"There are only two things that you can do right now, It's either you live or kill yourself"
Calypso Morgan just looked at the man in standing in her room, he looks like the typical grim reaper that you see on dramas and comic books.
A young devilishly handsome guy that is waiting for your soul.
If she was placed in this situation 3 years before this, she might just faint at the sight of the handsome man in front of her, but not now nor ever.
"You can just take my soul if that's what you need" then Calypso just continued to stare at the ceiling of her apartment where she is currently staying.
She moved out of her parent's house thinking that it will be a good idea to change her environment, it was also her last hope and last cry for help, but instead of having things better, it further dragged her down to the point that she just lives to pay her bills and get by.
"This is a first" the man who is giving her choices is quite perplexed at the response that he was getting with this girl, 'Interesting' he thought, most of the people that he have encountered in his lifetime were either begging for salvation or straight up killing themselves.
She is someone who is currently in between.
"I don't think you understood what I told you missy" then Calypso then raised from her bed and looked at the man eye to eye.
"I also don't think you see my situation" then Calypso just lay down again and took a deep breathe.
She also wanted to die, she also yearned to live but as days goes by, and every ounce of desire in her body just fades away which resulted to what she is right now.
A doll with no emotions.
Her only purpose in life right now is to make sure that her family is happy and living well, to make sure that all of her responsibilities are all looked out for.
Nothing for her own happiness, nothing for her own wellbeing.
As strange as it may seem, the man who is with him asked her the most bizarre question she didn't expect would come from someone that wants to take her soul.
"Why are you living like this?"
Calypso's earth clenched a little, with the past 3 years it was the first time that she felt pity on herself again.
She was never the perfect daughter, she was never the perfect lover nor was she even considered enough.
She had always been the black sheep, no matter how hard she tried to give her all, it has never been enough until she realized that she exists not to live for herself but for others.
"You should not be living like this Calypso" then the man reached out to her and holds her hand.
It was cold as winter but she's felt comfort in it. It was the first time in forever that she was touched without a pain.
It was nice but then again she knows that she shouldn't dwell to this new feeling but it made her take a look at the man once again.
"Why are you doing this to yourself Calypso?"
The man right now has an emotion to his face that she recognized.
He pitied her.
She just raised the end of her lips but kept her emotions to herself, she is used to this, either people are getting angry and despises her or they take pity on her situation. That is why she just stopped looking for understanding.
It is what it is.
The first few years was hard, whenever she meet new people she will still have this positive outlook that it will be different this time, but then again she will be betrayed and misunderstood.
After a few incident, she realized that she can never be herself, presenting who she really is in the world, a needy and emotional kid that she was would only result to pain and abandonment that is why she tried to curate a version of herself that is now became her death sentence.
She created a persona that everyone likes and can depend on, no matter how exhausting it is to keep it up, no matter how it was screaming that it wasn't her, she retained it.
It was her source of human interaction, for the first time in her life, she felt accepted.
Cali was a persona who is her total opposite, it wasn't her but it was a part of her that everyone accepted.
A life of the party, smart, reliable, responsible and a good person.
Calypso lived to be Cali, even after a while she even forgot who she really is and lived up with all of the expectations that people have for her.
People loved Cali and that is where Calypso's mistake came in.
In a sense, Cali is still part of Calypso, she thought that maybe now that people loves her and trust her then she might be able to show who is really is a whole that they might be able to accept who she really is as a package.
Hopes are up but as they say the higher your expectation, the damage will be more severe, and it did.
It shattered her to the point where she is right now. It took away everything that Cali build just because they couldn't accept her for who is really is.
They only need Cali Morgan, not Calypso Morgan as a whole.
The devastation had killed every ounce of desire and will inside of her. Many people told her that it is just a phase that she needs to get through and she will be back to her old self not knowing that it was just a fragment of who she is and she is tired.
She has been called a lot of things.
A liar, manipulator, bitch and a psycho.
All because she just wanted to fit in.
She just stared at the man who is now trying to shake her from the deep slumber of her emotions.
"Once again Calypso, what do you want?"
"Nothing"
She knows better that to expect again that this time something will be different.