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Chapter 7 - Internal Strife

Laying in his bed thinking. He couldnt get what he said off his mind.

"Do I really feel that way twords them?"

Mumbling to himself. He just couldnt stop thinking about his sisters friends.

"6 years...."

Muttering again. Thinking about how time sure has passed without him realising it.

Rolling over and useing his phone, he puts on some music that he always listens to when wanting to relax. Albeit slow thanks to the images of Emilia, Brooke, and Trish popping up in his mind, he drifted off to sleep.

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Waking up and looking at his phone Ryan starts to yawn

"Only 2 hours, why do i not feel tired at all though?"

"Also....."

The thoughts of Emilia, Brooke, and Trish still plague his mind.

"Well if i still feel this way tomorrow then I'll just accept it. Although it's not a bad thing, it certainly would mean I need to fully change the way i think of them."

Resolving that moving forward is the best option for him right now. Ryan gets up to head down stairs to grab a bite to eat.

After exiting his Room he walked past both his sisters and mothers bedroom door's and down the stairs. Noticing his bag had been left open, he took a quick look inside. Only seeing his game case still inside, he started looking back up the stairs for a moment in a daze only to shake his head after.

"I'll grab a shower while I'm at it."

Hopeing some warm water could help clear his mind. He walks past the Larg L shaped couch and Dinner table and finaly into the kitchen.

Looking in the fridge he noticed a plate was pre made for him with some leftovers from the breakfast he remembers seeing on the table earlier that morning.

Putting the plate in the microwave he shuts the door and sets it to go for 2 minutes.

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Making sure the plate of food is hot as he pulls it out of the microwave. Ryan Added syrup and grabed a fork before heading to the couch to turn on the tv to watch something while he eats. After sitting down Ryan noticed someone standing on the stairs.

"Hi mom"

Putting down his plate on the coffee table and taking the fork that was between his lips as a way to hold it and a habbit he picked up when he was still 8. He greeted his mom.

"Hi sweety. How are you feeling?"

"I'm feeling okay."

Replying with a smile that would fool most while grabing the tv remote so he could find a show to watch.

Seeing this his mother could only look at him helplessly. She has known him all his life and could read him like a open book easly. She also knew when it was best to leave him be so he could figure things out on his own. However this time she wasnt so sure.

Walking over to sit on the couch, she grabed the remote that he just had set back down and turned it to another chanle that they both would like. It was one of those crime shows that had alot of drama. They both sat there watching the show and he would take bites out of his food periodically.

He didnt finish his meal till a whole episode that was about 45 minutes long not including commercials had ended. About to get up and put his dish in the sink he heard his mom speak to him.

"Sweety, I can take care of your dishes if you want to go wash up."

Looking at her for a moment he decided to take her up on the offer. He also realized that up till this point he was able to get his mind off everything and just relax.

"Thanks mom"

Looking twords the floor as he didnt want to look into her eyes at this moment, afraid that if he did she would somehow know what had come back to plauge his mind.

Smiling at her son who was acting just like a little kid and not the 18 year old he was, made her think he was being cute.

Turning around and heading back towards the kitchen he turned left instead of right and entered the door for the bathroom. He quickly undressed and turned on the water to take a shower.

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Getting out of the shower and drying off Ryan realized he didnt bring any clothes to change into so he just put on the underwear and pants that he had on before and went shirt less till he got back to his room and could change into new clothes entirely.

Exiting the bathroom without brushing his hair he walked towards the stairs to go to his room.

Noticing company in the living room he almost froze on the spot. It was none other than Emilia's mom sitting with his mom not far away. He didnt take that long in the shower for her to of been invited over so why is she here.

Thinking to himself he also noticed that they must of heard the bathroom door opening as they were looking in his direction.

"Hello Ms. Ren. Did you come over to visit my mom?"

She didnt answer immediately so he just stood there waiting.

After a few more seconds she cleared her throat to gather herself a little.

"Actualy I'm here to see you but seeing Jasmine is a bonus."

"Your here to see me? Why?" Ryan asked with raised eyebrows.

"Because of the little stunt you pulled today."

She seemed amused thinking about what he did as she smiled and narrowed her eyes a little while looking at him.

"Stunt? Sorry but I'm not sure what you mean."

Not sure what she meant as he doesn't remember doing anything that would make her want to come and meet him. Their was a puzled look of his face.

"The box you gave my daughter." She said trying to jog his memory.

Its not that he forgot about it but why did she think it was a stunt?

"Why do you think that was a stunt?"

"Well what elts could it of been? People don't just give away things that are worth a lot of money."

"But... I did."

"And thats why I say it was a stunt."

"But it wasn't."

"Then why did you do it?"

No longer looking at him with a smug grin and narrowed eyes but clear curiosity. She awaited his reply.

"Because...."

'I felt like it.' He wanted to say this but doubted she would accept a answer like that.

'Was there another reason I did it?' Ryan questioned in his mind.

Waiting for a answer Ms. Ren just silently looked at him.

Thinking but not being able to think of anything he realized. No, that's exactly why he did it. Resolving himself of his answer he looked directly into Ms. Ren's eyes.

"Because I felt like it! Because when I think of Emilia or the others I just want to do things to make them feel happy! That's... why I did it."

Starting strong he couldn't help but let his voice go lower twords the end.

Surprised by his answer both Ms Ren and his mom had wide eye's. They were both wondering the same thing. 'Did he just confess to haveing feelings for Emilia, Brooke, and Trish'.

"So you feel that way towards my daughter?"

"I... I don't know. Ever since this morning my mind has been a mess."

Not even knowing if he could take another question about this matter right now, Ryan started towards the stairs.

"I'm going to go up to my room. Sorry Ms. Ren but Im feeling rather tired today."

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Watching her son going up the stairs she wasn't sure if having Denise Ren come over was a good idea or not.

Seeing Jasmine watching her son going up the stairs, Denise put her hand on Jasmins leg.

"He will be ok. He just needs time to think."

Jasmin looked at her Best Friend.

"I know, I Just hope I didnt make things worse."

"You did what you thought was best."

Just sitting there they both didnt speak till Jasmine was ready.

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