Hi, I am Isabel and I was born in Romania My parents are wonderful people I was born at the seaside a beautiful city named Costanta. My mother at the age of 19 ran away from home because her father was not a very good man and she wanted to be free but her father did not have this freedom so she decided to run away as far as possible from him and that small town. She met my father they got married and after two years they had me. My parents sent me to stay with my grandparents. I was very happy and happy there with them for me they were like my parents. I had to leave my grandparents to go to school so I went back to the big city I didn't like it so much I had three friends Andreea my friend and then there were Mery and Leon (titi). My mother seeing that I am not happy there in the city decided to transfer in company. I already had friends so at school I had no problems of any kind I liked them. I was 15 when I first started going to the disco was new to me. My friends and cousins who did not take their eyes off me I was their baby, On that cursed evening I lost my heart to a very handsome boy with Angel face we met and after a while we got engaged I was the most beautiful girl happy with the world I didn't know what I'm up against after a year I realized that I loved him but he didn't play with me.
Isa: Zayn we have known each other for a year I'm tired of your games, do you realize what you are doing?
Zayn: what is it this time? What have I done? Isa: is it you ask me as well?
After you kiss a friend of mine you ask me what did you do?
Zayn: come on, it was just for fun I tried and she was there at the kiss that I had to do? At that moment I realized that he did not feel what I do so I had decided to make them pay with the same coin.
Isa: okay then I'll change too don't tell me I didn't warn you.
But he laughs and goes about his business, looking around I see a friend of his who is looking at me and here is my first prey, I approach him at a slow pace.
Miky: hey what's up again did you fight?
Isa: so it seems and you know what I got tired of him.
Miky: you are a beautiful girl you don't have to worry about having another boyfriend don't you think? Isa: you say?
Miky: Sure
Isa: Should I get to know you better? For a few weeks I've been meeting this friend of Zayn's it's not bad just that I don't feel for him what he feels for me I'm becoming like Zayn I hurt people without realizing.
Isa: listen Miky maybe it's better to end it here.
Miky: why? Zayn wants you back and you fall into his trap again?
Isa: no Miky I just don't feel anything for you sorry.
I leave it there alone in the dark, I'm very sorry but I had to leave it before it got too bad, I know what it means to heart pain.
The pain inside me was still grinding me every time I saw it.
One night his best friend comes to talk to me. Nathan: Hey how's it going? Are you feeling better?
Isa: really no, I don't know how to do it I tried to make him jealous but I realized hurting that poor boy wasn't right.
Nathan: What do you think you're doing?
Isa: I need help making him understand what he's missing.
Nathan: then I will help you I know that knowing you with me will be very jealous I know him well.
I smile at them and take their hand as I enter the disco, he was right I finally had his eyes on me.
Nathan: It's been 3 months since I'm playing the fake boyfriend what do you think?
Isa: the time has come to face it, right? And there he comes, he takes me by the hand and takes me out to a dock.
Zayn: ok now enough Isa !!!
Isa: what is it? What have I done?
Zayn: I know you don't feel for Nathan what you feel for me so why not finish this story? Isa: I love him so .... And it's true I started to love him as a friend
Zayn: You're not serious, are you? Isa: I know it's true I love that boy a lot.
Zayn: I quit being a fool and you close this story with Nathan okay?
Isa: is it why?
Zayn: Because I realized that you are important to me.
Isa: is it when I was crying and begging you not to leave me because you did?
Zayn: I'm right but now I've changed
Isa: it is also me my dear you made me become what I am today one who can no longer give the love she deserves, the one who even if you implore me I will not mollify my decision is firm.
Zayn: So?
Isa: You will never have me again.
Zayn be fine I'm leaving letting him do it just by calling my name. I thank Nathan for the help he had given me. Let's keep in touch he had become my best. The boys followed me because I was free but I didn't want anyone. As soon as I turn 17 I lose the most important person in my life a pain that was too much for me so without realizing I was changed I was dead once with my ninth I was off I no longer had my smile and not even tears I was destroyed I was angry with everyone that's all. In that moment of depression a boy was very close to me until he brought me back to life he was guarding a nightclub that I recently went to with my friends and little by little he got to know him better he had some anger problems nobody did not stop him but the thing is that I was able to stop him without much effort and so we went from friends to boyfriends I was happy very happy. The best thing was to see first love kneeling in front of me telling me to forgive him and give them another chance with tears in his eyes telling me he loves me but I told them I don't forgive him, he told me when I became so bitchy and with a heart of ice? I told them it wasn't difficult because he was the one who learned how to do it and then my being ran its course, my heart broke again but I didn't make them understand why he had to learn to understand people first. I had become that way because of him.
Mom: Mom's joy you should eat otherwise ....
Isa: why? Why exactly is he because it happened to me?
Mom: I don't know Isa I can't answer this question.
Isa: first the grandfather and now he who leaves me without explanations and without a heart, I no longer feel like my heart, mom, I just feel cold inside.
He was no longer there and I could not go on so I decided to move away from that place. My parents understood and sent me to my uncle at the beach.