(Advance warning: Gruesome scenes are up ahead and reader discretion is adviced)
(A Few Hours Later)
"Ngh, it's already noon?" muttered Aki as he took off his high-tech glasses with his vision returning back to the normal world with no floating interfaces.
"Yawn, I wonder what I should have for lunch today? I have a thousand dollars all for me right now so I could probably order online, hmm" muttered Aki as he put on back his glasses after going downstairs and deciding to online instead of cooking for himself.
"Hmm, I'll buy some fried chicken, a bowl of fried rice, and a salad" said Aki as he swipes his hands in mid-air like a weirdo if you see it from an outsider's perspective.
"Arriving in 10 minutes, I guess I can watch more Metube" muttered Aki as he sat down on the large couch situated inside their living room and felt his body being swallowed by the couch's soft body.
Soon, he saw the usual Metube recommendations with one common thing being is that most of the videos he saw were related to one of the most massive games in the market right now called New World.
"And I can't fucking play it because of my weak body and even my parents said I would have a low chance of dying from overstimulation, argh! It's supposed to be the greatest game out there! Then why is it that I would fucking die! Is it because the game is too good that my body can't handle the quality!?" said Aki with a voice that questioned the heavens themselves as he watches the life-like quality of the game and sighed in envy.
"Sigh, I probably won't even be great at the game in the first place. Why am I even like this in the first place? I vividly remember when I became 4 and awakened my Gift, I went and healed papa, mama, and, Haru. And when I healed them, I felt like I lost something and wabam, here I am now having a chronic disease" muttered Aki as he looks at his thin forearms and sighed in acceptance.
"Haha! Born with the Gift of healing but can only use it on me, and I can't even heal this problem that I have!" said Aki in grief as he grabs a knife that was hidden below and neared it to his wrist with trembling hands.
"Fuck! I'll do it over the sink" said Aki as he walks over to the sink and went back to his previous position with the knife just above his wrist as it would definitely kill him.
"GAH! FUCK THIS WORLD!" said Aki as without hesitation, he slit his wrist open as blood flowed like a river from his open wound.
And as the seconds passed by, he can feel his consciousness slowly fading away as his face contorted to that of someone who has gained peace after suffering for a lifetime.
And as his blood finally reached dangerous levels, his eyes lose their shine of life as his body went limp while his hand was over the sink pouring droplets of blood as the story of Aki ended just like that.
Until a miracle suddenly happened as his whole body glowed in a rainbow-like light consisting of a myriad of colors as slowly, his dead heart regained back its vigor as a resounding thump was heard in the dead silence of this barren house.
Soon, the sound of thumps became louder and louder while his open wrist close itself, and soon, a loud gasp was heard from Aki's previously dead body as he took a deep breath and coughed profusely on the floor.
"FUCK! WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING DIE!" said Aki in rage as he banged his head to the floor with maddening rage.
"Why!" said Aki as the repeated sound of flesh hitting the solid floor was heard.
"WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHy! Why! why. why. why.... whyyyyyy sniff why can't I just die" said Aki as tears started to fall down his eyes.
"Why, why did this happen… I just want all of it to end, I was supposed to have a normal life, I was supposed to be a healthy boy! I was supposed to be normal! Why! Why did I gain the power to heal when I can't even fucking heal myself!" said Aki as he started to cry on the floor while he just stayed like that for a few solid minutes until a mad chuckled slowly came out of his mouth.
"Uwah, I really let myself go all out back there huh" said Aki as his previous rage and depression was suddenly gone like nothing as he stood up as if he didn't just commit suicide and had a mental breakdown a few minutes ago as he hummed a joyful tune of a song while taking out a piece of cloth hidden in a secret underground compartment inside the kitchen as his body glowed in an iridescent light and magically, his bruises, red marks and damaged body faded away and reverted back to its peak condition while he took out some cleaning liquid to wipe out the blood spilled all over the wall.
"Sigh, I should have done this in the bathroom instead. I really have a mental problem, don't I? Tsk, if only I could die and leave this weak body of mine littered with pain, and somehow, by an abysmal chance, I'm one of the fucking lucky few who has fucking immortality!" said Aki in rage as he gouges his eyes out and chewed them like bubblegum as the taste of his own eyeballs filled his mouth as a mad chuckle came out of his mouth while his eyes regrown back at a visible pace to the human eye.
"HAHAHAHA! How ironic is that! ME! I have fucking immortality! WHY DO I HAVE FUCKING IMMORTALITY IF I'M SO FUCKING WEAK!" said Aki as he punched his arms towards the ground as it literally snapped in half like a twig as he tsk in response.
"Sigh, control yourself, Aki, it's your mental problem and you get to choose your own coping mechanism. Gah, it was so fucking cringy when I first tried to kill myself years ago, like 5 years old? Yeah, damn, already trying to kill myself 1 year in with this weak fucking body, I really do have a problem, and it would be bad if the government force me to heal people, I think I could revive anyone from the dead really, I'm just too scared like what would happen if I become weaker? What if I become so weak, I get stuck on the border between life and death, continuously dying and reviving? Meh, I'll probably try and revive someone else and see how I would change, I'm weak already and it's no problem if I become weaker if that leads me to finding the light at the end of the tunnel" muttered Aki as he snap his arm back into place while it glowed in a chaotic light of colors as his body healed itself again as he didn't even sweat with him already so much self-harm to himself in the past that his healing capabilities might be the strongest in the world already, even the Saintess can only heal a few people back from the dead and would need to recuperate, she probably doesn't have immortality like he does, but she doesn't have a weak body!
"Gah! I could have been a Saint for fucks sake, why is my Gift so goddamn weird!" said Aki as he wipes the bloody floor in annoyance and cleaned up the bloody mess that he left from one of his typical depression tantrums.
AN: You've fallen under my illusion, you thought I went batshit insane and end the story right there and then.
But yes, Aki is going to be a weird but the most humane main character I ever made ironically enough, like a normal person would definitely have suicidal thoughts if they have a chronic disease.
And besides that, because most of my main characters are basically me but exaggerated to an unknown degree, I have now shown the SWORD OF DAMOCLES!
Yes! The Sword of Damocles that hangs above each and everyone of you is my will to live and write! So send me some goddamn power stones and make big number go bigger.
(March 2, 2022 – 98th day of writing)