This world really is unfair,why do i need to suffer this much to live,i just want to live freely and enjoy my youth.I got very jealous whenever i see kids at my age freely enjoying their lives at its fullest.Im already 19 but i couldn't even walk on my own,thats because I've been diagnosed with a rare cancer.I was grade school when i knew i had it.Damn,I really want to run outside and play,But with my state I couldn't even do anything.Sometimes i got depressed,and my body kept failing.My doctor said i still have 30% chance to walk again,but i dont care because i dont want to live.I just hate this cruel world.

Im just staring in the window almost everytime watching other people,but then I saw a boy chasing a cat,the cat began to run towards me and jump over the window but he immediately grabs it.He apologizes for what happened.He stares at me and smiles,i got embarrassed and I quickly closed the window, because its been a while since a boy talked to me.When i opened the door he was already gone.The following day i saw him again but now he has a friend with him.I keep watching them talking and laughing,but then he noticed me and waived,i got ashamed and closed the windows again.I got woken up by knock at my window when i opened it,it was the boy that i was looking at this couple of days.He said Hi and wanting to be friends with me,he even told me to smile because he see me very sad everyday."What are you?a stalker?" i said.He declines,he just said that he had a telescope at his apartment and always see me staring at other people with a sad face.I got embarrassed again of course.

Then he visits me everyday he always give me fruits,i enjoyed talking to him, everytime i talked to him i feel like im safe.He asked me why im here at the hospital,I told him my situation but he was not shocked at all s

Suddenly he got serious and told me to get better,be brave and don't be depressed because there is nothing we cant do we just need to believe in our own strength,after he said that i feel comfortable and i got very happy.The next day my mom came to visit,and gave me a wheelchair as my birthday present.Now i can get outside and watch the amazing scenery.

Its been a year since i met him,those times were really happy.He even asked me to date,i was so excited i couldn't even sleep.We had a trip,we visited every beautiful places around the country,we we're very happy.It is sunset, while we are riding the Ferris wheel he looked at me and confessed"I really like you"he said while blushing.I was surprised i cant even respond,i just hug him and said "me too,i like you".

Its been a month since we are going out.but then he gotten very cold he just visited me 1 time this week.I was so worried,i immediately head to his apartment.When i walked in there's no one inside the whole place was empty.Then i heard a noise downstairs and saw him,i hugged him very tight,he just laughed and said "are you worried?",im sorry i haven't visited you this past days because i have some unfinished works". Little did i know he was lying to me about his works,and i got surprised because he planning to propose.He proposed to me in our monthsarry.I was very happy and said "Yes!!but why now"."I was very happy,i met you that day,my life was filled with happiness because of you.Now is the time that i can finally proposed to you because,maybe ill die tomorrow,so ill take this chance to propose" he replied.I was overjoyed.But then the next day he didnt woke up i tried everything to revive him but it's still no good.He died.I got so sad i want to end my life at this point.Then i saw a letter on the closet it was a letter from him before he died he said"Im sorry i couldn't keep all the promises,im sorry i can't make you happy at this point,im sorry for leaving you behind,im really really sorry i kept my secret,you know I've been also diagnosed with a unknown cancer with no cure,but when i knew that you have a cancer too,i tried to make you be more happy and dont be depressed like me.Dont be sad, i will be at your side forever i will guide you to every choices you will made,i will keep supporting you.Promise me to get better okay?I love you,thanks for the memories we've had im really really happy.

Its been six years since he died,thanks to him i beat the cancer,now i can walked on my own and i will still chasing our dreams,dreams that we planned.I am really grateful i met you,I LOVE YOU!