*sigh*
"how much time do we have? Two days? One days?"
Evan sleeping on his front yard while looking up and seeing the starts in the sky, and keep thinking that why is human life is so complicated. Why can't we have a free life? Flying in the sky, while being happy with someone we love, search for something that make us smile, do something that make us comfortable, when I want to be lazy I just be lazy, when I want to be happy I just be happy, when I'm hungry I just eat, when I'm thirsty I just drink.
Why life must be so complicated?
*sigh*
What Is power actually? What is mortal? What is angel? What is demon? What is human? In the end everything is just the same. We live in this world like a cage. Every living being, have the same ending. Who said they can live freely? Even the strongest beings is the same. Every king, every leader, every person, whether small or big, have a responsibility that chain them.
Maybe for a strong or influential person think that they can do anything in this world, like they said that 'world was just in the back of their hand'. But is it true though? Well, of course not. Every power have a consequences. Every person have chain that can't be see through, whether it is power, lust, wealth, revenge, rule, authority, or worse is desire. Even me who like to be free become one who got chain. Free is like an obsession, and obsession is the worst thing that chain our life.
I'm even thinking that, is falling in love is a good thing for me who want to be free? Isn't falling in love can make our chain more thicker and got tied tighter? Isn't falling in love can make our responsibility more bigger? When thinking like that, it's make me who want to be free scare of love in this few days that even make me ignore vanessa and natasha.
But when I'm thinking more deeper again, is there anything in this world who didn't have chain? Even emotionless puppet have a chain. Even this damn universe is the same, they have chain. Then what make me worry then? What's make me scare actually? I'm thinking and thinking to search for the answer, but nothing come in mind.
Or maybe a death can make us free from a chain that bound us? But isn't death a chain too? A chain that bound our freedom?
So what is the meaning of being free then? It's make me want to thinking again that is want to be being free is a true? Is it right to do?
And when I thought of leaving vanessa and natasha alone it made my heart ache.
"Damn! It's no use to thinking something that I can't control, thinking again then maybe I will become crazy."
*sigh*
Suddenly evan looked back and saw vanessa and natasha slowly come to sit on his side. Vanessa come to sit on his left side and natasha on his right. They slowly lie down on evan side while hugging him tight just to feel the warmth he gave off.
Evan let them be and keep looking at the sky while in his heart he feel guilty that he ignored them lately. Evan was the first to open his mouth to start a conversation.
"I'm sorry that lately I'm ignoring you, it's just that I'm kinda frustrated that I can't do nothing in this kind of situation, that make my mind wondering around.
Even when I try to suck the surrounding element, nothing happened. Anything I do, nothing work. The worst that I didn't know anything about this shit. It's not even one week for me to got this power, then everything go to drain. Even the simplest spell earth barrier I can't cast it.
It's really make me frustrated, make me feel like a useless person. It's me who started it, but it's like I can't clean my own mess. And know what things that weight the most on my heart? It's that I scared something happened to both you."
Evan said while slowly close his eyes. He pours all the accumulated stress in his heart this pas few days, he tell how he feel, he tell how he worried about them, he tell how frustrated he was, while with every word he says more tighter his embrace was.
"shhhh~ it's okay brother. I know, we know what you feel. We know what you are worrying about. That's why we give you space to be alone. And that's why too we are here now, we want to share your burden and we want to endure it together." Vanessa said while hugging evan and kiss his cheek to easy his heart.
"Yes. What vanessa say it's true, you didn't need to burden your heart with this. this all is not just your fault, but our fault too. We didn't think about how you will react with what happened. And we didn't explain anything before this. so make your heart at peace, because we will get through it together. And whether the result is good or bad, we will never regret it. In fact we are happy to be together with you." Natasha continues vanessa words while keep smelling evan smell like a dog.
"and it's not like we don't have a plan how to beat that angel. It's just that we need your cooperation." Natasha added with a sly smile while looking at evan.
"oh? And what is that? just tell me and I will do it."
"okey so this is the plan....."