Most of my relationships were a failure... So i am simply staying up late writing some thoughts up or.. simply watching videos or anime. There's not much to me as a person that could keep people stay with me as much as i'd like.... But there are alot of things that i think i can do but i do not want to remember or talk about even. Most people know this by now but i just realized how trivial or small things affect me in a powerful way... how do i get past this? i have no idea.. It's a simple thought process and it is a thing that i cannot stand over to be honest.
The most important thing in a relationship is supposed to be that the partner will stay by your side no matter what right? Then why is it that people leave as soon as something ain't right or shit hits the fan.. Truthfully i don't know why relationships need to be this hard on me as a person that is.. friends and family have relationships that are still lasting and they've known each other for many years others on the other hand went into a relationship on intuition alone and are still together today. Why can't i do that? why am i the odd one out? I bet there are alot more people who feel the same and know that it is not their fault.. I know that i shouldn't be thinking the way i do but i have to get it out somehow.. So the way i write my thoughts up will stay like this for everybody to enjoy.
"A good way to end the first chapter of this Novel" Although it's not the best version yet.. it will bloom into one let us all see the development of this beautiful story based on real life events! It will mostly be written in first person i do hope that you all will enjoy the way this will be written.. i am not going to be untruthfull when i was that relationships are probably the nicest thing that can happen to someone.. it's just that i wasn't able to be myself the way i wanted me to be and i truly want to be me! i want to be me so bad.. but it means to be vulnerable. But i guess i have to be.. not only for me but also for everyone else that is important to me.