Alina's pov
I was so happy I don't know why. The moment I saw him I felt so attached....like a bond.....**Omg....could it be....he is my....omg omg omg....** I suddenly felt butterflies in my stomachs.I was so happy.But suddenly all fell down....all of it when he said "I James Richard...son of Alpha caleb and luna Miya rejects you as my mate..." when his sentence finished I felt like someone squeezed my chest and hit me hard on my stomach which made me fall on my knees. I felt like the bond that attached to him broke. I didn't thought that without a wolf I can still feel the pain of being rejected. But as he had an Alpha blood and I am his chosen mate,so as his mate I still felt that heart stab on my heart.A sharp heart stab like someone perish my heart out of my body."why? Why ? Am I not good enough?why do you reject me before we even get to know each other and get our wolves"I asked shivering in pain. "Because it will be easy now for us as we don't have wolves. Look I don't believe we can live with someone else decisions....I don't want a mate. It's not my decision. You are not my decision."
"Please no..." I begged in a crying voice. "I need you...we need you...please let me just prove I am worthy of you...please don't...." I cried begging him.
"Alina..." He holded my face "you are beautiful...you can have better....please accept my rejection...." He told me and that time I swear I also saw a pain in him of breaking the bond but it looked like he just ignored it.
"No...no...no I will not....I need you and my wolf needs your wolf...what will I say to her when I will get her.... please....please....pl...ease...(cries)
"Alina...accept my rejection..."He said little bit loudly.
"No...please...please..." I begged again.
"I said accept it...."He said harshly this time trying to use his Alpha voice authority. "It will be better for both of us....so please...don't make it difficult.
I bite my lips hardly. I had no choice. I had to accept it."I.. I...(cries) I Alina Dafferen....daughter of Grabel Dafferen and...(pauses) Jenni Dafferen...accept...accept your...your (tears falls) rejection..." I cried saying the last word.
"Good... thankyou. I hope you will find someone better. " He stoods up. And leaves.
"How can there be someone else better than a mate." I cried loudly.
"Why am I not enough for you.... Moon goddess if I was not good enough for him and if we are not meant to be together...why paired us together...Why?(cries)
I never asked anything special. I just wanted a happy family with my mate. But I got rejected even before getting my wolf.what will I say to my wolf....that I got rejected before having her. What a pathetic werewolf I am? I am not good enough for my mate. I am weak."