(POV-Rafael)
I sighed in relief. Lord Takeru brought me to every corner of the universe and even visit places in Divine Plane that even I doesn't know existed until now.
"It is christmas today. Have a holiday."
He said that to me after we return to the mansion. Even milady said the same thing. I was at lost that I don't know what to do so I stroll around the city to figure out how mortals spend their christmas.
"Papa!! Mama!! Let's go there!!"
"You can't you are still small."
I noticed the family happily spending their time together as a family.
"I see..."(Rafael)
Family huh? Though all of us in heaven are brothers and sisters, we never spent our time together as family. Not even once. I am close to Jibril but... she closer to a friend for me.
"How envio-!!"(Rafael)
Me? Envy? An angel of virtue is feeling envy? I was dumbfounded to realization I have just now.
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"Oh, that is just normal Lord Rafael."(Claire)
She said to me while she is eating a deliciously the cake she have on her plate.
"I also envied my sister colleagues when they have excursion from country to country as catechist to spread the words of our Lord and aid those in need."(Claire)
She nodded in comprehension. Lord Pope is smiling wryly besides her.
"I apologize on her behavior. She is weak to delicious food."(Stephen)
"I don't mind."(Rafael)
"Lord Rafael, the feeling of envy is normal to mortals. If you are feeling the same,-"(Stephen)
I am becoming one?
"Yes. Or more accurately, the emotions that was sealed when you are an archangel must have been slowly being unlocked. Being a divine means losing humanity. That includes losing the emotions. Since they themselves think it is unnecessary, they are sealing it. Consciously or unconsciously."(Stephen)
Huh?
"I am devolving?"(Rafael)
"No. You are rather evolving beyond what your race should be."(Stephen)
"!!!"(Rafael)
I'm surpassing the limits of my race?
"Lady Yuika said that the growth of the divines are strongly sealed, but not gone entirely. She hypothesized that the divines growth will be released if they gain what they have lost. She doesn't specified it but my conclusions seems correct after seeing you."(Stephen)
"Now you mentioned it, Lady Amaterasu and Lord Zeus' power surpasses me in my complete form. They also have something overwhelming... A dignity of a ruler, might be?"(Rafael)
"Your words are correct. If it is the former you, can you analyze them as such?"(Stephen)
No. I will even get furious for being insolent...
"I see... I am not angel that is just filled with stored knowledge. I become capable of comprehending and analyzing it to obtain further wisdom... The emotions I obtained make that possible... Impossible..."(Rafael)
If I heard this before I served milady, I would laughed out loud thinking it is ridiculous.
"Remember, angel of the east. The one wiser than you who defeated you is not discarding her emotions. For those who-"(Claire)
"Desire to obtain true strength must not deny everything but accept it all."(Rafael)
"The weight you carry will train you to reach further beyond what your capabilities should have limits you."(Claire)
She gasped and breathes hard.
"Activating my powers as a miko forcibly is exhausting. i must trained more huh. Did you have your answer?"(Claire)
I nodded and thanked them.
"Lord Rafael, how about you spend your christmas with us?!"(Claire)
"That is a good idea."(Stephen)
Uhhh... Milady will get angry...
(It is fine. Or rather, we are busy here preparing for the christmas. If you don't wish to become a workhorse, don't return home.)(Shira)
She cut off the telepathy. Home... I see... I have a new home...
"Lady Shira said I can stay."(Rafael)
I accepted their generosity towards me.