I fucking woonnnnn AHHHHH

I scream at excitement and delight as I saw the lotto result that I bet into with my spare money after buying a pair of sleepers. I'm sooooo happy just imagining every thing I wish to have. I'm just a poor soul who works multiple job. A sales lady in the day, a waitress in the night and a writer as my part-time. I did all that to survived this awful world called reality. And now I got the money to live leisurely!!

Then just as like they say... If there is Luck then there is a bad luck.

Everything is shaking I crouch down as I saw the glasses broke as they fall. Then the ceiling starting to give down.

Then everything turned black. I feel soon much pain.. The air cramping down... Its getting hard to breathe.

No... Please I don't want to die this way... Please...

I feel my body run cold

Please..

I want to scream from the pain yet my throat was blocked by something...

Help...

I opened my lips to shout yet no voice came out

I don't wanna go yet...

I'm still a rat rag poor! I didn't even experience to live as much as people do! Why?... Why??!!!

Then everything went black.

• • •

"hey wake up, baby...please don't leave mommy too, you're the only treasure mommy had..." a sob wake me up from the darkness. I saw a sobbing woman who has red hair tied up in a bun and rag clothes covering her fair skin and beautiful body features. she looks quite familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time... And who is that baby she's talking about??

She notice that I'm awake and stare at me in shock then hug me tight. "oh my baby! You woke up!! Ah mommy was scared to death that my Amethyst would leave mommy behind too!" she exclaimed with her still sobbing face and voice.

I'm really confused right now so I asked the pretty usual question

"who are you?" only to find my voice not familiar. Because my voice is ragged and dry yet this voice is sweet and like a child...wait...A CHILD?!!

"W-WHAT DO YOU MEAN BABY?? DO-DO DO YOU NOT REMEMBER MOMMY ANY MORE?? DID YOU BUMP YOUR HEAD HARD??" I can't really focus to what this woman was trying to say as I stare at my previous callused hands that now turned into a tender chubby hands of a child!.

What the fuck?!! I cursed in random languages as a head ache kicks in and makes me unconscious through the severe pain the only thing I remember was the red haired woman panics around the small room while still sobbing. Aghh..my lotto moneyyyyy

This. Is. Insane.

• • •

I opened my eyes again only to be greeted by the same woman yet she looks so haggard now and her eyes was red like she just stopped crying.

"Its okay baby, its me mommy... Geonea Alfin, me you're mom was former dukes daughter once yet something happened, you are Ametty my baby. the Doctor said that you'll be fine but you lose you're memories after you got beaten up and drown by those kids who pick on you...its Mommy's fault, I'm so sorry..." the woman starts to cry again, actually after hearing her name... I wanna cry too...

First, I died after winning a lotto and now I'm transmigrated into the fucking sick book I created haha...what a luck!

So let me start by the plot of the book. The heroine was the adopted sister of the villainess who is my 'mother' now, she met the crown Prince who was a Yandere well let's just say that half of this mans population in this book I made was yanderes. Well that's what the readers wanted!!!

So longs story short my mother the villainess out of jealousy mistreated her sister and seduce the prince yet failed. The prince became the king and was about to marry the heroine but the villainess seduce him again that night but the prince actually was not into that room but another character 'The Villain'. And they make out and so on so fort. Ghod what the hell did I do wrong to make this shit.

And then she found out that 'He' was not the Prince so she ran away that morning only to be announce in her face that the marriage was approved and about to began that night and also that night she was banished.

And the baby the villainess and the villain made...hahaha...she died by drowning leaving the villainess to die in isolation and sadness.

So now I became that child and live as a miserable rat again...

Hah...why life is so fucked up.

I pat my mothers back and smiled "it is okay, its not Mommy's fault." Its my fault for all honestly.

She huged me and cried again yet now she fall asleep from stress. I sigh and went up into a cloudy and dusty full body mirror. I saw a pair of jet black orbs and red hair petite little lady with fierce yet gentle and sweet figure. She'll surely grow up as a beauty I'd she didn't die.

I'm sorry... I have to make you all suffer because in the first place I was a selfish and greedy creature that I didn't even care how heartless I could be .

I promise I'll make it up to you. I swore while looking at my mothers sleeping face.

She's the villainess, she really didn't mean to hurt anyone from the start. Yet she's just blinded by her own mother. Her mother brainwashed her so she could be in-laws with the royals not the rat like the heroine. While she, the villainess just wants her heartless mothers love. Poor her she didn't even know that her mother was not born with it.

In the end she got manipulated, trampled down and thrown like a useless doll. I'm so sorry for her.

Yet even though she have that kind of childhood she didn't let her own child to be the same too. To be like her, she just wanted to see her own daughter grow and love freely, to have a family she wanted to see grandchildrens calling her grandmom. A simple life . a simple end.

Yet I made her nothing but a miserable one.

I look back again at the little girl in a mirror she look like a 7 year old yet actually she's 8 turning 9 when she died. So I guess that I'm a 9 years old kid.

For . wat. The. Fuck. Sake!

What in a real hell a 9 years old kid can do?!

On a top of that in a world whose half population of males as a yandere?!!