Inside the room, the papers are scattered, open files that stacked on her table where some of it are lying on the ground.
The weather today is hot, even the blow of the fans are warm, we are both sweating as the crowd behind the door contribute to the noise.
"So what is this serious news you're going to say."
She's reluctant to say it, for me, it looks like she can just say it but she's doubting me, possibly because of what Isha say to her after i left them.
"The disappearance increased, and i can't access to the dorms anymore, they locked down after this chaos happening inside." She said it behind her back.
I may not see her face but she's frustrated.
"Sounds like a planned counter measure to me."
"It looks like police needs to be involve deeply with this matter now."
"I agree, but of course, that is their job, as for you and for me, we will still continue to execute our job as class president and a student council member, your secretary did a pretty good job but she's all exhausted, especially with this heat, i bought her a cooling treat in advance and let someone give it to her, your vice president was able to resolve most of problems as if things are going to his plan, and for you, you're frustrated."
"....."
"What are your plans, are you going to pursue this justice you've yearn or will you fullfil your role." I picked up the papers on the ground and tidy them while waiting for her answer.
"....."
"I knew it, you're being stubborn, you want to find an answer that would make me close my mouth, yet you didn't find something, you want to pursue it further yet have no way to do so, you know that it's pointless going alone yet you want to refute me, if you hate me that much, why don't you use your line "it doesn't concern you." Or perhaps you have forgotten it since you got used with me?"
Still a silence, which i continue.
"Don't worry, i don't really know why you're acting like that and i won't ask, if you want to, you can do so, you can plan on your own cause i believe you're smart enough, but you called me here unconditionally because you trust me, and i am glad for that."
I fixed the papers on her table which became neat.
"..... You're really annoying, that's why i called you here."
She can't find a proper word to tell me that i'm right but it looks like her mood is lifted.
"Haha, well then lady Miru, you must know that those disappearances are beyond our reach anymore especially since some unknown factor has a countermeasure in this intentional chaos happening to our school, so all you can do for now is to trust your sister Isha in this event, and since we know that there are indeed unknown factor here."
I sat down when she finally turn around.
"The best we can do is to create a countermeasure to secure the students, both innocent scholars and privilege, i believe that this event would make us reach the equality we would need, but it's way beyond that i expect, even so we might as well use this scenario to give this discrimination here a light."
"I got a plan in my mind so i can do it later, i'm really intrigued how these people dared to be violent when the teachers are in meeting, and how come no one is controlling this conflict, does the school really got a hidden agenda...."
Isha pondered about it.
"You're returning to this again, trying to solve on your own, i told you let the authority deal with it, and if you are right then this school will really fall down, which would destroy it's hierarchy."
I stood up and walk towards the door.
"I will tell you some suspicious matter i would find so take care, bye."
.....
After the conversation, i return investigating every building and every room, most are empty and the fights seems decreasing, there are indeed outsiders came inside the school but wasn't restricted, i investigated all the 4 gates yet there's no sign of fighting, there are several different gangs that came inside and cause a war inside but even they are enemies, they still beat up the students for unknown reasons, as if they are set up.
The teachers who just appeared are all surprised, later the police arrived which cleared the school and let things return to normal but then another gang war occured outside and we worked again but the student council members from privilege side appeared and finally interfere.
I still didn't left the school and tried to listen to the new meeting that occured to discuss about the conflict happened but from the way it sounds, it's just a pointless meeting that won't solve anything, as if the instigator of the meeting doesn't have any effort to resolve this.
Finally when the night set, the police stay and investigated about the dorms, they don't have any evidence especially when Miru isn't involved in the search, they are securing the childrens, i stay on the school to observe any movement yet i didn't find any movement, probably laying low.
I came back home late, yet stressed out.
A lot of things happening, this body's heart is fainting with guilt, deep inside, the real Reika is resting with burden in his mind.
I too would like if i can just show up and be a unknown hero, if i arrived earlier, if i have known earlier....
I would have save those girls.
Is it my fault for having a choice yet not doing so?
It's unfortunate but i grew up in a rational way, it's the first time in my life that i am moving without thinking and using my emotions.
It left a bad taste in my mouth, this is what regret feels like.... As a person who yearn to live like normal person, i have discovered that there's no such thing as normal.
This burden such as love, regret, anger, i have experienced them before coming in this world, but as a so called normal, it felt like it's much more profound, fragile and intense.
I cannot define a normal since everyone are just different, this word 'normal' is just a society standard, and i am having a hard time to abide this standard as someone who's always in the dark line of the law and morals.
You really can't underestimate someone's problem... Everyone deal with it differently...
Even if you think it is shallow, that person might take it much more deeply than you realized...
"If it is the old me.... I would probably...."
I'm lying on the bed, procrastination hit on my body, i know that this body is burned out yet this isn't my own stress.
I am still Rei, it didn't change, the feelings i am having now doesn't belong to me, it's only illusion of real feelings of this owners body, yet i am thankful that i can see someone's feelings and life in a different perspective.
Perhaps, i am mistaken and didn't know myself anymore, and is enjoying this illusion.
But even so, it is my wish... Isn't it?