- Clips we've done together -
Looking back..... I am getting married soon, I achieved my goal as a lawyer... and Haru is making her own business here in Japan along side her younger brother studying for high school. Naoko is had finally entered senior high and has a decent girlfriend who became his fiancé already [ smiled ],
mom and dad were busy with their curricular activities and dad's company too. What will go wrong this time,we've been happy ever since even we fought for small things and make things larger.. [ Grin ]
..... but it doesn't matter Haru is almost thirty and I need to take care of her most she's my top priority. I missed being in this state of living when I'm in England... many things happened, huh? grand occasions happened lately ; the birthday of my brother's fiancé, competitions on all sports and music..
I hope this feeling will never last...
Continuation....
- From the trembling dark world -
- In the present time, when her Aunt died all of the relatives came including her but except for her mom and Rokuro. She was having a hard time living in England alone she had friends but doesn't have time to enjoy not like her aunt was still alive, she hasn't eated for straight two days except for the day of funeral because they had a short bringing. She wanted to have leftovers at home but too shy to do so she just sat done watching television on her bed, the poverty came to her end and wished to die instead of living. Her mom called and asked what happend at the funeral ; How's the funeral? " namely a stranger to ask.
[ In Haru's thoughts ]
Is that even a question? your sister died and without seeing your face I know you're grinning! you're cruel and I'm living all by myself..
" You know Haru.. that is your fault for letting as side your mother, abandoning me for my brilliant sister, I have beauty but with no brains but I had power to teach my children yet you disobey me.."
And now what! is that what you'll say to me.. then I should've pick your call up because I regretful-
" Now you couldn't speak?.. ara~ you're such a good first born child... now... she's gone.. work there then send money here, you'll get used to be alone so don't worry "
The phrase 'don't worry' said it without feelings nor anything just a phrase of nothing, didn't push to say it as a care for me you didn't care for me... -
When she came home after a long time...
In the previous chapter :
[ Shouting ]
" Ka-san!!! please stop!!! " [ Crying ]
[ shouts & slaps ] " Shut up! you insolent boy! you're just like your sister USELESS! SUCH A DISAPPOINTMENT! "
" Mom! " [ Slams the door ]
" Who the fu- oh so you're here without saying a word that you're going back? " [ aggressively grins ]
Present time....
" Mom stop this "
" you? " [ grin ] " Ha! what'll you do? you're just like your sister Rokuro! " [ turns ]
" Roku! " [ worried ]
" You're hurting him too much....where's your well-said boyfriend who will take care of you?"
" Sis-sister.....he left our mother without saying a word....hic.." [ sniff ]
" Will you shut up! you and her had nothing to do with him! " [ scratch ]
" He...he stole all your..no MY MONEY?! why would you let him get our money it's for your hospital fees and...and~ " [ slams ]
" You insolent you dare to shout on your mother who is sick? " [ smirk ]
" Stop this mom....hic..hic.."
" Roku come here....it's hard to breath in there.." [ cares ]
" One~ch-chan....hu...hu..hu..."
" STOP THIS ONCE! you act like a brat huh?! after I raised you! you're gonna act up! your ego is so high you haven't accomplish anything rather than graduating! "
" You're still not satisfied with what've done for you! we're going out of this house you're just faking your sickness..."
-She's getting mad yet it's still worrying her about leaving their mom alone. As they went out her mom was shouting undomesticated, they're not listening to her, Rokuro ask Haru about where are they going to stay and she smiled at him so poorly because he's still young and already late for school, so he took a leave, she called Yuki to pick them up -
" Roku..don't go to school for now." [ gazed ]
" Why sister? we have important lesson today for exams next week ...." [ pressured ]
[ Haru's building thoughts ] :
...this is hard...I must call Yuki he can help me and his family....
- And finally once Yuki came he was running towards her, they meet at the café and worries about her when he gleaned what happened, Yuki felt sorry for her because of of bad parenting but he knows that she's still loving her mom on the inside of her heart. -
"Stay with us for awhile Haru-san.." He insisted.
- Haru scrupulously think before she said 'yes' to him sincs they're already engaged it's okay to live with him. With Rokuro in a curious manner he asked straightforward to Nobuyuki that what is he to her. He felt different vibe and suspicious from Yuki because he doesn't know him yet. But both Yuki and Haru tell him by detail on what happened back in England so neither happiness nor unhappiness everything passes. Only relieve to them is that Rokuro's bad feeling is gone from what he'd heard from them. So as time passes by living with Yuki at their house and began the wedding ceremony. -
- The end of wedding day and their first night -
It was a little awkward, but I kept talking to her... [ Gulp ]
This is so hard... how am I supposedly to provoke her.. she's tired alright? so... we're just going to sleep that's all? it couldn't be that... she doesn't want to? instead I mustn't neglect her health just for my own cravings.. [ laugh ]
" Yuki~ I needed hug! " [ sleepy ]
[ blinks ] " Ah- yes yes... "
" What're you doing..? the wedding is finally over and I wanna rest~ "
Precisely, she's beat up..I wanna make love with her tonight but seems to.. I didn't manage..[ regretful ]
[ Sigh ]...let's just go to sleep-
Wha-what was that?.. a sudden kiss?
" Sleeping? huh? leaving this on our first night " [ pushed ]
" Haru! you- you were... tired ri-right?.... "
"...."
Wh-why is she not saying anything.... ah- let's drink some wine...? Let's face this up let's all man up MAN UP!!!
" ah.. ha... move up Haru.. let's drink wine before we proceed on the exciting moment~ "
Did I win this time?
[ Haru's thoughts at the same time ] :
Uh-huh.... thinking you'll win this flirting conversation with me I'll let you slip away this time..I was just pretending to be sleepy
.....
[ Laughing ] haha...! he fall for it!!!
au-ahem he's now putting wine...
" Cheers! " [ clank ]
" Wanna wash up? " Haru countered him.
" I'd rather not my body is all soar up and I need to keep together~ " [ Glance ]
I want to.. now! but how...?
[ looks at the bottle ]
She looked so busy with her phone let's try to flirt with this thing....
[ Drop ]
"Hmm..? " [ Glance ] " Yu-YUKI?! "
This... man... really.. makes me aroused... eugh....he's trying me huh? let's see your perfomance whether I'll loath it or not-
Wait he's close... so-so cl-close?!
Oh God....!
" .... you wanted this badly right? thus prepare yourself "
[ Yuki's dirty thoughts ]
I don't know anything about sex education but we'll discover it to ourselves...
Before wedding, I was like...
[ Recall ]
" Please teach me! please educate me about sex!!! " [ Blush ]
My servant was too stunned to speak he didn't thought I'll say this stuff before... pfftt..
" Wh-what?! sex education? are you facing difficulties S-sir? "
" I'm getting married soon... and I want to satisfy my wife... " [ looks away ]
Argh!!! recalling this stuff makes me wanna stop and procrastinate!!
Sh-she might hated me and the expression on her face made me feel.... terrible... I don't wanna be ad bad man in sex though!!!
" Yu-yuki..... " [ cuff ]
Sh-she.....I'm an innocent young man and she's already thirty...but her body is so small! if I touch I feel like she'll crushing....I don't want to remove my clothes and start thrusting erratically...I can't be the only one to enjoy it... [ glance ]
[ looks away of embarrassment ]
" Are... aren't you gonna... "
It's true that learning is necessary.. but I'll keep going she's waiting...
" Sorry to keep you up I'm just looking at you be-because you're looking sexy... "
" Yuki.... stop saying those words.. it's kind of... "
[ smooch ] " We're already married should we do something we're free to do so~ "
[ Nods ]
- Ended up making their love at their first night together. As they wake up in the morning they we're so embarrassed on their selves that they didn't even get to look at each others eyes at all, Haru ran away to the bathroom and stayed there and Yuki knocked in and went to shower together. They were also in a straight two weeks of day off since they just got off. They needed time together as married couple, and as soon their day offs they continued making out every other night Haru's making a giving up face but she couldn't resist on just how Nobuyuki keeps thrusting. He succeeded completely and Haru gets tired and finally going back to work. Haru's pregnancy test were positive and she'll be having a child soon the whole family made a celebration for them. Rokuro who's finally entering college after a long time. He's still in Haru's care after all but Rokuro sometimes visits their mom at home and brought foods and medicines for her, Haru knew this and allows him to go since it's just sometimes in a while.-
[ Middle night conversation ]
" Yuki.. honey.. we're having a child soon... "
" Yeah "
" Can you do me a favor? "
"... hmm.. what is it honey? "
" Show love to him or her whether God gave us..treat them with special love and care, be by our child's side. Can you do that? "
" Of course I'll do that because I'm our child's father and I'll cherish him....by the way I wished it to be a girl... "
" Oh my~ wanna take a bet? "
" Okay? but you'll win for sure"
" Since it's been six months and tomorrow's is the next session, I'll finally get to know if it's a girl or boy.... so your bet is a girl, you're gonna decide on naming it. And, if I win on having a boy I'll name it deal? "
" Surely I'll win! " [ Excited ]
" Now sleep Haru.... you're gonna meet your ob-gyne tomorrow "
[ Embrace ]
- The morning comes, and goes to see her doctor, her Ob said it was a girl and Yuki finally gets the chance to name thier daughter, soon as they came back, Yuki was excited to talk about it at home but Haru wanted to meet her mom for past years she didn't get to talk with her so Rokuro who has a car already took her way to their mom's house and finally saw the gloomy house that never change in the last ten years already. -
" Sis let me assist you " Roku handle her with care.
- Her mom was at the second floor looking at the window and surprised that her belly is big. -
" Mom we're here! "
" Roku my son...! you're here agai-"
[ A sudden stop ]
" Ha-Haru...." [Looks down]
" Mom she's having a baby girl! "
" Oh my you're really having a daughter! I'm so happy for you~ "
" How are you mom... " [ cold ]
" Well as you can see... I'm perfectly fine Rokuro is taking care of me while you're not visiting m- "
" I told him so because you're still my mother so I cannot let you live and die alone here... "
[ Her mom Kazune speaking]
- She burst into tears because she realized all of her wrong doings to her children now that they're all grown up she has no chance to change and be a mother to them once again, the hatred she felt before was gone and wanted to start again. But she felt like there's nothing going back now. -
[ Tears dropping ]
" Er... mom!!! "
" ...I was wrong...I'm so sorry for getting angry and hurt you everyday I- I will be a good mother to you and Rokuro I'm sorry...! I won't interfere with what you guys wanna do! I'm so sorry for doing physical and verbal abuse to you my children, I'm so sorry for saying harsh words to you my children...!
[ Sniff ]
hic... hic... Roku... my baby...! my smart girl Haru! Hu... hu.... hu... hic...I was thinking the whole past years that I'm going to visit you, take you to hospital... but I feel like you hated me.... I'm sorry.. "
[ steps ] - She saw her daughter walking towards her like in the past she handed her a soft towel to wipe her tears when her father beats their mother before. -
" I didn't leave you because of that anymore I knew your past and it's done already.. I've never thought of abandoning my mother who took care of me so wholeheartedly with Roku... it's just when you change everything change us too..no matter what and how terrible you've done to us physically and emotional... mental abuse you'd use.. I or we didn't resent you..we didn't betray you mother...even if you pass away we'll still be here visiting you.. always... because you're our mother.."
" Haru... Roku... my darlings.... let's... hic... start... hic.. ov-over again okay? "
" Mom it'll never be the same again we've been matured now sister is gonna get ready for her time, and I have stable life too, we've managed to live with a mother like you but we cannot be the same aga-"
- Rokuro looks down because he knows that's how Haru feel that time -
" No Roku.. "
" Huh? but why sister? "
" I've already forgiven her, you've already do right? " [ smiles ]
" Let's go Mom and get to see my husband's parents and his brother" [ nods ]
" Human beings work to earn their bread, for if they don't eat, they die." this is what Dazai put in his Novel... it is true and that what happened when my mom was sick. I was aware of my movements and unspeakable fears.... I never once talk back to my mother... but I've forgiven her already and I know she regretted everything, and we'll finally start over again.
- You disobey our contract -
- Haru, Rokuro and their mom are finally going back to Yuki's house while on the way it seems that one truck was countering Rokuro's car. -
" Roku! turn this way!! "
" Shit!!! "
- As their mother shouted at him, he follows her order but still the truck followed their way and began ro crash, the two of them ; Rokuro and mom, we're in a serious bad state. But most for Haru she's pregnant. -
" Sister!!!! "
" Ha-Haru...! " Their mother shouted.
- In a blurry state she didn't realize that she's in the hospital right now and tired to look with her eyes down even she looked really tired and saw a lots of blood and pass out. -
[ In mind ] : I discovered that... I was taken to the hospital is mom and Roku survived and my. [ passed out ]
- The doctors and nurses hurried to her and prepare for operation.
When the operations done, she woke up and saw her whole family around her. Yuki was sitting holding her hand and pray and grief because she finally wake up. -
- She was so conscious that she freaked out about why her belly is flat out. -
" Wh-where's my ch-child...? "
- The doctor came and said, after the car accident she lost her baby due to miscarriage, and her ovaries, her tears dropped and shoulders sloped down. Her voice was cut her off, she cannot barely move her hands nor her whole body because of it. -
And when finally she can speaks up she flinched and said...
" This is a humiliation.. it can't be true! Yuki! tell me it's not true!!! "
- She freaked out when she heard the news.Yuki and Haru lost their daughter. -
" Our daughter Akira..hic... hic.. eughhahh...! "
- Yuki already named it ' Akira'. He was excited after her session but the baby didn't managed to survive it's only been six months before her labor. -
" My baby!!! "
" Shh.... shhh... I know it's painful... Haru.... "
She died. I was saved.
No more explanation, bereft of life.
- She's confined in the hospital, all of them left her all alone as just what she wanted. Yuki wanted to stay a little bit more but he stood up for her and leave, respecting her silence. -
[ Knocked ]
" .....Yuki you're back can you give me a hug... and buy me something sweet... "
[ weak]
- Someone knocked a the door and thought it was Yuki and tried to open her heart once in a while, but it wasn't him, the one who embraced her is Clarkson her boss in the past. He was ultimately knockout so she thought he's dead. She forgot that he has right armed men which Haru cannot really say to Yuki because at the very beginning she didn't know all of it that he and Yuki will fight that night, only in a few days after. -
" ...you disobey the contract Haru~ " he whispered.
" Why-why're you here!? SECURI- " Clarkson shut her mouth and glare to her madly.
" Why'd you left me? for Leo? "
- Nobuyuki didn't mention to Haru that he had a fake name during those times, but she was familiar with it because his friends called him sometimes. -
" It's bothersomeness, you left me beat up and going back to your country eh? "
" What do you need from me! I'm sick of you! can't you see my situation! "
" I know~ I know~ I'm the one who started it " [ glare ]
- She was fully terrified about it, and prayed for Yuki to come back, she regretted saying she wanted some time alone. By the moment, Yuki was sadly walking, going back to her room bringing her favorite sweets, he wanted to carry a smile on his face to cheer her up because it's been a day and she hasn't change her expression at all. He was also coming with Naoko and to take in charge of her whenever she needed something, because Nobuyuki had work to do. -
" Haru thanks to your lesson before I managed to talk with Japanese peoples around here.. "
" Stop here! "
" Why not? ..... I came back here to warn you..if you don't come back to me you know what'll happen to your little brother and your mom~ "
" Don't you dare touch them! "
" ONLY if you come back to me, is that a deal? since... you don't have that bastard's child~ I'll make you beg for more children~ "
" I don't wanna make children with a monster like you! "
" I'll give you ten da- no two months to think it through because you might change your mind on coming back to me and start over again~ if you don't- "
- He gets closer to Haru and wanted to peck on her lips but Yuki came in a perfect time of her need. -
" WHO- ah~ Clarkson V...." [ grin ]
" You're still alive Leo Capell~ nice to see you agai- "
- He punched him on the face and Naoko came in with a shock on his face -
" Ah- Haru san! " he quickly protects her while Yuki is beating Clarkson on the room, Naoko called the guards and quickly arrested him away. Yet he glare at her and smirk as if it's for her to think starting that day.
" Haru what did he do to you? "
" ...."
- She couldn't say it because even he's away or not, the terror and fear are still there she feels like someone's watching her, and her lips moves might someone know and report to him. So, he asked Naoko to shut the windows and close the curtains for her to comfortably speak. -
" You guys....Nobuyuki...and Naoko.."
She said their names not just their nicknames as for a strong reminder for them.
" H-he.....he will murder my family if...I don't go back to him..."
" What? " Naoko was irritated. But Yuki calms him down.
" Yuki...he...he...."
- She tried to say that he's the one who killed their daughter Akira but she couldn't she just said about her family that's all. After saving all the energy she'd shed up and speaks on her mind -
Everything passes..
After the lost of Yuki and my child, our precious daughter Akira pass away.
Everything passes...
I dwelled up to now as in a burning hell and Clarkson is still appearing on my eyes and no one knows only me...
.....
I have given up...I don't want my family to die in vain we're living peacefully now even it's hurt so much..I know Yuki feel the same way and we're so heartbroken...hic....hic...my precious daughter..it's all Clarkson's fault.. Me and your Daddy will stay together and fight for your lost I promise you that...
- She swear to her daughter and even to her family for even Nobuyuki she'd still love him and will fight Clarkson, yet that doesn't happen everything changed because it's been two months like what he'd said before and now he's coming back Haru was fully aware of this he kept manipulating her again and again every time and when Haru's working and when she's doing chores or even went to go shopping, that's why she felt so much fear that she cannot hold it anymore, so as said she wanted to reveal everything, to the truth she'll prevail to Yuki and now the time has come she called Yuki to go home early and thought he'd wanted to see him so badly but said it was an crucial and an important word with him so he rushed to go home -
[ Knocked ]
- Clarkson knocked on the door numerous times and turns out to slam the door with his fist -
" Ha~ru~ open the~ door~ "
- Haru was hiding in their secretive room that Yuki made incase of emergency like what's happening right now she's calling Yuki but he wasn't answering his phone so she's so pressured right now, doesn't know what to do but for her family not to be killed she surrender herself and opened the front door. -
[ Opens ]
" Clark....son...you've committed a crime against us...hic...but for my family do not touch them or else.."
" Or~ else~ what?" [ grin ]
" My husband and his whole family will kill you "
" Kill me? ha! ha! ha! you really did change Haru~ as you don't know I've been looking for Leo's information and backgrounds seems like you've got balls huh? you'd picked up the biggest shares in Japan and had a better life..ha..ha..ha... you'd come to rags to richest Haru ! "
" I don't care what you say- "
- He suddenly gets closer and closer until he touches her buttons and slowly opened it then touched her chest. -
" STOP IT ! " [ hesitate ]
" You like this much do ya? I've come all the way here so why don't I have a snack?"
" Yu-Yuki~~ ... "
" Stop calling his name! you bitch! "
- He smack her face and Haru's on the floor and her face covered with blood he tasted it and laugh and made her look more miserble then bring her to the room on the second floor, she ended up naked and all tied up she was very tired and has given up but she didn't know this would happen and even Nobuyuki is going home. -
" What in the world had done here while I was away an-and why's there blood?! "
- He quickly drop his bag and runs to the room where it's covered of Haru's blood, when he finally saw them it was lingering his brain and legs he saw such a terrible repulsive situation and his anger turn up and drag Clarkson down, he saw her at such a poor state that he can never distinguish and say much further more, Haru's body was covered of his cum and her face full of bruises, blood and saliva. He smack his manhood and bring his servants up whose a professional at killing, he called the servants to go to their house for more allies and called the police and everything. His mind was focusing on what he saw earlier and forgets Haru. He knew it was a misunderstanding but he cannot bare any longer now. -