"My sister is victimized."
"....."
"There's a guy that approached her before, and they became friends, we are also close before, he's disgustingly kind but later, he just...."
She took a deep breath.
"Hufff.... He just raped my sister with his friends, she desperately tried to escape which leads to accident. That's all i know, sister Isha is definitely hiding most of details but that's the only thing i would like to know."
"..."
Another silence...
Base on her expression, it's like she's eager to know my reaction even though she didn't look like she wants sympathy.
"It's not something you need to hear or to anyone but i apologize." I'm looking on the window while saying those words
"...."
"I'm speechless, and understand why you are like this."
"....."
"To be honest, i want to make you happy that's why i keep bothering you, someone like you living in a society of happy people that is indifferent to others and yet you don't care about that."
"....."
"However when i saw how you interacted with your sister, it looks like it isn't necessary anymore to make you happy, i'm really doubtful that you're a person who lost the will to become happy, i'm glad it is still around."
"....."
"I will treat you some drinks later, not because i want you to be happy, but because i would like to congratulate you for being strong."
"....."
"What do you think."
She just stared at nothing before exhaling a relief.
"...A cold black coffee with creamer, doesn't matter if milk or powder creamer."
"Hah, then i will give you a brewed coffee, heavy cream with milk mixed with vanilla."
I'm glad she's slowly opening up.
The bus later arrived on the bus lane and we both returned to school.
Even though i know it's an obvious accident, i didn't have the expectation that she would be raped.
I opened Neru's information about her, it was stolen from the police and from Isha's file diary, but i chose to read the summarized version before reading Isha's diary.
Mizuki Aragi, a 3rd year college and is culinary student, she met a student named Haru Mizuku which is identified as an alias.
They both got into a friendly relationship after a month, Haru helped most of her problems, especially about her family, later on they became closer and become dependent to each other, always comforting each other until one day she was gang raped which leads her being hit by a car for trying to escape, that accident damage her legs and gave her amnesia about her memories about him.
Base on Isha's investigation, it has something to do with drug that make her forget, Isha suspected it and move to another hospital, and also the perpetrator is just using her for a psychological experiment and recently showed that he's also a part of Roxia's family.
.....
That's the summarized version.
I glint my eyes full of coldness.
So Mizuki was tricked, it isn't about good will, it's a experiment of how they can trick people, maybe to enhance their infiltrating and scouting skills, and Mizuki is unlucky to be used as one.
Being tricked by someone you trust will lead into despair and psychological trauma which might cause her to give up her life.
But she escaped....
She's definitely strong, like her little sister.
Not only that but they gave her a drug that makes her forget, it's as if telling it's a win-win situation, them being able to escape and Isha being able to save her cousin from being traumatized.
Utterly scum bastards.
It gave me one of more reasons to mess with Roxia family.
I will help them, not just because i want to make their life more lively and unburdened, it's also because i can execute my own justice.
..... Yes, i am a hypocrite after all, but i won't let my past burden me at all anyway.
"This is the new me, and i will do my best to keep this life i've wished for..."
I tried to comfort and calm my self.
Ugly can be everything, and it's the same for beauty, the difference is acceptance and perspective.
This world is indeed dirty but i will only acknowledge what's beautiful, i won't let myself blindly hate the ugliness as there might be a hidden beauty to it.
However for someone like him.
It's a malice that won't be removed even in his death, a stain that can't be cleanse.
All i can do is to dive in that ugliness, i am already tarnished anyway, admiring the beauty even if i am ugly is something that didn't really matter to me.
I like happiness and beauty as it is the only thing i never got a chance to experience in this ugly world.
I will do my best, to sustain my utopia, this is the scum's wish, a fleeting dream so why not enjoy it, after all this wish of mine will soon be vanish, i might wake up and face the reality soon, i would never know.
I may be able to let their sacrifice not go to waste but what about 'those' who i claimed?
I'm a person who also deserves to rot in hell.
This second life i got, i shall treasure it...