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Chapter 20 - lost in thought

I continued sitting in that hallway alone every after Marie had already left.

something in me was yelling at myself for the situation I'm now in.

I bet I knew what it was.

my head bad been against the stone walls so long they were now warm, the already somewhat dark atmosphere outside the window directly above me seemed even darker.

one could spiral here and wouldn't be able to even find up ever again, how do they stay here willingly?

after seeing the guy in those horrible conditions and unknowingly partially disabling the son of my new wife, I didn't feel all that amazing.

and the creppy trees outside and lack of any noise whatsoever was only drawing me deeper into the rabbit hole of self doubt and loathing, going deeper and deeper like I was hopelessly sinking.

even my "helper" in my head wasn't a useful life raft, all the times it's grossed me put and the fact that it got me here in the first place only made me sink faster into the darkness of my own mind.

"almost there."(dark voice) said somewhere, whether it was in my head or all around me, I wasn't sure.

I had lost track of time at this point and I was already starting to get extremely sore, but of course it'd be healed and I'd go numb again only to go sore after a bit more time.

the cycle repeating once or twice before my eyes closed on their own.

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I found Syn sleeping where I left him, he hadn't budged at all since then and I was starting to feel what could only be called worry, I didn't even know this man yet I worry for him?

the ritual truly does work.

something I'd noticed about him since meeting was that he seemed weak willed or fragile minded, but he also has the impression that it wasn't always like that, something must've happened to him I thought to myself as I hoisted up the unconcious man and started walking to our room.

he occasioanlyl mumbled and from what I could hear it sounded like complete gibberish all except for one sentence that I clearly understood.

"I should've been there..."(Syn) said, barely audible as he kept sleeping.

getting to know him might not be as horrible as I first thought.

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once again I awoke drenched in sweat and in some kind of pain, this was starting to get old.

Marie was nowhere in sight, something I honestly didn't mind.

at this point I was hoping that this whole thing was another elaborate dream that I'd soon discover was soon over.

[negative]

ever the voice of "reason" the little degenerate was.

[BP:95/205]

*that's low*

It's been what 8 maybe 9 years since I've seen it as low as around 1/4ish of what i have.

of course there'd been times it could've gone lower but I'd always promised myself to look out for number one, something I honestly don't know if I regret, those people didn't need to die.

but the past is the past and there's no use regretting what you can't change.

I didn't bother with much clothing, going with the old reliable shorts I first used and continue to use.

forgoing the shirt and shoes I just simply left the room and started wondering the halls aimlessly.

whispering female and male servants shot glances at me before continuing on and avoiding eye contact and just me in general.

I wasn't buff but I wasn't skinny, I had clear muscle definition but it was subdued.

abs and clear muscle lines on my arms, legs, and back, enough to show I wasn't weak but not nearly enough to make me look like a drugged up sports player.

I looked fit.

*why am I thinking this?*

[no idea]

I ignored the voice and just kept on walking, clearing my head and just going where I felt like I should go, taking turns at what I thought was random.

but it wasn't random at all, turns out I was being led, somehow.

"ah come come, welcome."(powerful vampire)

I looked to my right and noticed an opening to a massive dining room, with a chandelier, this time without skulls, hung in the center of the room directly over top a grand table that was both wide and long.

Marie was sitting by her father, the man I made the deal with, and 3 other vampires were sitting by her, one of them no longer had a hand.

*fuck they're gonna eat me alive*

[I'd like to see that]

*I'd like you to be a normal robotic helper that only gives me missions and facts!*

[request pending.....]

that surprised me enough to change my facial expression.

"what is it?"(Marie)

"oh its nothing I thought I heard something."(Syn)

"what did you think you heard?"(powerful vampire)

"something thats only purpose is to kill."(Syn)

"I do so love cryptic answers and a potential challenge."(powerful vampire)

"well do come sit down with us."(powerful vampire)

I thought about putting on more clothes but if marie acted that surprised I wonder how her dad would react, not sure I wanted to see.

nervously shuffling over to an empty seat on the other side of Marie's dad, whose name I should probably figure out, I couldn't stop my eyes from traveling to the 3 by Marie, ha that rhymed.

focus!

I shook my head slightly as I rubbed my temples, why did I have to end up here of all places?