As I lay down on my bed scrolling through Metube with my fingers swiping in the empty air, I started to think of my long term plans for a bit.
Power? Money? Health? Immortality?
Many thoughts rapidly filled my mind as I realize how massive the responsibility has befallen upon me.
The ability to heal is simple, you damaged yourself? Well, I can heal it for you, it's as simple as that.
But if I can heal somebody, back from the dead? Now wouldn't that pose so much risk upon me.
I could, realistically, become the Messiah or Hope of this era, becoming the next Saint along with the Saintess.
But, herein lies the problem, I am also, a Despair.
The one deemed as the greatest threat to humanity, the greatest villain whose infamy spread throughout the world, the big baddy.
So I could become Hope, I could become Despair, two opposing choices laid in front of me, me!
I suffered from depression, suicidal thoughts, mental problems!
I suffered so much and I can't even feel that much happier because something much bigger just somehow fell down from the sky and onto my lap.
"Sigh" I sighed in annoyance while scratching my head and looked around my room, trying to find an answer to this weird philosophical question of mine as existential dread started to fill my mind.
"Gah! Fuck!" I said while covering my face with my pillow and felt the cold pillow calming my head.
"Hmm, maybe... I should just enjoy life" I muttered in a muffled voice and started to think in a simpler way, why not just enjoy life?
"I suffered for so long now, maybe I should just stay like this. Just a normal boy with no big dreams, but how about making it more fun?" I muttered as my mind started to get enlightened and soon, I started to get out of this existential dread of mine.
"Why not just become a normal person? But... let's make it a fulfilling life, start trading, get rich, make my parents proud, just what a normal person with the power to heal will have?" I muttered and soon, I started to see how I will live my life, maybe.
"Eh, I'll cross the bridges I have to face when I do face them so let's start planning stuff on how to get rich with 1000 dollars I currently have" I muttered as I made a goal that I can use to cope with the problems I will have to face with this new power of mine.
"Hmm, I could become rich inside New World and use that as a source of income? Why not, I could become a priest that will heal others in-game for a cheap price, but before that..." I muttered and looked outside my window and saw the vast white world of snow.
"I should explore the world first" I muttered and look towards my drawer and took out a hoodie and some thick pants and transformed into the girl I killed yesterday.
I then put on the clothes I took out as the girl I killed yesterday and it was just the perfect fit.
"Nice" I muttered and looked at my Gtech Phone and saw the resounding 1000 dollars inside it and lick my lips in excitement.
"Let's go on to a grand adventure!" I shouted with star filled eyes and opened my window, and as the windows opened, I was greeted by the cold but now bearable snow and took a deep breath and felt the cold fresh air entering my lungs and sighed in wonder.
Soon, my body started to float on its own and flew out of my window but not before closing it on the way out, and now, I am outside my house flying as a cute little blond-haired girl.
"Weee!" I shouted high up in the sky and saw the houses near where I live and look towards the city and saw people flying left and right along with the prestigious Hope Academy slap right in the middle of Hope City, and I live somewhere at the outer edges of the city so its quite peaceful back at home.
Soon, I landed on the ground as only people with the qualifications to fly can fly inside crowded areas and I don't have one so I landed somewhere where people can't see me and walked into the city as if nothing was wrong and saw many kinds of people walking around, from black to white to pink and red, some have horns while others have flame beards, all kinds of Gifted people walked around the area along with Heroes patrolling around to keep the untrained civilians safe.
Hmm, how do I even get more Gifts in the first place? I can't just go around killing people willy nilly, I need a plan.
So they needed to be healed maybe before or after they died, then kill them again so their Gift will go towards me with that connection, so I need to know how to make that connection in the first place.
I soon look around the vast city and wondered on how do I even get test subjects in the first place and realize one thing, slums, orphans, people who doesn't matter, which was me previously because realistically, I was Giftless before because I couldn't even heal people before.
But there are no slums inside Hope City, it's literally one of the safest places in the world as it houses the greatest of heroes and minds in the world with Hope Academy literally in the middle.
I soon scratched my head in annoyance as I realize how much data I actually lack for my Gift, what is the distance where I could heal people? Could people detect that I am healing them? Do the people I heal also feel that sort of connection and loss, or perhaps a sense of gain? So many questions that I didn't even think before filled my mind with no ways of answering them inside this pristine city of Hope.
Wait, I could just volunteer as a healer for the hospital for a few hours, they would love that young people are willing to help others for free and who doesn't like free unpaid workers.
So with that thought in mind, I started to walk towards the hospital where my father and mother work as doctors and already know how to volunteer for free and get some test subjects and hopefully get someone who can die for me.
I soon walk towards the large white building with a red cross as a sign to indicate that it is a hospital and felt the warmer air inside with the help of heaters and saw a lady standing over a counter on the first floor.
"Hello, miss!" I said to the lady with a big wide smile along with activating my charisma.
"Well hello there young lady, what may I help you with?" said the lady with a smile.
"I would like to volunteer as a Gifted healer, I wanted to train my Gift for a bit and why not help others as well?" I said to the lady as she nodded.
"Okay then, may we get your credentials miss?" said the lady.
"My name is Sasaki Akira, family name is Sasaki," I said to the lady as she nodded.
"I am 15, Gift is healing," I said to the lady and finally finished telling her the info she needed.
"Well miss Sasaki, please wait here while I check to see if anyone is in need of your help right now," said the lady while I nodded and sat down on the bench beside the counter and before even a minute, I heard my new identity's name being called by the lady.
"Miss Sasaki, it seems like some children got their knees scrape, they are currently staying over here," said the lady as she pointed at a map on her monitor while I nodded in response.
"Take care, have fun!" said the lady as I walked away and went towards the room where the kids are waiting to get healed and saw a room filled with people having some bleeding knees or hands as this was the room where volunteers can train their healing capabilities and saw other volunteers healing others.
"Hey guys," I said towards the two other volunteers as they look at me with surprise as I just suddenly called them from nowhere.
"You're a volunteer too?" said the white boy in front of me with blond hair and blue eyes wearing some casual clothes that shows his muscular body.
"Yep, so is this the two kids I can heal?" I asked while pointing at the two kids playing with their phones.
"Yes, we were about to heal them but miss Elly said a new volunteer came," said the Asian girl beside the boy that has long black hair and violet eyes while wearing a blue shirt and some pants.
"Mmm," I nodded and walked towards the two boys playing with their phones and pointed my hands at them at about 10 meters away which is a good amount and started to heal one of them who only look at his knee in wonder, probably only felt a cooling sensation on his legs unlike me who felt a sense of loss.
I then walked away a bit more and now it's 15 meters away from the other boy and also healed him without much of a hitch and was satisfied with this distance, because with this, I can probably do some subtle crimes in the near future.
"Wooh, well that's it I guess, see you guys," I said to the other volunteers and walked away from the room and went upstairs to find a dying patient and commit some more experiments with my Gift.
AN: This 1652 words by the way, you're welcome.
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(March 13, 2022 - 109th day of writing)