The day was getting late, the heat also made a group of students hot on a complex math task.
"Za how about this one?" asked Dee.
"Do it using the formula for the area of the triangle first, then the area of the circumference, then add it up," explained Khanza.
Dea nodded, her head felt like it was going to burst when she saw the number of numbers listed there.
"Eh cupu," called Randra. "Another one, number nine, how about?" he asked without hesitation.
"Eh lizard! If you want to ask, can you be polite?!" he scolded.
"It's De, you just do what's yours..I'm okay with being called like that." Khanza half turned to look at Randra.
"This is a rhombus." Point to the picture in the material book.
"Which formula? I'm dizzy looking at it." Sandra scratched her head in frustration.
"The formula for area is this. One times D1 again D2."
"D1 and D2 what?" Randra watched Khanza carefully.
"D1 line AC and D2 line BD."
Sandra nodded in understanding. "Okay. Thank you," he said and did.
Meanwhile, Arif, the man just twirled his ballpoint pen. Not knowing what to do, he was too lazy to ask.
Khanza who turned out to be watching the man shook his head. Submitting the answers to the questions, he intended to give Arif a cheat sheet.
Gazing at the paper with a row of numbers. Arif also looked at Khanza. But before he could make a sound, the little girl had turned away indifferently.
Was PR, now cheat. How good are you Za? So what do I say to you?
Regret is increasingly hanging over Arif. It wouldn't calm down if he hadn't apologized and straightened things out.
"Za is the last one," Dea asked.
Not being stingy in sharing knowledge, that is the character of Khanza that his classmates remember.
***
It didn't feel like the lesson had ended, the school bell had rung loudly indicating that the students had successfully passed today's study session.
"Put in your homework," the math teacher ordered. "Those who have gathered can go home."
One by one, the students handed over their workbooks.
"Thanks, Za, we go first," exclaimed the friends who were helped by Khanza.
"You're welcome," replied the little girl friendly.
"Me too, Za. My sister is waiting in front," said Dea, who had already been called by her sister.
"Yes De, be careful."
Rushing to leave, Dea ignored Randra who called her.
"You barbarians, I called because the book fell and didn't even hear it." Suddenly Randra also said goodbye to Arif first, who knows he might still have time to catch up with Dea.
Khanza—the cute girl is still busy packing up her stationery. Unbeknownst to him, the class was empty. Only he and Arif were left there. wanted to get out, his arm was grabbed by the handsome man hard.
"What?" Reflex Khanza turned around and withdrew his hand.
"You are angry at me?" asked Arif directly.
Folding his arms over his chest, Khanza looked away. "Angry for what? What did you do wrong?" said Khanza who tried to forget what happened this morning.
"Yes, I thought you were angry earlier, dad—" Arif's words were interrupted by someone's arrival.
A beautiful woman stood gracefully in the doorway.
Khanza who felt someone else's presence turned around, following Arif's gaze. He was surprised when he saw one of the coquettish gang members in his class.
"Sis Vera," Khanza muttered quietly.
"Ough! There's a cute girl here!" cynical Vera.
Khanza was silent, lazy to respond because he was tired if he had to argue for the umpteenth time.
"Aren't you home yet, little one? Aren't you afraid to find your mother? Will you cry when you're scolded?" It's also spicy if Vera insults.
Khanza's eyes reddened. Secretly his hands clenched tightly. Don't respond to Za, it's not important either, the girl thought.
Arif felt that the atmosphere was unstable, it was enough for Vera to humiliate Khanza. Don't let him hear it either. Then taking the girl away, he left Khanza alone.
"Come on Ver. I'll take you." asked Arif to hold Vera's smooth hand.
"Bye-bye cute! I want to go on a date first."
Vera waved her hand as she followed Arif away from there. Leaving Khanza, who was still silent, looked at Arif's hand which was holding Vera's hand.
Pain, soreness, sadness mingled into one. Like being hit by a thousand kilograms of iron stone, Khanza felt depressed.
Why with me? why does it have to be like this, Arif is not who I am, I shouldn't be jealous.
Silently speaking, Khanza slowly closed his eyes. Put your right hand on your chest. He also tried to neutralize the pain that for some reason was so piercing in the pit of his heart.
"I'm strong, I'm not a weak girl. I'd better go home and take a nap." As he limped out of the school area, it turned out that Mang Usup was already waiting for him there.
"Non," said the middle-aged man as he opened the door.
Just take it, Khanza really doesn't taste good. It was unusual for him to behave like this to his driver.
Before entering the car, Khanza accidentally saw Arif carrying Vera. It looks intimate when the class brother's hand wraps around the handsome man's waist.
Once again Khanza felt a dagger slide into his chest. rushing into the car, he slammed the door loudly.
Shocked, Mang Usup felt that something was wrong. But he didn't ask, even though he was older, it would still be rude to interfere in the affairs of the employer's children.
He went home with Vera what's wrong? .looks very suitable, dating was actually okay. After all, I'm nobody, but why do I feel like I don't accept it?
Throughout the journey Khanza was just daydreaming, thinking about the feelings he couldn't sum up what it was like.
There's no way I fell in love with Arif. let alone jealous to see him with other women. I must have just been afraid that I would lose a friend figure. So far I've only admired him, because Arif is different from other men, but why do I have to be this painful to see him with other people? That's his right, Za, we are not who we are.
Khanza's driver occasionally glanced through the rearview mirror. What is Non Khanza thinking? It's not like he's usually daydreaming with a sad face like that.
Thirty minutes passed. The car stopped in Khanza's yard, but he still didn't move from his seat. Still wandering in daydream, until the Driver reminded.
"It's arrived Non."
"Uh." Looking left and right, it was true that they were already in the house area. "S-Sorry sir," he said.
Getting out of the car, Khanza went straight into the house. He even ran to the room without greeting his mother.
"Why the child? Tumben directly into the room?" The middle-aged woman was confused by the attitude of her son who looked gloomy and silent.
"Sir what about Khanza?" Tried to ask Mang Usup, who knows the driver knows because he picked up.
"Sorry madam, I didn't know either. Earlier in the car, Miss Khanza was also silent," said Mang Usup, who didn't know anything.
"Could you be tired, sir?" guess Mama Khanza.
"Perhaps Madam. Because high school usually has a lot of activities."
"Hopefully it's just like that." Taking a deep breath, Mama Khanza was also silent.
"Excuse me, I'll take my leave first."
"Please sir, thank you for picking up Khanza."
Mama Khanza also returned to the kitchen to continue her cooking activities with her aunt.
***
Brack!
Again, the door is an easy target for Khanza. Suddenly taking off all his clothes, he decided to take a warm bath.
"Hopefully this will calm my chaotic mind."
Thirty minutes of bathing, his body felt a little relaxed, but his heart was still worried and upset. After taking a shower, Khanza rested his body on the bed. Surfing on social media accounts, he hopes there is something entertaining from there.
"Arif and Vera?"
Accidentally saw the photo of Arif and Vera which had just been uploaded by the man's personal Instagram account. Khanza's eyes felt hot when the caption below was a love emoticon.
Can't cry. I can't cry like this. Remember Za, you only admire not love, so you can't be hurt like this.
Wiping Khanza's tears tried to steel his heart. "I'm strong, Arif is nothing. And I haven't had time to know love yet."
Kring-kring-kring!
The cell phone in Khanza's hand rang loudly. Putting aside the pain, he also checked who might be calling at a nap time like this.
And what a surprise when he read the name on the screen.
Hey, who's calling Khanza