I barely withheld the scream that has been building up inside me since the day before. I'm afraid that if I release even so much as a peep, it'll go on and on forever. It's so unfair. Life has never been kind to me now that I think about it. Not from the time I was too little to have done anything to deserve the hand that I've been dealt.
Right on the heels of that thought came the reminder that this time maybe I did deserve what I was getting. Of everything that I had suffered in my life, nothing beats what I had done to Cadmus, and all the reasons and excuses in the world won't ever change that. There's no justification for keeping his children away from him, even if at the time I saw no other way and was given no real choice in the matter.
I wish I were brave enough to open my mouth and tell him all of it, but knowing him, it was too late. The old Cadmus would've indulged me if he knew half of the truth, but I doubt very seriously that this Cadmus would want to hear, or would even consider looking past my sins to the underlying matter.