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Existence: Reason to live

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Chapter 1 - Chapter 1: accepting reality

Alexus, a young adult girl whom wish death upon herself ever since she came to realize how cruel the real world actually was. Her will to live start declining as the endless depression and confusion drown her in her own nightmare of this deep failure and hopelessness.

Ever since she can think for herself and judge what is 'right' & 'wrong', she grew rebellious when her younger brother, 5 years younger then her seem to be treated a lot better then herโ€”-not in terms of mother and father affection, she understands that part, but in terms of treatment.

He gets away with every little things she had been disciplined of, get in trouble/DRAGGED into all his mistakes, and forced to teach him everything he refused to learn in school. And better not, very much unappreciated and disrespected by her own blood. Yetโ€ฆsomehow she still have some lingering attachment to all their toxicness. Whenever there's an ugly comment on her hard-work, she bares no grudge, but the complete opposite, hate herself.

On her 18th birthday she celebrate being 'legally' kicked out by her parents, not wanting anything to do with her. With her last hope of survivalโ€”a reason to live, was no more, than an empty thoughtless thought.

That'sโ€ฆthe summary of my past life I guess.

Nothing interesting.

Nothing out of concern.

Nothing important.

Nothingโ€ฆout of ordinary.

Just, nothing.

๐ผ ๐‘ค๐‘Ž๐‘  ๐‘—๐‘ข๐‘ ๐‘ก ๐‘Ž๐‘› ๐‘’๐‘š๐‘๐‘ก๐‘ฆ ๐‘ โ„Ž๐‘’๐‘™๐‘™

๐‘‡โ„Ž๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘‘๐‘œ๐‘’๐‘ ๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐‘“๐‘–๐‘ก ๐‘–๐‘› ๐‘กโ„Ž๐‘–๐‘  ๐‘ค๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ๐‘™๐‘‘.

๐‘๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘’

It was around 5 hours ago that I had woken up in this worldโ€”in this body.

When I had just woke up after being kicked out by my parents as soon as I turned 18, I died. No idea how, but I thought It was amazing how my death was painless.

But.

___5 hours ago___

*hikโ€ฆwahh*

*sob*

Whyโ€ฆ.is it so loud?

I have no one to come to my funeral, even if I do, I can't possible hear their cries now can I?

"Vianci...mom and dad is sorry, we're sorry for not paying much attention youโ€ฆplease, we'll work harder and more to give you whatever is you wantโ€ฆ.toโ€”"

They seem genuine, so much genuine.

So muchโ€”love.

Is fate trying to pull tricks on me? Letting me hear such emotional words I've never heard of? Letting me listen to such caring and desperate cries for who knows what happened to their daughter-? I had no regrets but thisโ€ฆis making me feel badโ€”

"Am Iโ€ฆnot dead..yetโ€ฆ?"

Those were the first only words I can say, or thought of saying.

"NO! How could you say such a thing! We're sorry, we're truly sorry, please Vianci, please don'tโ€ฆwe'll find a way, don't worry, although it may be a burden to you, if you would just agree to liveโ€ฆmom and dad will make it better for you, we promise. Please..h"

I could slightly open my eyes which I had wish it would stay closed forever. I got a glimpse of these teary couple.

๐‘Šโ„Ž๐‘œ ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข?

๐ด๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐‘คโ„Ž๐‘ฆ ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘๐‘Ÿ๐‘ฆ๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐‘š๐‘’?

๐ผ๐‘š ๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ก.....๐‘‰๐‘–๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘๐‘– ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ ๐‘๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘˜ ๐‘œ๐‘“.

๐ด๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข โ„Ž๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘›๐‘ก๐‘ ?

๐ผ ๐‘‘๐‘œ๐‘›'๐‘ก ๐‘˜๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ค โ„Ž๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘ ๐‘œ ๐ผ ๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘‘'๐‘ก ๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘ ๐‘–๐‘๐‘™๐‘’ ๐‘˜๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ค ๐‘คโ„Ž๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘ โ„Ž๐‘’ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘˜ ๐‘™๐‘–๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘๐‘ข๐‘ก ๐‘–๐‘š ๐‘๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘“๐‘–๐‘‘๐‘’๐‘›๐‘ก ๐‘ค๐‘’ ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘˜ ๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘กโ„Ž๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘–๐‘˜๐‘’.

๐‘Œ๐‘œ๐‘ข'๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘–๐‘ ๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’๐‘›๐‘–๐‘›๐‘”...๐‘–'๐‘š ๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ก โ„Ž๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐‘ ๐‘œ

๐™’๐™๐™ฎ, ๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘ฆ๐‘œ๐‘ข ๐‘ ๐‘ข๐‘“๐‘“๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘ ๐‘œ ๐‘š๐‘ข๐‘โ„Ž ๐‘—๐‘ข๐‘ ๐‘ก ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘œ๐‘˜๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘Ž๐‘ก ๐‘š๐‘’...?

"I don't know youโ€ฆ"

I said with a rash voice.

The shock in their eyes as I blurt it out.

I feel bad.

"Noโ€ฆwe're your parents no matter what, please Vianciโ€ฆjustโ€”-it's alright not to recognize us, you've been through so much because of usโ€ฆyou waking up is a miracle and more then enough for me." A women whom claimed to be my mother said wiping her tears away and smile warmly.

She'sโ€ฆsweet very..

๐ต๐‘ข๐‘ก ๐™จ๐™–๐™™๐™ก๐™ฎ...

๐ผ๐‘š ๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™ฉ โ„Ž๐‘’๐‘Ÿ ๐™™๐™–๐™ช๐™œ๐™๐™ฉ๐™š๐™ง

๐‘คโ„Ž๐‘œ๐‘š ๐‘ โ„Ž๐‘’ ๐‘ โ„Ž๐‘’๐‘‘ ๐‘ก๐‘’๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘  ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ.

๐‘‡โ„Ž๐‘’๐‘ ๐‘’ ๐‘ค๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ๐‘‘๐‘ , ๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘ฃ๐‘’, ๐‘Ž๐‘“๐‘“๐‘’๐‘๐‘ก๐‘–๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘ ...

๐—”๐—ฟ๐—ฒ ๐—ป๐—ผ๐˜ ๐—บ๐—ฒ๐—ป๐˜ ๐—ณ๐—ผ๐—ฟ '๐™ข๐™š'

Therefore I can never accept it no matter how much I want to.

There's an open widow in the very corner of this room, there seem to be a deep pond right outside of it.

๐™‡๐™š๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™ง๐™ฎ ๐™ž๐™ฉ

Though I felt bad, this place is not for me, I can feel their confusion as I got up slowly on my own and start making my way towards the open window, this is only a one story house so they probably thought I'm just trying to get some fresh air or look outside, but their movements were faster then what their thoughts could process when I attempted to clime over the window.

"NO!" They both said terrified with tears yet again in the eyes as they grabbed my whole body and dragged me inside, onto the floor with all the energy they could rustle up.

"WE'RE SORRY WE COULDN'T MAKE ENOUGH MONEY TO GET YOU THAT DRESS FROM QUIVEE YOU'VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF WEARING FOR YOUR COMING OF AGE!"

"WE'LL TRY HARDER, WE'LL DO MORE NIGHTSHIFT, WE'LL FIND ANOTHER JOB, JUST ANYTHINGโ€ฆ! Pleaseโ€ฆ.stop, don't.."

Tears start forming my eyesโ€ฆI don't know themโ€ฆwe're so different, we're separate people, we're completely strangers, yetโ€ฆwhyโ€ฆare tears formingโ€ฆ?

I looked over where there happens to be a mirror.

Waist length, Peach-ish brown hair color, the vertex hair, the very middle of it is dark gray-ish.

๐ป๐‘œ๐‘ค ๐‘๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘ก๐‘ก๐‘ฆ

I thought. That's when I've came to realize what had happened.

๐ผ๐‘ฃ๐‘’ ๐‘๐‘’๐‘’๐‘› ๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘–๐‘›๐‘๐‘Ž๐‘Ÿ๐‘›๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐‘’๐‘‘.

These people here are side charactersโ€”we're peasants, low-lives. Hardly ever mention in those reincarnated novel unless their used as step-stone for ML/FL to showcase their generosity or act of kindness or to show their power they now possess.

Now that I'm this 'Vianci' girl, I'm positive of one thing.

"๐‘†โ„Ž๐‘’'๐‘  ๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘’ ๐‘œ๐‘“ ๐‘กโ„Ž๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘’ ๐‘š๐‘–๐‘ ๐‘๐‘’โ„Ž๐‘Ž๐‘ฃ๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘

๐‘ข๐‘›๐‘”๐‘Ÿ๐‘Ž๐‘ก๐‘“๐‘ข๐‘™ ๐‘๐‘œ๐‘š๐‘š๐‘œ๐‘›๐‘’๐‘Ÿ"

That was the only line from the novel that mentioned her existence, but also a summary of it all there is to tell about her.

Vianciโ€ฆ.you have very kind parents, I know that very well just judging from their reaction and vibes.

They want you to ๐—น๐—ถ๐˜ƒ๐—ฒ.

๐—๐˜‚๐˜€๐˜ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ซ๐™š.

When mine would just calculate how useful I would be for them in the future.

Your parents are the type of parents I would ๐™—๐™ง๐™š๐™–๐™ฉ๐™ ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘‘ ๐™™๐™ž๐™š for.

Soโ€ฆfor them, I'll live as 'you' Vianci Bliyke.

I'll be the daughter they so loved and cherish.

I'll make sure I'm not a burden and help them get out of poverty. I'll treat them well in your place.

I'llโ€ฆ.

"Hikโ€ฆ.momโ€ฆdadโ€ฆ?" I sobbed.

"Vianโ€ฆVyโ€ฆ"

my parents cried even more as they hugged me tightly.

โ€ฆ

And that's where and why I am here, laying down on this surprisingly soft and warm bed in a very small bad condition hut-like house.

Before they had left for work early in the morning, I asked if they own any property. Mom owns a salon. Although it's not in the best condition or at least modern level, they're clean and legit enough to get a few customers and do what is needed. Dad work as a handyman, after he would work at a small marketplace. Mom would pick and sale flowers or some of her precious items when there's not enough to put food on the tables, they often skip meals to provide enough material and food to raise Vianci.

They usually pull an all-nighter judging from their condition so far, they have really dark eye bags and hardly any meat on their body.

๐ด ๐‘ ๐‘Ž๐‘™๐‘œ๐‘› ๐‘“๐‘œ๐‘Ÿ ๐‘๐‘’๐‘ข๐‘ก๐‘ฆ โ„Ž๐‘ขโ„Ž?

๐‘€๐‘Ž๐‘ฆ๐‘๐‘’ ๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘–๐‘›๐‘” ๐‘Ž๐‘‘๐‘ฃ๐‘Ž๐‘›๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘”๐‘’ ๐‘œ๐‘“ ๐‘š๐‘ฆ ๐‘š๐‘œ๐‘‘๐‘’๐‘Ÿ๐‘› ๐‘˜๐‘›๐‘œ๐‘ค๐‘™๐‘’๐‘‘๐‘”๐‘’ ๐‘œ๐‘› ๐‘กโ„Ž๐‘–๐‘  ๐‘“๐‘–๐‘’๐‘™๐‘‘.

๐™„ ๐™ข๐™ž๐™œ๐™๐™ฉ ๐™๐™–๐™ซ๐™š ๐™–๐™ฃ ๐™ž๐™™๐™š๐™–.