When I walked into my room sometime later she was sitting on my bed. she had pulled on one of my shirts and her hair was wet. "Are you still mad at me?"
"Go fuck yourself." She said without looking at me.
"I guess that's a yes." I grumbled. "What do you want from me?"
"How about you actually care about more than just a maybe baby, or puppy, or what ever the flying fuck you call it!" She screamed.
"Okay glad the house is sound proof." I deflated quickly. "I'm sorry. Now let's go eat." I smiled.
"I'd rather starve." She said flatly. I really did fuck up this time.
"I apologized. What more do you want?" Why the fuck do I keep swallowing my own foot?
"How about a little bit of respect!" She snapped. "Just because you say sorry does not mean you apologized and just because you apologize does not mean that everything is better! The fact is you forced me to have sex with you with the intention of getting me pregnant! I could have married fat Drake for that! And then you don't even have the decency to have a heartattack and die while you raped me like he would've! I am not a slow person and you caught me easily last night! Just because I'm pretty doesn't mean I'm stupid! I tried to run and I failed!" She was screaming as tears ran down her face. "I won't do what I know I can't accomplish! I hid behind you because I had no choice! I let you bring me back here because I had no choice! I want Sena to take you back! I don't want you!" I clenched my teeth and ran my hand through my hair.
"So what? You hate me?"
"Because you hurt me! Trensalous, for fuck sake I was screaming and begging you to stop! But you just wouldn't listen! It never even occurred to you that not everyone wants what your offering!"
"But out front you said-"
"If I told you that I would sooner throw myself off a cliff than let you touch me ever again would you have listened then? I had no proof that you would give me any kind of choice on the matter! As it is I don't ever want to be left alone with you again!" I sank to the bed and processed what she had just said. She would rather die than be mine? Is that what she had said?
"Is there any way I can fix this? Fix us?" I said as tears blurred my vision. My uncle was right. I had fucked it up and only I could fix it.
"Why? Is it because you suddenly realized just how much of a fuck up you actually are? Or is it because you don't want to lose the child I MIGHT be carrying?"
"YOU! I CAN'T LOSE YOU!" I screamed at her desperately.
"Too little too late." She wiped her tears away and walked out of the room. She had thrown my own words back at me. How could I have broken her so much in such a little amount of time. I fell to the floor and wept as I curled into the fetal position. I didn't care if some one saw me like this. If they had I would have forfeit my right to my title. Right now I was a broken man and had no one to blame but myself.