Setter battle

I'am Ojino kato, a setter player on volleyball team of Jariyo school, the worst team on all the prefecture. I'am fifteen year old and i like playing volley so much, it's my own passion that I'am ready to put all what I have on the line for it, and it's exactly what I will do very soon. After a whole week of waiting, we are finally allowed to choose our school club, i choose of course the volleyball club and I will officially join the worst team of all the prefecture, with the biggest dream i ever had, or maybe the biggest goal, going to the nationals, but through a very weak team this time. It's 17:00 oclock , the time where our club activities will beggin, we start with presentation , and when it comes my turn to introduce myself, i felt like, how can i say it, like if i am nervous and tense .I didn't know if i'am supposed to introducing myself classically, like a robot, say my full name,my hobbies, my objectives and ambitious or shoud i make the bad guy , saying badass and deep things about me or no matter what, i didn't know what i must say, because after all, i am the setter of this team, then i must give a good first impressions to my teammates, I was really confused and i didn't know what i have to do, I therefore had no choice but to give the floor to the ball ,I don't know if i do it consciously or unconsciously, all what i know is that i did it, i jump and throw the ball saying that i'am Ojino Kato, the setter who will guide this team to the nationals.The ball flew under the court, she went beautifully through the net and fall gently near the white line, and at the very last seconds before she touch the pitch, the ball magically changed direction and fell heavily in front of the white or rather red line ,like a small bird who return to his nest after a long day of hardwork.And after a very little moment, our ears suddenly heard this fragile sound, this last fragment of a moving melody, the sound of the ball hitting the ground It was a good float jump serve, a marvellous serve that make us feel not only the audacity, the courage and the determination of his server but also feel the risk he took to do his serve.After the end of players presentation, our coach ordr us to show our volley skills, and, how can i describe the show to you, it's just horrible, truly catastrophic, i don't even have the word to describe what my eyes have seen much it was disastrous, i don't know even where i'am supposed to begging. The receives and blocks both are bad and they haven't any connection between them, the spikes are ridiculous and doesn't have a accurate goal, and finally, the worst, their serves are litteraly the worst, they just throw the ball without any accurate place in their mind. I discover one thing, this team is really a trash. How can i win just one math with this team, i haven't any single light of hope, but, this is what I wanted to do, Isn't that my goal from the first moment I came to this miserable school?So why, why am so terrifing by this fact, i am the setter, i'am the person who will go to the nationals with the worst team of all the prefecture, then why i am so intimidate. It's in this exact moment that i take concious of my dullness, or the size of my goal, or maybe my dream, this stuff goes way beyond my limits, trying to make this team stronger will be just a waste of time, perhaps i shoud give up this ridicoulous things and go to another school, But it's something inside me, some feelings that told me I won't give up so easily because I can't, I can't give up all my goals, Not this time, I have to achieve them now or never, I have no other choice, that's what my pride dictates, and I'm not allowed to desobey my pride, all but my pride, I will do it at all costs, because I am the setter, and that is my decision, not for him, but for me this time, only for me and no one else.