I ignored the look of hurt on my ex-wife's face as I carried on walking with my sons into the mall. I was told that the baby store here was the best in the immediate area for now, and since I didn't want her bringing any of her shit to my place, I needed to be here until I could work out something better.
I'd called a friend of mine and gotten the name of the safest car seats for twins, which needed to be picked up somewhere else and had taken a three-hour drive unless I wanted to wait until tomorrow to receive it by mail. I wasn't willing to wait a second longer than was necessary to have my children in my home under my roof, where I could watch them over .
I have yet to deal with the anger I feel over having missed out on the almost first year of their life, but then again, when it comes to Diana, I have a lot of deep-rooted anger that needs to be dealt with. I've put off even thinking about her for the last two years, but now, now that she'd stolen my kids and kept them hidden from me, she can have no idea of the hell I'm about to unleash on her disloyal ass.
I've never known hate like the one I feel for her. I've had strong dislike before, but she's the one and only person who's ever tapped into the darkest side of me, a side I didn't even know I had until she walked out on me. It had taken me days, weeks, months, to get over what she'd done, and the pain was so raw in the beginning that my only recourse was to wipe her from my mind completely.
It was like scorching a wound or, worse, amputating a limb. I didn't drink or do anything that would further harm myself; I'm not that weak. Instead, I'd turned my rage into something more. I'd thrown myself into work even more than I had in the past, which only made me richer than I already was. And I guess you can say the extreme sports I'd taken up was a drug of sorts. Whatever it was, it had helped me put her out of my mind as if she'd never been. I ventured in new businesses and made my company top in that too and made sure my name meant true that meant Cadmus he who excels.
But I couldn't excel in forgetting her for quite some time.
It's not wise to think of the person you hate most in the world and what you'd like to do to them while scaling a treacherous rock face on the side of a steep mountain overlooking a cliff. My mother had been terrified that she would lose her son, but had I not thrown myself into those things, she'd have lost me to jail instead because I would've hunted this bitch down and knocked her fucking head off had I seen her at any time in that first year.