" i try to hold myself together, not letting my emotions get the best of, I can't not today, it's been a crappy enough of a day, I don't need to add a break down in public to the mix as well. I dry the tears at the corner of my eyes threatening to escape and pick myself up from the ground, grabbing my purse from where it fell apparently not that I had noticed. Thankfully the hospital isn't to far from here, actually thinking about it, its within walking distance, I can make it within the next 20 minutes. I start to walk towards the hospital and take in my surroundings, oddly enough its pretty quite at this end of the city which makes me nervous ,just for the fact being on the east end of the city its always busy, but today it seeks like more of ghost town then anything, barely anyone's out today which leads me to wonder what's going on? Did I miss something? Is something big going on that I wasn't aware of? I mean not like I watch enough news to know regardless, but you think i would have heard or seen something about something going on within the city, wouldn't have i ? . I don't realize that I've been so lost in thought that I am only a foot away from the hospital, I look up at the tall, dark menacing building before me and I can feel the tremors slowly making its way down my body, I try not to let my memories or my fear get the best of me as I make my way in the building where I'm seated and the receptionist tells me the dr will call for me shortly to administer the shot. Looking around I notice that the hospital is rather packed compared to the usual three or four patients, now it seems like almost everyone is here, some are coughing, some are sneezing, and I can see a little girl about the age of four two seats down from me crying and hugging her mother, mumbling something about how she doesn't feel well, and before you know it the little girl is bending over in her seat puking up what looks like blood and crying. I turn the other way feeling the tears prick at the corner of my eyes and my heart clench, my stomach starts to turn as the nausea hits me, all I can hear in the commotion of background noise is the mother screaming and crying for help from anyone who can help her daughter and the daughter crying for her mom. My fear starts to spike as I hear the noise fade as Drs rush to help the little girl and calm the over anxious mother, wondering whats going to happen to her mother, I think to myself that obviously today was a very bad day to come here, before I can go any further with those thoughts I hear my name being called. So I stand up and grab my bag trying to not look at where the little girl and mother were just a few moments ago for fear of passing out or worse having an anxiety attack, I follow the nurse to one of the rooms in the back and hop on the table as she shuts the door and greets me like what just happened is normal! That is happens everyday but I just go with the flow as I need a distraction from what I just witnessed, she goes over my charts and asks me the same old boring questions that every Dr or nurse asks and weighs me, once she's gotten my weight I hop back up on the table and she let's me know that she's going to go get the shot and will be right back. I sit there patiently, letting my feet dangle off the sides of the table while I look around, but unfortunately for me its the same old crap that every drs office has you know the brochures about all kinds of health issues and medications? Yeah those damn things, I hear the soft click of the nurses shoes as she enters the room and I look over at her staring at what she has in her hand, its a long syringe with the needle on the end but what throws me off is the liquid is silver, I try to ask the nurse why its silver but she just comes up with some cob job of a story brushing if off. I try not to put to much thought into it, since its not like I am sciencetist and know what exactly vaccines are supposed to look like. She cleans my bicep with rubbing alcohol and tells me that I will feel just a pinch, which by the way was a total lie, once she's done hurting me with the stupid vaccine I can feel a slight burn of what feels like the liquid making its way through my veins, I ask the nurse if thats okay and the only thing she can tell me is that it's normal. The nurse tells me that I may feel weird for a few days, but after that I should be completely fine and sends me on my merry way, if I could have I would have throat punched her, considering that burning feeling was starting to travel slowly throughout my body as I made my way out of the hospital. I can feel the burning sensation moving throughout my veins and, to say it's not the most pleasant feeling is an understatement at this point, I honestly feel bad for other people who have gotten this shot because it's very uncomfortable and makes you feel like you have a fire in your veins. I start to feel a little sluggish as I make my way to the bus stop down the road, as I slowly amble my way to the bus stop my thoughts wander to the shot and wonder whats really in the Damn thing, I mean for it to make me feel like this already it makes me wonder if the worse has yet to come, I mean by now its already been almost an hour and I feel like this. Once I've reached the bus stop I sit down for a few minutes but feels like hours to my body and mind, as the bus finally pulls up I notice an older woman standing near by seeming to have a difficult time walking, so I walk over to her trying to ignore the fire in my veins thats slowly but steadily spreading and I silently offer my elbow to help her onto the bus, which she thankfully takes with a grateful nod and we make our way slowly over to the bus. I help her up the stairs onto the bus and I pay for her ride, much to her dismay and protesting but If I've learned anything in my life is that kindness always goes a long way, once I get her settled and made sure she's okay I sit down not to far from her and rest my head against window, feeling the coolness of the glass against my clammy skin from helping the older lady out. It takes me fifteen minutes to get home and by that time I'm ready to go to bed, its been a long day and I just want to curl up in my nice cozy covers and warm bed, but even though my bed is calling my name at this point I know I need to eat first. I unlock my door and drop my purse with sign as I slowly slide my shoes off and slip into my comfy slippers and amble my way into the kitchen turning on lights as I go, the lights seem to be a little brighter then usual but not by much and I can feel a slight pounding sensation starting, which can only mean the start of a migraine knowing my luck, especially as of lately. I scour through the cupboards trying to find something appealing to eat but everything I find just makes my stomach churn in disgust, so I finally settle on a granola bar knowing I need to eat something, I unwrap the wrapper and take a bite out of it chewing on the piece thoughtfully. Then a thought occurs to me, I completely forgot to ask the nurse how long these symptoms will last? or if there are others I should be aware of?, but then again not like the nurse would have been completely truthful with me, or she would have been vague just like she was anytime i tried to ask other questions regarding the vaccine."