I know how I felt today and I knew I had been unfaithful. I didn’t sleep with Shane but I had been unfaithful with my body and my heart. Even so, I still chose Ethan. I don’t know if he would still choose me but I would continue to choose him.
I still loved Ethan but I would not let Shane see this, I couldn’t. I wouldn’t give him a reason to be suspicious of me. Ethan was broken physically and I don’t know where he was mentally but tonight, I’d have to break his heart.
I was playing an angle, playing a role, playing Shane and I was too deep, too involved to turn back now. I had hoped to keep my mate out of this, away from here but that wasn’t going to happen and I needed to accept that. I couldn’t let myself be swayed by Ethan’s presence.
