The weight on me was so heavy. Again I was feeling this way after a long time. What I had found out is entirely to blame.
My world was spinning around me and I felt like barfing.
There was a ringing in my ears and I was really dizzy. Everything was just too much for me to handle.
I want to be bad again. Yes, if I was the self centered person I was then this won't affect me much right? I would be okay and calmed. I would have only cared about what happens to me next.
I would be only interested if I would still get what I wanted. Right now, I want to feel that way.
I do not want to feel betrayed. Feeling betrayed is only when you cared and trusted soneone and I did not want to care or trust anyone.
Was this what betrayal felt like? I was the only one who betrayed, I've never been betrayed and I felt sick knowing this.
