While smiling Yoon bin saw Tae hee from behind the window in the classroom, he seemed to signal Tae Hee to smile. Meanwhile, Tae Hee just kept staring at Yoon Bin in silence. "I don't think Yoon bin did it," Tae Hee muttered to herself. Finally, he put the letter he found into his bag. At a glance, Tae Hee smiled faintly, which was Tae Hee's first smile today. Tae Hee doesn't know how Yoon Bin is, he knows Yoon Bin is the one who saved him when he tried to end his life. Yoon bin is different from Jae Seok who looks more like a school delinquent, Yoon bin is more often seen spending time practicing athletics and painting. He is not seen walking with certain groups like Jae Seok at school, he is more often seen walking with one of his friends or alone.
Maybe it will feel very different when Min Ah and Hyo Rin are together with him in the same school scope, it must look very fun to be able to walk to the school roof through the classroom corridors together, laugh together, and run out of school together. It hurts when the fact is that it's only Tae Hee's wish, Min Ah, who has been sleeping peacefully, must have walked every step of Tae Hee's steps to protect her from the pain she shouldn't have received, while Hyo Rin couldn't blend in with the new atmosphere and environment.
It's 3 pm, Tae Hee and Jae Seok immediately pick up Seung Ki at school. As Tae Hee said this morning before going home, he will meet his psychiatrist. They arrived at a large clinic which is a pretty good psychiatrist in the city of Ansan. Seung ki looks very unfamiliar with the atmosphere of the lobby room which looks quite busy with people who will do consultations and traps. He also looked at Tae Hee who was looking at the screen of his cellphone. "Tae hee Nuna, are you sick?" Seung ki asked. Tae Hee also turned to Seung Kid and smiled a little while stroking Seung Ki's hair. Tae Hee didn't answer Seung Ki's question at all, he even laughed out loud when he got out of the elevator and walked ahead of Seung Ki and Jae Seok. He also opened the door of a room where he would have been greeted by a middle-aged woman who was Tae Hee's doctor. On the table was written Kim Hae Shin's name written on a nameplate made of glass.
"You must not take your medicine again," said the doctor. Hearing this, Tae Hee laughed with her eyes looking up at the ceiling. She slowly took a breath and looked at Doctor Kim, "You know what? I almost lost my life because I took too much medicine. But I didn't feel anything. myself, I only feel calm for a very short time. I often have bad dreams lately, sometimes I feel that I am imagining and can meet myself in the past. That night I went home to my house, and there it was there was a dinner with all my family members, at first when I didn't get to my house, I thought everything would go well. I could feel how warm the family was, but it turns out that everything hasn't changed since the first. I feel hurt I grew bigger when I saw the people who had hurt me in my childhood, what I felt at that time was loneliness and fear… I was very tired, and I want to close my eyes with a free heart, no matter if it's only once in my life. I always ask, can everyone see my heart? Why do I look so damn annoying? Tae Hee said who started the story with Doctor Kim. Slowly Tae Hee was silent for a while and lowered her head while playing with her hands.
He quickly lifted his face and showed how his face was already wet with tears, his nose even looked red from holding back the emotions that were inside him. "Come out, say what's in your heart without having to hide it alone. If you're tired, you should rest, if you want to cry, cry until the tears in your eyes dry up. Not everyone in this world can hold it all at the same time. like you, so cry" said doctor Kim. Tae hee covered his face with both hands, rubbed his face roughly, and shouted, venting all his emotions in a cry and trying to bury it all back inside him.
"Everything feels so tight in my chest that I can't breathe, I don't know who I am, even I'm always afraid to fall asleep. I'm afraid if I meet my past self again, what if he asks how I am while I don't have an answer to the question I even miss Min ah so much… every time I imagine Min ah and Hyo rin can always be near me even until we grow old together and laugh together while looking at our children and grandchildren. You know, at this time Hyo rin and I seem far away. And. I feel lost in a place that is not even foreign to me ..." Tae hee said who immediately stopped his words. He was holding his head with eyes that seemed to be trying to force him to stop crying. But his efforts failed, his tears came out when Tae Hee tried to stay strong to hold all the burdens in his heart. Although occasionally Tae Hee shows a smile to Doctor Kim to make it appear that he can be fine.
Meanwhile, Jae-Seok and Seung-ki, who were waiting for Tae-hee outside, could only silently listen to Tae-hee's cries and all the burdens that he had carried alone since childhood. Seung Ki also turned to Jae Seok whose eyes looked red, he stood up from his chair and saw Tae Hee from behind the glass door. "Is Tae Hee Nuna okay?" Seungki asked slowly.
Behind all Tae Hee's silence, he wants to say that he can't lose someone he loves again, maybe if that happens it will be something that can take everything from Tae Hee at one time. Every time he wanted to say what he felt, but everything felt very tight in the chest. It was too painful to recount all the things he had been through over the years.