Classes had ended. The other students left for their various after-
school activities, talking to one another about where they would go.
Meanwhile, Kushida and I exchanged looks, signaling each other to go ahead
with the plan.
"Hey, Horikita. Do you have some free time after class today?" I
asked.
"I don't have any time to waste. I have to go back to the dormitory and
prepare for tomorrow."
Prepare for tomorrow? I was pretty sure all she did was study.
"I wanted you to go somewhere with me for a little bit."
"What are you after?"
"Do you think that by inviting you out, I'm after something?"
"Well, when you invite me so suddenly, I naturally have my doubts.
However, if there is a specific matter that you wish to discuss, I wouldn't
mind listening."
I didn't have anything to talk about, of course.
"Well, you know that café on campus? The one with a ton of girls? I
don't have the guts to go there all by myself. I kind of get the feeling that
guys are banned from entering there or something. Don't you?"
"I certainly can't argue that most of their customers seem to be women,
but aren't men also allowed to patronize the café?"
"Well, yeah, but no guy goes there alone. Only if they're with friends
who are girls, or if they're someone's boyfriend."
Horikita tried to recall what Palate was like, seemingly lost in thought
for a moment.
"You may very well be right. It's unusual for you to express such a
well-reasoned opinion, Ayanokouji-kun."
"But I'm still interested in it. So I wanted to invite you to come along with me."
"I suppose that's natural, since you supposedly have…no one else to
invite, correct?" she asked.
"That makes it sound like I'm imposing on you, but yeah. Basically."
"And if I refuse?"
"Well, that would be that. I'd have no choice but to accept. I can't
force you to give up your private time, after all."
"I understand. Your issue with the café is certainly accurate. I can't
stay there for too long, though. Is that all right?"
"Sure. We'll be quick."
In my mind, I added the word "probably" to that last thought. If she
knew that Kushida was involved in this, Horikita would probably have some
strong words for me. I'd begun to think that, since I was able to talk to
Kushida, I might be able to make friends with Horikita myself. Besides,
whether it was a café or a lecture hall, Horikita always came with me, even as
she complained about it. For someone like me, who had difficulty making
friends, this was probably a miracle.
The two of us left the classroom and made our way to Palate on the
first floor. Girls began to congregate there, one after another, enjoying their
time after class.
"There are so many people here," Horikita said.
"Is this your first time doing anything social, Horikita? Oh, yeah, I
suppose it would be. You're always alone."
"Was that supposed to be sarcastic? How childish."
I'd meant to engage in some playful ribbing, but apparently that was
impossible for Horikita. After we placed our order, we both got our drinks. I
ordered the single serving of pancakes.
"Do you like sweets?" she asked.
"I just wanted to have pancakes."
I didn't particularly like or dislike cakes and stuff, but I needed a
believable reason. "There aren't any open seats, though."
"I guess we'll just have to wait a bit. Oh, never mind. There are some
open seats over there."
I noticed that two girls quickly got up from their table, and I hurriedly
went to secure our spot. Horikita passed around the table. I set my bag down
on the floor, took my seat, and looked about casually.
"Hey, I just thought of something. If the people around here see us like
this, they'll probably think we're a couple…"
Horikita remained expressionless, or rather, cold. Being in such
crowded surroundings was making me anxious. As I considered what was
about to happen, my stomach started to hurt.
I thought I heard the two girls sitting next to me say, "Let's go," before
grabbing their drinks and leaving. Another patron sat down immediately. It
was Kushida.
"Ah, Horikita-san. What a coincidence! And Ayanokouji-kun too!" she
said.
"Hey."
Kushida had given us a simple greeting, maintaining the ruse that this
was a coincidence. Horikita regarded Kushida with narrowed eyes, then
slowly turned her gaze toward me. Of course, this was something that
Kushida and I had planned out in advance. Kushida's friends had already
secured four seats for us ahead of time. When I arrived at Palate, I sent them
a signal so that they could make two seats available. After some time, the
other girls next to me left, giving Kushida a chance to come and sit down. As
a result, our meeting looked like it'd come about via coincidence.
"Did you come here together, Ayanokouji-kun? Horikita-san?"
Kushida asked.
"Yeah, we just happened to. Did you come by yourself?" I asked.
"Yeah. Today, I—"
"I'm leaving," Horikita said.
"H-hey, we just got here, though."
"You don't need me now that Kushida-san is here, though. Right?" "Hold on, that's not a problem. Kushida and I are just classmates."
"You and I are just classmates, too. Besides…" She gave Kushida and
me an icy look. "I don't like this. What are you plotting?" She'd seen through
our plan and was trying to get me to admit it.
"N-no, it was just a coincidence," Kushida said.
Kushida shouldn't have said such a thing. Asking, "What do you
mean?" and acting ignorant of Horikita's prodding would've been the better
response.
"When we sat down earlier, I saw the two girls seated here were from
Class D, along with the two girls seated next to us as well. Was that just a
coincidence, too?"
"Oh, wow, really? I didn't notice at all," Kushida said.
"Also, we came straight here after classes ended. No matter how much
those girls rushed, they could only have been here for about one to two
minutes at the most. It was far too early for them to get up and leave. Am I
wrong?"
Horikita was even more incredibly observant than I'd thought. Not
only did she remember our classmates' faces, but she'd quickly grasped the
situation.
"Um, well…" A bewildered Kushida signaled for me to save her
somehow. Horikita noticed. Any further deception on our part would just
make it worse.
"Sorry, Horikita. We planned this."
"I thought as much. I thought this whole thing was a little suspicious
right from the start."
"Horikita-san. Please be my friend!" Kushida just came out and asked
her directly, no longer trying to hide anything.
"I've already said this many times. I want you to leave me alone. I have
no intention of becoming friends with anyone in class. Can you not
understand that?" Horikita said.
"Always being alone is a very sad way to spend your life. I just want to
get along with everyone in class." "I wouldn't deny you your wish, but it's wrong to try forcing people
into something against their will. Being alone doesn't make me sad."
"B-but…"
"Besides, do you think that I would be happy if you forced me to
become your friend? Do you think that feelings of trust would arise out of
something forced?"
Horikita wasn't wrong. It wasn't that she couldn't make friends, but
that she considered them unnecessary. Kushida wanted something, but
Horikita would not reciprocate.
"It's my fault for not being clear enough with you, so I don't blame
you this time. But if you try this again, please keep in mind that I will not
forgive you."
As she said that, Horikita took her untouched latte and stood up.
"Horikita-san, whatever you say, I really want to be friends with you.
When I saw you, I felt like it wasn't the first time we'd met. I wondered if
you felt the same way," Kushida mumbled.
"This is a waste of time. I find everything you're saying unpleasant."
Horikita raised her voice, cutting Kushida off without mercy. Even though
I'd told Kushida I would help her, I had absolutely no intention of butting in.
But…
"I kind of understand your thoughts on the matter, Horikita. I've
actually often wondered if friends are really necessary," I said.
"You're saying that? You've been trying to make friends since day
one."
"I won't deny it. However, you and I are similar. I wasn't able to make
friends until I came to this school. In junior high, I never knew anyone's
contact information or hung out with anyone after class. I was always alone."
Kushida was visibly surprised when she heard me say that, like she
couldn't believe it.
"I think that partly explains why I was compelled to talk to you," I said.
"That's the first time I've heard something like that. However, even if
you and I share some things in common, I think we took different paths to reach this point. You wanted friends but couldn't get them. I considered
friends unnecessary, so I didn't make any. Saying we are similar would be
incorrect. Am I wrong?"
"No. But telling Kushida that she was being unpleasant is going too far.
Are you really okay with this? If you choose not to get along with anyone
else, you'll be alone for the next three years. That sounds pretty painful."
"It will be my ninth year in a row of being alone, so I'll be fine. Oh,
and if you include kindergarten, it would actually be slightly longer."
Had she just nonchalantly dropped a bombshell? That she'd always
been alone for as long as she could remember?
"Can I go now?" Horikita asked.
She sighed deeply and looked straight into Kushida's eyes.
"Kushida-san, if you don't try to force me into anything, I won't be
rude. I promise. You're not stupid, so you understand what I'm telling you,
right?"
With one final simple "Well then," Horikita left. Kushida and I
remained in the noisy cafe.
"Well, that was a failure. I tried to lend a helping land, but it was
pointless. I guess she's gotten too accustomed to being alone," I said.
Kushida wordlessly collapsed into her seat. However, she instantly
recovered, and her usual smile returned.
"It's okay. Thank you, Ayanokouji-kun. It's true that I wasn't able to
become her friend, but…I was able to learn something important. That's
enough for me. I'm sorry, though. I feel like Horikita-san might hate you now
because you helped me."
"Don't worry about it. I just wanted Horikita to consider the benefits of
friendship." Thinking it'd be inconsiderate for the two us to hold up table
space for four people, I moved to sit next to Kushida.
"Even so, I was shocked when you said that you didn't have any
friends, Ayanokouji-kun. Is that true? I didn't think you were like that at all.
Why were you all alone?"
"Hmm? Oh, yeah, it's true. Sudou and Ike are the first friends I've ever made. I still don't really know if that's my fault or the fault of the
circumstances I was in."
"But when you made friends, did it make you happy? Is it fun?"
Kushida asked.
"Yeah. There are times when I find it annoying, but sometimes I feel
like I'm happier than I was before."
Kushida's eyes sparkled as she smiled at me, nodding her head in
agreement.
"Horikita has her own way of thinking. There's probably nothing that
we can do about that."
"Do you really think so? Is it not possible to make friends with her?"
she asked.
"Why are you desperate to be her friend? Kushida, don't you already
have more friends than everyone else? There's no reason to focus on
Horikita."
Even if it meant that she wouldn't be friends with everyone in class,
she didn't need to try so desperately.
"I wanted to be friends with everyone. Not just the people in Class D,
but the students from other classes, too. But if I can't become friends with
one girl in my class, then that means I'll never achieve my goal…"
"Just think of Horikita as a special case. Your only option is to wait for
a real coincidence to come along."
Not something forced, but a natural event that would connect the two
of them. When that time came, they might possibly become friends.