I found myself floating in an all too familiar pitch black room. I didn't have the belief that I was asleep, but I didn't feel like I was awake either.
Did I die again?
A small chuckle escaped from my mouth after the realization of how pathetic I am..
I got a second chance and fucked it all up…
While I was lamenting my situation, the same bright light from when I first died clouded my vision once again. Except this time I wasn't bothered by it. I went through the motions and waited for a certain someone.
"Mortal!!" The same pink haired, rainbow colored eyed beauty appeared above me. Lilia
"It's good to see you too bitch." My blood boiled and I couldn't hold back what I thought as soon as I saw her.
Lilia's eyes widened, and a scowl marred her beautiful face. "How dare you?!"
"Fuck you!" I shouted with a second thought. "Fuck you and the stupid gods you work for! This is all your fault!"
"Our fault?! You wished for this! And now that you have it you're upset?! This is why I hate you mortals! Ungrateful insects!" Lilia words reverberated through my head, causing a massive headache.
"How the fuck am I ungrateful?! This isn't what the fuck I wished for! You stupid bitch!" I fought through the pain, my anger pushing me toward. "Because of this stupid wish, everyone's suffering! Just look at what you all did to Saya! To Jason! To Riri! To Kenzie! Fuck you!"
Lilia inhaled a deep breath before her voice got even louder. "You didn't specify how you wanted your wish! You asked to live inside of your favorite degenerate game! And the Gods were generous to grant you that wish!"
"I-"
"Shut up!" Lilia's voice cut me off, the pain from her voice overpowering my rage. "I've seen mortals have to conquer worlds for their wish! Yet, all you have to do is make women fall in love with you! And you can't even do that! You're pathetic! You are a subpar! I haven't the faintest idea why you were granted a wish! Anyone else would have been more deserving!
"You're right!" I screamed, my head splitting apart. "I shouldn't have been granted a wish! You should have chosen someone…better…"
A wave of guilt hit me like a truck. I suddenly felt my rage subside and I lost all of my power. "Being here means that I failed. And everyone died, right?"
Lilia sighed loudly, her voice no longer inflicting pain on me. "No."
It took a moment for me to process what Lilia said. "So… why am I here?"
"You're on the verge of death. You broke one of the few restrictions of the world, and it lashed out at you." Lilia explained as she fiddled with one of the stars floating around her.
"So why am I alive?" I weakly asked, all of the energy leaving my body.
"Because the gods aren't done with you.. Though.." Lilia paused what she was doing, her facial expression complicated. "Maybe you'll wish that they were."
A foreboding feeling overtook me, like a weight resting on my soul. "What does that mean?!"
"I have to make a few more adjustments to your soul, then I'll place you back into that world." Lilia continued working, her expression tightening.
"Is there anything you can do to help me?!" It felt like I couldn't breathe.
Lilia softly shook her head. "Goodluck." Although reassuring, the tone of Lilia's voice told me otherwise, not to mention the weak smile she gave in response.
A bright light clouded my vision once again, and I felt like I had been thrown with extreme force, traveling at an incomprehensible speed.
My eyelids trembled before the all too familiar white ceiling was far above me. "I'm alive.."
I felt disoriented, and my head was reeling. My throat hurt, and my mouth felt dry. I struggled to even sit up from how much pain assaulted me.
I looked around the room to see a TV playing some random news segment. A tray attached to my bed, a trash can, and..
Saya was sitting in a chair next to my bed, wrapped in a blanket. She was asleep and slovenly drooling out the side of her mouth.
The pain subsided for a moment as a small smile came to my face. I blinked away the tears forming in my eyes as I watched her in silence.
"Thank you." I softly whispered those words as I looked out of the window behind her.
It's already nighttime, huh? How long was I out?
Saya's eyes suddenly fluttered and she slowly stirred in her blanket. Her eyes opened and scanned the room before her eyes locked onto me. She gasped and her eyes widened dramatically. A smile blossomed on her face and she threw the blanket off of herself.
The blanket hit me in the face and a bad feeling sprouted inside of my head.
The bad premonition that I made turned out to be true once Saya jumped on top of me. My scream of pure agony was muffled when Saya sealed my lips. Her tongue quickly invaded my mouth and dominated my own. The taste of cigarettes soaked my tastebuds, and I felt sick to my stomach.
I tried to push Saya off of me, but my strength is almost gone. I gave up and let Saya have her way.
After what seemed like an eternity of heavy breathing, touching, fondling, and tongue wrestling. Saya unlocked her lips from mine. She exhaled joyfully and a broad smile painted her face. "I've been waiting forever!"
Despite how beautiful Saya's smile is, despite how happy she is, something about the way she smiles, her energy, and the look in her eyes..
"…it's good to see you…" My voice trailed off as goosebumps popped up all over my arms. An overbearing feeling of discomfort forming inside of my chest. "Where is-"
"Oh!" Saya cut me off when she reached into her back pocket and pulled out a card and handed it to me. "Here!"
I looked between Saya and the card multiple times, but Saya still looked happy as ever. Actually.. She looked even happier.
I slowly opened the card and began to read its contents.
Hello.
I wanted to start this letter off by saying…
That you're a piece of shit!
A manipulative perverted asshole!
You're selfish! Weird! And dusty AF!
You deserve everything that you're getting and more!
But…
I can't believe it…
I still care about you…
I don't hate you..
I want to..
I really do..
But, I can't..
No matter how hard I try…
Stupid!
I still have these lingering thoughts…
Feelings..
Maybe you're not evil...
But..
You're not a good person either...
I don't know who you are..
And I won't ever find out..
I can't trust you..
I can't be with you.
I can't be near you.
I am my own person.
I make my own decisions.
Not a stupid game.
Nor you.
Thank you for finally telling me the truth.
Goodbye.
-Riri.
Tears spilled from my eyes one after the other, my chest crying in agony.
"Don't worry, you still have me." Saya's voice tore me away from my thoughts.
I looked up to see Saya undressed on top of me. Her chest was fully exposed, and I noticed something that shook me to my core.
"…Is…that-"
"Your name!" Saya excitedly interjected. Her face lighting up with pride.
Saya pointed to my freshly carved name right underneath her left breast. "You like it?!" Saya's eyes flashed excitedly, a sinister gleam coursing through them. "I did one on my leg too. I want to do more. Or should I just wait to get a tattoo?"
My mouth flapped open like a fish out of water. My brain couldn't fully process what was happening in front of me. "…Why?"
"Because I'm yours." Saya replied as if it was an obvious thing. Her eyes suddenly widened and she giggled softly. "I'm sorry. I got a little too excited. I still want you to mark me."
Saya softly caressed my neck and laid on top of me, bringing her head right next to mine. She almost purred as she took deep content breaths. She was warm and I could feel her heart beating erratically through her chest.
Sweat began to form on my head, and my heart started pounding. I wanted to put as much distance between Saya and I as possible, but I couldn't get my body to budge an inch.
"You know what's funny?" Saya whispered into my ears, sending a chill down my spine. "My life is fucked up, so why wouldn't my love story be?"
When I looked into Saya's eyes, I felt like prey gazing into the eyes of its predator. The floating hearts in her eyes were no longer cute, they were dark and cold. "It's almost like fate. Like you had to be with me. I wonder if that could be considered love?"
My stomach churned and my chest tightened. "Sa-"
Saya placed a finger over my mouth, shushing me with a finger in front of her mouth. Her eyes seemed to grow darker along with her twisted smile. "Shouldn't you be grateful? Why would you ever want to leave her? She's taking care of you in such a vulnerable state. She cherishes you like air."
Saya wrapped her hands around my neck. "Imagine what it feels like to not be able to breathe?"
I grabbed Saya's wrist, but I didn't have enough strength to rip them from my neck. "Sto-"
Saya suddenly tightened her grip around my neck, making it difficult for me to breathe. "This is what it feels like. Like nothing else matters. Like you'll die if you don't have it."
I couldn't scream, and I couldn't push Saya off of me. Tears welled up in my airs, and I was growing more desperate by the second.
I dug my nails into Saya's arms until blood flowed and stained my gown and sheets. I thought this would get Saya to stop, but it had the exact opposite effect. Instead, Saya's smile deepened and her breathing grew heavier to the point of painting.
"You need me, right? Just like air?" Saya's face was melting and she was slowly grinding into my nether region. "Say it."
Saya's grip loosened on my neck and I began coughing profusely. Cherishing every breath like it was my last.
Before I could truly savor my new found freedom, Saya's hands tightened again.
I stared into Saya's eyes, the girl I killed zombies with was no longer there, the girl who I ate ice cream with was gone, the girl I danced silly with disappeared. They were all replaced by an extremely broken version of someone named Saya. Broken..by me. Or.. maybe she was already broken, and I just broke her even more. By selfishly forcing my own desires onto her… This is my fault..
I closed my eyes as tears ran down my face. "…I need you..."
"~Crybaby~" Saya whispered into my ear as she licked my tears slowly and carefully.
Saya softly laughed, as her hands traveled down to my crotch.
"What are you-"
"I accept you. Despite everything that you've done. I still want you." Saya's hand softly caressed my manhood, freeing it from my robe almost immediately. "Isn't that amazing? Don't you love me?"
Saya pressed my erection against her moist slit, soaking my private area with love nectar. She lightly brushed my member back and forth against her slit. Making sloppy sounds and moaning laschivoulsy.
I tried to force my rapidly growing erection back down, but I quickly gave up.
This is my own fault. If this is all that she wants from me..then… "I love you."
A jolt suddenly traveled up my spine. My back bent slightly as my member made contact with the fleshy walls of Saya's womanhood.
"~Nnnn~" Saya released an almost purr-like moan as her body bent seductively. Her cheeks flushed red, and her eyes were moist and unfocused. An extremely erotic smile blossomed almost immediately as her body laschivously wriggled. "I love you more."