When he departed from the kiss, he smiled at me and pulled his hair back, "damn," he whispered under his breath as if he probably noticed he broke one of his precious rules.
I bit my inner cheek not to giggle, his hand was on the floor trapping me in the little space which separated our bodies.
He brushed with his fingers through my hair and tilted his head to the side, "there is a magnetic attraction between us. I couldn't resist it." He said justifying himself and I nodded, "it's fine."
He chuckled again and sighed under his breath, "I have to go before I break other rules." He said, he reopened the door and left.
I placed a hand on my chest and looked up at the ceilings smiling like an idiot, I didn't even know what that kiss meant since the situation was quite confusing but I didn't care. All that I cared about was that I was happy and that I didn't want to stop seeing him.
Even if that meant dating him with some crazy rules imposed by him.
I walked into the kitchen and I sat down on the sofa, a few seconds later Joanna called me to know how the date went and after I told her everything she exploded in a loud laugh.
"I can't believe he gave you such a long speech and then kissed you on the door threshold."
I giggled as well, "maybe he set those rules but he never respect them or he did an exception for me. I don't know but I like him and I want to get to know him better." I stated.
I heard her giggle another time from the phone, "of course you like him, Lily! He is handsome rich and kisses well, boyfriend material!"
We both laughed, she wasn't right apparently he was perfect but from my last relationship which seemed flawless, I learned I never have to believe in things that appear perfect because hidden down the surface that perfection hid thousands of flaws and creaks.
When I hang down the phone I opened my social media account and on the feed appeared photos of Carl with his assistant, from one week ago. He spent the days of our honeymoon with her in a beautiful isolated mountain cabin.
The blood boil in my veins although I wasn't so innocent as well since I just kissed another man.
My gaze paused on Carl's smile, he looked so happy and carefree. And my heart ached to realize he never had that same gaze when he was with me, at least not in the last two years. How didn't I notice he wasn't happy with me? how can someone who once made your heartbeat and who was the primary source of your happiness become a few weeks later, the reason why you feel like you threw years of your life down into the trash without thinking twice about it?
The emptiness I felt in my chest was due to the years we spent together and to the anger that had not faded to be replaced by a feeling of agony and malaise.
I am glad I had met Cameron because if it wasn't for him those photos would have hurt me more than they already did, I took a deep breath and click on his name. The mouse slid on the button 'remove friend' and without hesitation or second-guessing, I clicked on it.
I didn't remove him from my friends because I wanted to show him that I hated him and that I neglected him. I did it because I didn't want to see him anymore, I didn't want him to intrude in my life and allow him to change my mood as he did right now.
I placed my phone down, and I left it on the table as I lay on the sofa and turn the tv on, I made myself a tea and in less than an hour, I went to sleep.
The next day I woke up in a great mood, I had my usual latte in the morning and made a quick omelet.
I dressed up and I drove to work, as usual, I knew many of my coworkers had Carl in their friends so they probably saw the pictures and I was more than ready for a sudden cross-examination.
As I predicted as soon as I walked into my office and sat down at my desk few of my colleagues reached me.
"Did you see Carl's pictures?" George asks holding a dossier and widening my eyes.
"Yes," I replied calmly, ready to drop the imminent bomb, "he cheated me with that girl."
Silence fell and I stared at their jaw-dropping, they blinked twice in total disbelief.
I gestured with my hand before they could tell me the usual things people say on those occasions, 'he didn't deserve you, 'men are hopeless' or lots of cursing.
"I'm fine, I knew it already and we're no longer together. We shall get back to work." I offered a forced smile to suggest they leave me alone.
They didn't reply, they walked away without asking my annoying questions and I focused on work to keep my mind distracted from the concern they would spread the news in the entire company, and in a matter of few seconds, anyone would know I am a single woman who failed a marriage.