Quick reminder:
Fujisaki Shin → Alexis Alphenhide
Miyamoto Haru → Darcel Leroux
Aikawa Ren → Lucius Angetré
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Darcel left the room in a hurry, "Darcel! You can't slam the door and drag me out of there, that was very rude to His Grace." Lucius was berating him even though he was letting Darcel drag him along. "There was no reason for you to storm out like that."
For some reason, Darcel was trying to suppress a smile that was threatening to break out, the corners of his mouth were beginning to curl upwards. Struggling to bring out the anger he was supposed to feel, his voice wavered as he spoke, "What? You want to hear him talk about that person? Don't tell me you've gone soft Lucius." The sneer in his voice sounded strange but in a moment like this, Lucius didn't question it, "Didn't we come here for a second chance so why should we be reminded of the past?"
"The past can't be forgotten that easily and considering how… how much of an impact he had on Alexis, even if a decade has passed, do you really think he would be able to forget about him so quickly?" Darcel felt frustrated but for the wrong reasons, it wasn't that he was angry with the fact that Shin-kun couldn't forget about him, it was something else. "I understand why you're upset but like you said, we're here in this world, we have never left his side. Even if we eventually have to bring him home, there's still time here, in this world too."
Darcel bit back his words, his lips were becoming blood red from how much he was chewing on them, 'Stop. Stop it here while you can. Don't think about undoing everything you've done up until now. Stop focusing on everything that he does, everything that he says, he's not going to look at you.'
He continued to mask his true feelings, "You want me to believe in something that even you can't guarantee? Were you not there when that all happened? Did you not see Alexis?" Darcel knew he was misplaying his anger but he could tell that he was losing control over his emotions. "Do you not feel jealous over the fact Alexis has someone else in his heart? It's more than just a simple white moonlight."
"Lucius, I thought you knew…"
'You feel jealous about him loving someone else… then what about me, the one you never looked at?'
Lucius's eyes softened, pain was slowly seeping into his voice, "Of course I know. I was there too…" His retreating voice snapped Darcel out of his anger, finally realising how hurtful his words were.
"Lu… I didn't mean to take it out on you…"
'I… I know how much you love him…'
"It's okay Darc, I know." He reached over to pat his head, expecting Darcel to slap his hand away. But he became docile, letting Lucius gently comfort him.
'Why?… Why are you always doing things that make me misunderstand? Why are you making me love you more? I don't want you to find out about these feelings. Especially for you, who only loves Fujisaki-san.'
From an outsider's perspective, it wouldn't make sense for the two of them, who were 'rivals in love' to get along so well even if they were friends. Typically, jealousy and resentment would develop between all three of them but for some reason, none of this has occurred.
But there was also something underlying beneath it all, something Darcel… no. Something Haru has continued to hide even till now, in their second world together.
'I wish my heart would stop beating so much over such a little thing. I wish I didn't see him this way, I wish that I wouldn't have to pretend to be okay with everything, watching everything with a smile on my face.'
"Lucius… do you think you'll ever have the chance to enter his heart?" Darcel decided to break the silence, mostly to distract himself from thinking any further with those thoughts. His voice broke off more than he thought, as if he was disturbed by it. Lucius noticed the slight change in Darcel, wanting to point it out but he continued on, "He's too much of a presence in Shin-kun's heart…"
'I wished you weren't important in my heart, I wished I stopped caring about your happiness, to the point I would stop faking my feelings just to make you smile.'
"Don't overthink it." He quickly interjected, "We might not be the person he wants to meet again but it shouldn't matter. He still cares about us all the same. Our appearances may have changed but we are still the same, our soul is." Lucius tried to pacify Darcel, who seemed lost at their current situation but deep down, this wasn't what he was concerned about. At least, Shin wasn't the person he had in mind.
"Miyamoto, we have a lot of time to change his perception of us and even if we can't, I'm sure that you wouldn't want to ruin his happiness just for our selfish desires." He reached over once more, just stopping short of Darcel's head when he saw him tense up.
Sensing the lack of movement, Darcel lifted his head, peering at Lucius who was in an awkward position, "Why are you…"
'Stopping?' Darcel dismissed it in his mind, 'It's better he didn't try, I wouldn't have to keep hiding every time.'
Lucius was about to withdraw his hand when he noticed how Darcel's eyes were beginning to dim, as if he was looking disappointed while trying to dismiss something. "Miyamoto, is there something wrong? Why are you looking away, so disappointed?" He hesitantly cupped both of his cheeks, directing Darcel, so he would look him in the eye, "Is there something wrong? Can I help you with it?"
Darcel gritted his teeth, his jaw muscles were tightening, 'I know you mean well but I don't want anything more than just a friend's concern… Please stop making me misunderstand, I only keep getting disappointed every time.'
"..."
"Forget it, I'm fine." Darcel started to walk off, 'What was I expecting… No, expecting something was my fault.' Darcel quickened his steps as a reflection of his pacing thoughts, almost leaving Lucius behind to watch his back.
"Wait, don't leave. There's something wrong so let's talk about it, Miyamoto."
Lucius tugged on his wrist, pulling him back and almost hugging him in his arms, "I might not be able to help you solve it but I can be here for you so don't run away from me… please." His voice was laced with a pleading tone, "I know you feel upset about Shin-kun but… I get this sense that you're thinking about something else. Let me help you, Miyamoto. I can tell when there's something wrong. I haven't been your friend for two lifetimes for nothing." Lucius gripped his wrist tighter. "So don't try to hide it from me."
Darcel could feel the heat from his wrist, slowly travelling up his arm, moving to his shoulder before spreading out into his body. 'What else am I supposed to do if I didn't try to hide it? Am I supposed to just tell you, out loud and confidently and expect to not get hurt in return?' He stared at his hand, contemplating it. 'If I say it now, would anything change… or would it change everything… I'd rather everything just stay the same, that way I don't hurt anymore than I already do.'
"Aikawa… I…" The words were right there, bubbling in his throat. Should he say it? Or should he swallow them back once more?
'But can I really be happy for them if I never told him anything, even till the very end?'
Lucius smiled, seeing him trying to be honest, "Take your time, okay?" He resisted the urge to rub his head, shifting his hand down, away from Darcel's wrist, opting to hold his hand instead. This was enough for Darcel to snap his head towards him, lightly trying to shake him off. "Just let me have this, okay? I won't do anything."
Darcel knew he should avoid any unnecessary contact with Lucius but in a moment like that, maybe all he needed was a small gesture like this. But he felt like crying, not because he was so happy from Lucius's kind words, but because he knew that his next actions would change everything.
He kept choking and swallowing back his words, pacing back and forth, unable to decide. 'Everything I've built up and hid for so many years will just crumble if I ever just said it. Why?... I want to cry so much because I know that there's no hope for me so why?... Why do I still want to tell him?'
Lucius noticed his nervousness, smiling to himself, squeezing his hand as reassurance, "I'm not going anywhere."
'That's a lie. You will go everywhere he goes.'
Taking a deep breath in, Darcel tried to relax his body in preparation. "I'm not saying this because I want something out of you, I'm not saying this because I want things to change, I'm only saying this because I don't want to regret the possibility of never being able to say it."
Releasing the breath that he was holding, he said, in a steady voice, "I like you, Aikawa."
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IMPORTANT NOTE!!!
When Haru says 'I like you, Aikawa', he is specifically saying 'Kimi no koto ga suki'. For those wondering, why can't he just say 'kimi ga suki'? While yes, both translate to "I like you", the addition of 'no koto' makes it more 'definitive'.
'Suki' means like and depending on context, the word itself is ambiguous. 'Suki' can be said to a friend as well, but with the addition of 'no koto', it's more associated with romantic love rather than platonic love (which is ironic because the story's called 'Loving You as a Friend' XD).
I guess this is how I would translate these two phrases:
Kimi no koto ga suki > I love (everything/the thing that is) you
Kimi ga suki > I like you (ambiguous)
It's a little confusing to explain (I'm not a native speaker but I do know a little bit of Japanese) but basically, Haru is serious about his feelings towards Ren.