After having a nap, I hastily descended the stairs remembering that I haven't told my nanny about Julian. I didn't know how she would react so my heart was pounding in my chest out of fear. I didn't want to end my relationship with Julian - Never.
I couldn't even imagine going to meet him and telling him it was over, where will I get such courage from? Won't I break before I could utter a word?
I arrived at the kitchen and I saw her right there, chopping tomatoes but I couldn't bring my legs to walk forward to her any longer. I was too scared.
I have never spoken anything about crushing on someone or having odd feelings or relationships with anyone in my life, so right now I couldn't fathom how she would react and the worst thing was that I didn't even know how to start.
I had no idea what to say to begin the conversation. This was odd to me!
