I stayed still trying to catch a sleep but for the first time, I just couldn't and I didn't know why.
My heart was feeling heavy and this time it wasn't because of the joy of how today went, it was because of another thing, something related to my mom and I tried to shove those feelings away since I already promised myself that I won't think about her but it was impossible.
I would have called my nanny to ask her if everything was alright but I had broken my SMS Card already and since Julian was sleeping I couldn't use his.
After a while of staying still, I turned and embraced Julian.
'I didn't want to think about her anymore! I didn't need to!' It kept ringing in my head and before I knew it my tears started falling.
I tried to hold all my emotions but I just couldn't and just when I was about to stand up and go into the bathroom to prevent myself from waking Julian up, his eyes flew open.
