time for my eyes to adjust to the bright light, but when I do I'm surprised to find a women slapping my baby butt.
.....
Stop, It hurts.
I slap her with my baby hands to make her stop, which she does...
Why does she have horns ?
But all my thoughts go away as I'm given to a woman lying on a bed with a tired expression on her face.
The woman looked like my.... mother.
Of course, she looks a lot younger but there's no doubt about it...
This woman was an exact replica of my mother from Earth.
...
What the hell is going on ?
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A women lay on a bed, panting heavily.
She was in pain, yet her eyes were firm and held a certain fire in them. The woman had long silky black hair and her eyes were of the same color as well.
Several women stood around the bed encouraging the women to 'push' harder.
The women standing closest to the women in labor was holding her hand and silently reassuring her that everything was going to be alright.
Unlike the rest of the women standing beside her, the women reassuring the women in labor looked significantly older.
After about an hour, the baby finally succeeds in finding his way out of his mother's womb. Everyone in the room is smiling tremendously, happy that a new life had just been born.
But the smiles on their faces soon disappear.
Something was wrong.... the baby wasn't crying.
'' What's w-wrong ?'', the mother of the baby asks in a trembling voice.
One of the women takes the baby and hit him gently on the back to get some sort of reaction from him. But the baby still doesn't utter a sound. The woman raises the baby up in the air and gasps once she sees that the baby's eyes was wide open.
Tears were falling down from his eyes, but he still doesn't cry.
The baby slowly raises its arm and brings it closer to the woman's cheek.
All the people inside the room let out a sigh of relief but at the same time they felt a little afraid.
The baby not crying was not a good sign. Some superstitious people might consider this an 'ominous' sign. But the mother of the child doesn't mind any of this and asks for her baby with a bright but tired smile on her face.
The women standing closest to her, hands the baby to her saying,
'' Here you go, Cecile.''
Cecile holds her baby in her arms tenderly, all the women could see the love she had for the baby in her eyes.
The hearts of some of the women warmed at this touching sight but not all felt the same way. Some others felt pity, malice and envy to the duo in front of them.
But all their thoughts stop at the same time as a man abruptly enters the room.
The women standing around Cecile all make way for the man and bow their head to show their respect to their master.
The man had white hair that resembled snow and eyes that were a dark red. He had a fit physique and walked in long strides towards Cecile.
Seeing the man approaching her, Cecile feels tense and scared. She gazes intently at the floor, avoiding his scrutinizing gaze.
The man says nothing to her and just takes the baby out of her hands, Cecile didn't want to give him the baby... but she had no choice other than to relent as this man could kill both her and her baby in an instant if he wished so.
The man stares into the baby's eyes with a frown on his face .
'' At least it's a boy.... he'll have some use.'', saying this the man practically throws the baby back to Cecile and goes out of the room just as he had got in.
Tears start flowing down from her face after the man takes his leave.
Seeing her crying so miserably, the elderly women chose to her comfort her,
'' It's going to alright dear.''
'' Thank you, Bonny.'', Cecile responds back to her kind words.
'' Do you have a name for him yet ?'', Bonny asks trying to change the depressing atmosphere in the room.
Hearing her question, Cecile nods her head and said,
'' Alexander.... it was my grandfather's name.''
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Late that night, the light in Cecile's room suddenly turns on, waking both her and the baby. Bonny who was also staying in the room wakes up. She had stayed behind to make sure that she could keep an eye on Cecile so that if her health worsened she could help her.
An middle aged women, along with a knight following behind her enters the room.
'' Show 'it' to me.'', the old women's voice contains no hint of emotion.
Cecile felt that coming at midnight to see her baby was odd, but yet again she had no other choice but to relent to the wishes of this women. She cautiously hands Alexander to her.
The old woman stares at the baby for a minute before handing the baby to Bonny who was standing near the both of them. Bonny accepts the baby even though she was confused as to what was happening.
The women held Cecile's hands tightly and said with a gentle smile on her face,
'' Look at you.... you must be happy ,you whore. You succeeded in seducing my son who already had a wife and now you think you've scored big haven't you ?''
'' That's not t-'', Cecile starts to speak but the women cuts her off and continues on,
'' I won't let you ruin my son's life like this.'', saying this the women nods at the knight and walks away, dragging Bonny along with her. Bonny didn't try to fight against her because she knew.... if she fought she would lose her life.
The three of them get out of the room and wait behind the other end of the door.
'' GIVE ME BACK MY BABY !'', Cecile's screams echo throughout the mansion but not a single person comes to help her.
Cecile tries to get up from her bed but before she can do so, the knight gets on top of her, with a complicated expression on his face. He takes the pillow beside her and starts suffocating her. She struggles, a blue light forms on her hand shoots the knight's earlobe.
' This human can use mana ?!', was the thought that passed through the mind of the knight. He increased the pressure in the pillow when the pain hit him. As Cecile's body was weak from giving birth, she couldn't do much else but give in to the embrace of death.
" I'm sorry.... I have no choice.", the knight whispers to no one in particular.
A single tear falls down from her eyes,
' I'm sorry, Alex.'
With that thought, she leaves this world behind.
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As I couldn't understand much of the language, I couldn't really grasp what was going on but I got the general picture of what's happening.
My mother's probably dead by now....
Just a few minutes ago, two individuals had come into our room and spoken something to my mother. An old women and a knight, after the old lady finished speaking, she took me and that women near my mother away.
I could hear my mother screaming right now...
I don't know why they're killing her but I felt upset at her death.
I know that I've only known her for a day, but maybe it's because I came out of her or it might be because I felt a connection to her since she looked so similar to my mother from Earth, but I know that-
I can't do anything to help her.
All I can do right now is try to survive and... remember.
I look at the face of the old women, so that I don't forget what happened today. So that when the time comes.. she gets what she deserves.
Long ago, someone said to me,
'If you kill ,be prepared to die as well.'
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