My grimoire had no helpful information about the spell used to create the variant, and focusing on politics drove me away from that.
"Hey, are you okay?" Fenris asked, cupping my cheeks as I shook my head.
"No..." I mumbled.
The tone in my voice triggered his eyes to open wide as he assessed everything about me. Any little thing off with me would send him into a mini panic attack, but before he could stand up to rush me to Amara, I grabbed him by his shirt, stopping him in his tracks.
"You'll never leave me, right?" I questioned, feeling my voice break.
In an instant, he went limp, allowing Shade to sit next to us, grumbling at her defeat.
"Of course not. Why would you think that?" My wolf answered, trailing his fingers down my cheeks.
Is that something you can promise? No… It isn't.
The arena's floor was made of sand or something similar. It didn't stick to the skin, though it moved like it. It was probably made to mimic hard, harsher terrains than the usual concrete floor.
"Then... never leave without me anywhere. If you perish... I want to die with you." I declared, leaning into his hand.
His expression changed, wincing as his eyes got teary.
"You can't say that, love. The last thing I want is for you to die with me. Now more than ever." He started, placing his hand over my abdomen, leaving me to bite my lip.
"But…" I mumbled, shaking my head.
"No, love, you have something precious in here. You can't follow me to death if I were to go. For them and yourself, you have to live for you, not for me." He whispered, breaking me.
Tears rolled off my cheeks, sobbing because of his words.
A life without you. There's no meaning in that!
"No... No! I can't!" I cried.
A soft sigh left him, tugging my chin to meet with a sweet kiss. My unwillingness to hear those words didn't change that he was right. This had turned into more than my life and his. Even so, the thought of losing him killed me inside.
It wouldn't be the same without him there.
Losing you isn't an option for me.
Tugging away from me slightly, he pressed his forehead against mine.
"Lily, I'm not going anywhere. I won't let you go through this alone. No matter what, I'll find my way back to you." Fenris promised, triggering me to hug him tightly.
Tears still rolled off my eyes while my body trembled in his arms. Trying to feel him more, I kissed him, only to be responded to in kind. Ever since he found out I was pregnant, he had been treating me gently.
It sometimes screamed how much he loved me, but it also drove me crazy. There wasn't a moment when our affection was missing, yet something was absent while we did it. Putting my full weight on him, I caused him to fall to the ground.
There, I saddled him.
"Lily?" Fenris breathed, cheeks rosy while under me.
Shade turned into a ball next to us, knowing what I desired to do to our wolf. I wanted to be reminded that he was there with me in every way.
I need to know that you won't suddenly vanish.
It didn't matter that he was a sweaty mess because of the spar.
"I want you." I declared, wishing nothing more than to make him mine.
His cheeks turned redder as his crimson eyes opened wide. Swiftly, he averted his glance from me and towards our surroundings. There was no one around. Amelia was inside with the maids, and Ben had left to spend the last few hours with Tania.
Melody and Liam were doing errands for the Lycans, and Amara had gone to Cerberus for the day.
"Here?" Fenris's voice squeaked a bit.
"Yes, here and now." I voiced, reaching down to his pants and stroking his member through it to harden him.
Thanks to the previous kiss, it already had some form.
"Ah, Lily," He breathed, sitting up slightly before tugging me into a kiss.
His tongue tangoed with mine while I struggled to lower his sweatpants enough to free his semi-hardened member. A soft hum left him when I gripped his heat before stroking it. Pulling me onto him, he pressed his back against the floor.
Slowly, he traced his hands down my back until reaching under my dress and into my underwear. Drawing away from our kiss, he leaned into my ear.
"Are you sure?" Fenris purred, nibbling on it soon after.
His fingers traced my most sensitive area, leaving me shivering on him. It wasn't long until one of his fingers slipped into me, leaving me swaying my hips into him. A soft mewl left me before I clashed my lips with his again.
Enough gentleness! I know I've been sleeping more than usual and leaving you by yourself when I do, but I still can be just as wild as before!
Unlike his new baseline, I wasn't willing to wait for his usual plays. No, I was more than ready to begin this ride. With no hesitation, I snatched his rock-hard member before plunging it into my depths.
A sharp whine left me as I hadn't realized how desperate I was for this wolf until I felt him fill me. It almost felt like I could see the celestial stars as my vision blurred momentarily while a groan escaped him, feeling the brunt of the unexpected action.
"Fuck, Lily, I think I might finish before you do." He breathed, gripping my hips. "It's like you're strangling me in there."
Fenris's words made me jittery as I slowly ground myself on him. The feeling that followed was ecstasy-inducing, so much so that I couldn't stop my hips from swaying.
"I love you, Lily." He licked his thumb before rubbing it against my bell.
Unlike all the energy I had before getting pregnant, it quickly waned even though I wanted to make love to him, ensuring sure he was there with me. The last time I tried to ride him like this, he pounced on me, yet this time, he let me do what I wanted while focusing on my sweetest spots with his thumb.
Instead of taking control, he ensured I knew what he felt. His expression—his everything—encouraged me to do more.
Not too long ago, you told me I wouldn't tame you that easy, but all it took was for your pups to be in my womb to conquer you.
The warmth that soon filled me was genuine enough for me to calm down finally. Holding onto my hips, he watched me bucking my hips in search of my release. Wishing to feel more of him, I dug my hands under his shirt before clasping onto his pecs, triggering his eyes to shimmer brightly.
"Ah, Fuck, you're giving me such a loving." He breathed, unable to help but trust his hips into me.
A sharp mewl left me, triggering him to clasp onto the back of my head before dragging me down into a feverous kiss. I knew my movements were nothing like the ones he needed to be pleased with, but my stamina wasn't the same.
Saliva dripped down his chin as our kiss became more heated and my movements became less prominent.
Tugging away from my lips, he moaned, "Ah, more, give me more. I love you so much, Lily."
The moment those words left him, my heart began its own race. "Knot me!"
"You've really gotten to liking that, haven't you?" He teased, gripping onto my hips.
A soft growl left me as I pouted, "Just help me, make you knot me!"
"Lay on me." He breathed, leaning back onto the floor, cheeks rosy.
Instinctively, I did as he asked, resting my chest against his. His eyes swiftly traveled to the door before focusing back on me. A second later, he plunged into my core at a steady rhythm, making my voice erratic.
Unlike him, I was close to my peak, which I quickly reached, triggering me to convulse on him. However, unlike the other times he let me finish my high, this time he kept his steady pace while I twitched on him, triggering him to whine because of it.
"Lily, I'm going to—" Fenris tried to warn but couldn't when his heat began to expand within me, successfully knotting me.
Even though my high had just died down, in that instant, it was like another snap, washing away my world for a slight moment while he held me close to him. When I came too, it felt wetter than usual down there, triggering me to rise instantly.
"Oh… Did you squirt on me?" Fenris cocked his head, noticing his sweatpants were damp.
"I… I…" I mumbled, feeling my eyes sting.
Everything had happened so fast that I hadn't noticed what was happening until it did.
"Aw, adorable, don't cry. It's probably because your womb is swelling and pushing on your bladder a bit. My swollen knot probably didn't help either." He assured me, trailing a kiss down my cheek and neck while wrapping his hands around my waist to prevent me from running away.
His heat was still swollen within me.
"Still!" I mumbled, shivering from his pulsating member within me.
"It's okay, I like it. We'll shower after I calm down." He simpered, nuzzling his nose against me. "What's more important is if you feel better?"
Even though my wolf appeared cool-headed, he was also short of breath. I slowly nodded, only to be met with his blissful kiss. It didn't take long for his knot to calm down enough to allow us to separate.
After a quick shower, he carried me to the room, where we made love until morning. Upon his request, we only took breaks for the meals that arrived in our room. When it came time to get up the next day, my previous thoughts still haunted me.
Even though Fenris took the day off to be with me, all I thought about was combating the only thing that could quickly kill him—another week passed in the blink of an eye while I tried to research more about it in my free time.
However, juggling my extra responsibilities and the side effects of my pregnancy wasn't easy.
Yet I won't give up. Not when this new dream-like life was on the line. I'll do everything to protect it!