After I lay down and closed my eyes as Raphael told me, I heard the story of "my" ancestors. In each of his words, I could feel and watch the events of the past like a dream, strangely everything felt familiar, from hatred for humanity to the pain of losing his friend. I could feel everything as if it were mine, except for the last part. Something just doesn't add up!
After I woke up, I could see the tears rolling down my cheeks, I was sad about the fate of the saint in my dream and also about Rapha's great wish that never came true. He waited and waited, but everything was in vain. Even the life he created and the hard work she put in to help others was in vain, because even though hatred and love were both on this earth, no one remembered anything.
People would have been scared, because Rapha's descendants still existed even after his death. Creating fear and the violence they inherited lingered in their people for a long time, but they couldn't cope with it as he did. They didn't have the same powers that he had and so they lost and little by little they disappeared without a track. But everything that happened was put in history, and aristocrats and commoners still fear Rapha for a reason, because they know what would happen if someone else sought revenge just like the first Rapha did. All of them will be kneeling before him just like they used to and eventually will say goodbye to everything they have, life or wealth.
But something doesn't add up, except for the amber eyes, they both had silver hair without any red thread in it. They were so clean that there was nothing to defile them, so why are me and the Rapha I saw in a dream years ago, different from them? So what do my dreams have to do with things that have happened in the past, does the previous owner of this body want to tell me something?
"You have changed…"
A voice!!...is the same as a long time ago… i-is this also a… memory? Everything around me is foggy, but I can still see my room… two people a-and a grave?!!
A beautiful lady emitting a luminous aura, with snow-white hair and a plain white dress, which looked fabulous worn by her. In front of her was Rapha of my dreams, he was sad but also furious after the death of the saint, standing near her grave with tears in his eyes. He shouted at her, trying to hold back the tears.
"… Why did you show up now, do you think this is all a game? Do we look like chess pieces that you can move as you want and after you get bored, throw us like the others? W-Why did you send us here, why in this world, w-what do we have to do to live up to your expectation? "
"My children, I just wanted you to live like normal people, I just wanted you to be happy…"
"Haha, happy? Who would be happy, if someone had to work with all his might for the rest of his life, for some people who don't care if we die or not? We can live a little longer than others, but we are still mortal and being a slave to humanity only because we had more power than them, how will you expect us to be happy like this."
"!?!"
"If you came here to say goodbye to the person who was once your child, then do it. But if you have come here and behave like a mother, to tell me that the things I have done so far are wrong, it is better for you to leave, because I don't regret anything!"
Their talk ended there. Rapha's face was fading away, leaving behind only the image of the woman who extended her hand in my direction. Maybe I was hallucinating because Rapha was in front of me all that time and now he was gone, but I felt like those words were aimed directly at me.
And in that memory which was disappearing with her words: "I'm sorry to hear that! But you leave me with no choice, the curse you placed on yourself will not be yours alone, it will live in your blood and will be inherited generation after generation. I will let you go because you are my son, but if I see that your descendants follow the same path, I am not going to spare them! "
I felt my lips move without my will, saying these words in a voice different from mine as if I had been possessed: "Do what you want Eternity, I don't consider you as a mother, so you don't have to consider me as your son either. Even if you kill me now, even if my descendants have the same curse as me, I will be proud if they destroy this filthy world."
I stopped could see with my own eyes, but my mouth was no longer mine! With a look full of sadness, she stared at me. I don't know why, but I felt strangely filled with rage when I saw her like that.
"Do you really think so?"
"I swore on my sister's grave, the only person I loved most in this world, that until the moment I die, and if I am reborn… I WILL KILL EVERYONE who dares to show his face in front of me!"
It stopped! I'm free, now I can control my own mouth! It is strange, it seems like I woke up from a long dream. This feeling… just now, did I say those words with my voice? I was determined and confident in what I was saying, just as if he were me, and I was him…
'Probably, because you are!'
Huh?! Was that you Raphael? Someone in my room? I don't see anyone else in here except me.
'Why did you show this now Raphael?'
It felt like this was an important part of the past, something I needed to move forward without hating myself afterward. Tonight I have to relax a bit, experiencing all these things one after the other is not good, is going to get me mentally tired. And I promised Mireyas that I would take care of myself from now on, but I have to do something.
Ding-Dong! *
"Did you ring the bell miss, with what can we do for you?"
"Go bring me the assistant butler, I want to talk to him about someth…!"
"… I'm sorry young miss, but he is busy at the moment, it would be better if you talk to him tomorrow!"
Sigh! I didn't give much thought to it before, but these days it seems that these two have started to behave differently, are they ignoring me? I don't want to think about what Mireya's maids are doing to her. Irene and Piera, I don't like anything about them, from the way they address me, to their attitude.
They are twins and there is nothing special about them, neither appearance nor education, so what made them have so much self-confidence while talking to me? The way I treated myself or is it something else?!
"Irene, what are you doing, I didn't tell you to leave!"
"Pardon?! Miss we have to leave, we have a lot of work to do. "
"Yes young miss, since we have nothing to do here we are leaving!"
Even now, they think they have finished their job and are ready to leave, even though I haven't given them permission yet. They are giggling with each other, thinking that I am a fool. What a nuisance, I didn't think things would get to this point!
"What other job do you have other than serving your lady? Irene, you are being quite rude and disrespectful right now, if you don't want your job just tell me and I will help you."
"What?! No, m-my lady, we have never had this intention. You may have been misunderstood, but please forgive us!"
'Hmm, forgive them? But it doesn't look like she means it.'
"Of course I forgive you, you are my personal maids after all! It wouldn't be right if I didn't allow my faithful servants to have a little fun with their master, so come here! "
'I don't have time for this now, but I can't let them treat me like this either!'
[What do you intend to do? Remember, you can't use force.]
"I'll just show her place nothing more, also why should I use power on a worthless person."
I never asked them to do anything, so their only job was in the morning when I prepare to go out, or preparing my bath after I finished my training. They've been enjoying themselves, and have the wrong idea about me.
Irene came in front of me as I told her, I could see from her face that she was not pleased that they couldn't leave, the way she was looking at me was annoying, like our roles were swapped. I don't know what she is thinking, but it doesn't matter once I crush her.
I raised my hand and slapped her as hard as I could, the noise echoed throughout the room, but she didn't fall, I didn't want to abuse nor kill her, that will put me in a tough spot with his grace.
She was trembling in shock and frozen in place, covering the part I hit that had now turned completely red.
"That red cheek suits you! I like it, so do you right?"
She didn't say anything while tears were rolling down her cheeks. I didn't see how Piera reacted, she didn't contain any value for me, the important thing was Irene. She is smarter than Piera, and if I bring her down, she will eventually follow her.