Nao POV
Since Loki had a lover. I am more listless going to our classes and never sleep several hours in a months. Keep thinking and looking her how happy when she had relationship with her lover. Her boyfriend looks like a senior college student at our University.
I breathe heavily and start searching for my casual clothes. But then a picture of mine with her appeared suddenly. Loki had a calm expression and smiled lively when she was happy. Our picture shows her smile broadened and eyes closed, which can be seen her long eye lashes and posing a peace sign . While I only smiled a little and showed a poker face. expression.
At this moment, I closed the closet and looking myself at the mirror then starts to grinned my teeth and laugh.
"Nao, why are you laughing there? mom asked.
" Nothing, mom. I was watching comedy show and cannot helped laughing "
I looked myself again at the mirror.
I guess, she can't looked at me the same as her lover because of my poker face and not masculine.
I set aside our picture in my closet and started to take a bath for a while. It's been years since we didn't talk again. Almost 5 months, she transferred on other sections at the University and working a part-time job after class.
As I finished taking a bath ,I wearing my casual clothes and went to the kitchen room , where I can told mom that I'll leaving.
"Where are you going?" mom asked
"Tokyo Sora Mall"
"Alright, be careful on your way" She pat my head and pokes my cheek.
I quickly left and rode a bike towards to Tokyo Sora Mall which the nearest mall here in my town.
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I arrived at my destination and entering the mall, shopping for neat and decent casual men's clothes. I also decided to get a haircut to look more decent.
A lot of people looked at me after I had new haircut. So I went to the place without anyone and wear glasses and a hat.
I'm not used to seeing a lot of people except Loki.
As I walked forward, I saw a familiar figure that same look with Loki's sweetheart , which accompanied by another woman. They enjoy holding hands. So I followed them inside the pizza hut and eating at a same time. It's good that I brought much money before I left home.
They seemed to enjoy the conversation together. It seems they looked like a good as lovers. After they done eating. I still following them until I saw that Loki's boyfriend kissed the woman. I was just stunned and wondered.
"is that guy already broke up with Loki? "
There is a other woman who arrived at the moment. She seemed to looked like a Loki figure, smiling as if she is excited walking just to see her bf.
But a moment , She was startled and also her belongings fell on the ground. Loki quickly slapped the woman and said "Why are you stealing him? ".
"Stealing him? What do you mean?" I've had him for a long time since 3yrs " confidently said by a woman.
"3yrs ?!"
"Is that true, Jen?" Loki asked with a hoarse voice.
I heard their conversation and quarrel here at the department store. But I'm not planning to leave because I don't want to get in trouble with her relationship problem.
"and who are you?" Woman asked while narrowed her eyes on Loki.
"I've been in a relationship with Jen for a year and a half" Loki shouted with a burst of anger.
"Don't believe in her. She's a liar. Plus I don't even know her. Look , Isn't she desperate to have boyfriend? " Jen said. He refusing Loki as his long-term girlfriend.
If I recall the time when I was sleeping at the class. I remember Loki was very happy while seeing a picture of her and her lover. Loki even proudly showing their pictures on me and I only could is support her relationship.
" See.. You're a liar. HAHAHA. maybe you're just lost? or This is a prank?" sarcastic said by a woman.
"Broke up with her, Jen!" Loki insisted while crying.
"Let's broke up, Jen" the woman said while walking out at the department store.
"Wait, Cheska!"
"Go with her and I'm enough with this damn conversation" woman said with harshly voice.
Jen approaches Loki while he gripped her arms tightly and said.
" Why did you come here just a sudden ?. Didn't I tell you not to come for my birthday?. " and he added " Let me be honest with you. The truth is I don't love you. I just using you from the beginning to replace her but Let's end this. I don't want you anymore. I like women who have strong body, sweet, good -looking, a woman who can beautifully dressed and well-shaped body. While you are just dumb, boyish girl, weak, cold, and worthless. You're really shameful as my girlfriend. It's over now. Our relationship is just a joke."
Loki immediately slapped his boyfriend and throw her a yellow shaped animal keychain on him.
"Why did you slapped me?" He asked with a burst of anger.
"You are betrayal! " Loki cried
"you're worthless . you're just a simple woman who works while studying and I don't like that kind of woman." he shouted
Jen is going to slap her but I walked fast and go to their place and protect Loki from him.
"I prefer being slapped than seeing her hurt. A real man will never hurt a woman though, if she is weak" I said with a hoarse voice.
I felt damn and I only could hit by a man to protect the woman I loved.
"Tsk.. another bothersome! " He muttered and simply walked away.
However , Loki still ignored me and followed him and begged his boyfriend to not breaking up with her.
"Shut up! I don't want you " while removing Loki's hand from his arms.
"but why? what I did wrong to you?" Loki asked while begging.
" didn't you remember the day that you agreed if I disappear? and you also said our relationship is only one year, right? Jen insisted.
The man just left while Loki just keep crying .Now, I stood her behind and approaching her, while giving her my piece cloth of handkerchief
"Don't cry"
she just looked at me and keep crying.
"Nao! , why is that happened? I never did anything wrong to him but I wasn't chosen "
I just embraced her and rain poured outside of the mall. So the jacket I bought. I put it on her head and holds her tightly to enter the mall. I rubbed her back while she keep crying.
"Forget him "
"That's not easy" She said angrily .
"I'm sorry but here, I only gave you is water. Cry more until the pain in your heart will gone" while comforting her back .
"I am better as your bf than him"
I whispered but in a moment, I was also surprised by what I said and didn't think about the situation.
"what did you say?"
She looking straight at me with a frown
"I didn't say anything" I said awkwardly afraid of Loki's expression.
"I'm leaving and I need to go home "
"Do you want me to take you home? " I suggested.
"No, I'm fine .."
"but if you want to come with me and drink soju at the park "she offered me and holds me I felt her hand holding softly and tightly while mine is rough and sluggish hand.
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We go to the store with a seller of soju and we walked slowly because she still mourning. Loki kept grieving, if wanting to vanish her existence.
I just suddenly saw the white table and chairs on that Park, pointing my fingers to the direction where there was a vacant seat
She immediately went to the direction with an empty seat and just bent her head down then kept crying.
I sat and I felt pity for her loss but it can't be helped since I don't know how to comfort her.
She immediately took the soju wine and drank the whole bottle. She just handing the soju and offered a bottle with me.
"Drink"
I drank a little. Meanwhile, She was crying and drinking. I was looking at the many people holding hands with partner.
"I don't want to love again. I don't want anymore" She told me many times and over again.
I rubbed her back and swing my hand softly on her hair.
"don't cry, it was part of our life"
"but why? am I still deceived" she asked angrily.
I can't say anything because I've never had a girlfriend or been in love since high school but the only girl I loved is her. She destroy my world where filled with no motivation and colorless. Because of her very beautiful drawing and her short hair, while her voice is calm and confident. My heart began pounded fast and kept staring to her.
She suddenly fell asleep on the table. I could see the tears on her face, reddish ears and cheeks so I just wiped it gently and lifted her.
I stopped for a moment, because I never knew where she was living
"where can I take you home?" I asked but eventually she ignored.
That's why, I decided to take her home. I positioned my body and lift her backward , then her arms wrapped on my neck.
"you stink" I said while walking to the direction of my home.
"Don't drink again" I added.
"No! " Loki suddenly spoke and it's looks like she was going to vomit.
"Wait, Loki! don't vomit here, I'll lay you down" .
She suddenly vomited on my clothes.
"Damn, I bought this earlier. "
"Don't worry I'll pay you" she smiling and took her money from pocket.
"here 5000, keep the change if it's too much" She laughed loudly and then she fell asleep again on my back.
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We are nearly got home in 10pm. My mom worked at night shift and only came here on 12 noon. Because she was working in the office and sometimes do an overtime work.
After we entered my home, I just laid her on my bed and undressed my t-shirt and went to the bath to remove the stinky smell.
As I went to my bedroom, Loki seems asleep carefully. The smell of her beer still stink on my room so I brought a wet towel and new clothes would fit her. I took off the jacket that I put on her and closed my eyes as I undressed her. I quickly put my clothes on her that also does loose . Then, I just put our clothes in the basket.
I positioned her body properly on the bed while she just sleep soundly, and I washed her clothes, so she can wear it early tomorrow before leaving.
After a few hours, I just laid on the floor and looked at her who was fine sleeping on my bed, as if she had my whole bed and hugging my pillow tightly.
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Next day, 7am in the morning. As I opened my eyes and surprised that Loki quickly disappeared.