His legs were shaking violently, his breathing was up and down irregularly, the fear inside Johan was getting clearer. That means if Clarissa finds out about him and Nindy later, Clarissa may go far from him. If Johan had not restrained himself, he might have burst into tears in front of Clarissa by then.
With all his might, Johan held back the tears that had already burst out of his eyes. Johan's throat felt suffocated, he didn't know what to say to his lover anymore.
A few days after the incident, Johan's mind never left Nindy's situation and Clarissa's feelings. He didn't even want to go to campus because he was avoiding Nindy, he wasn't ready to hear anything yet, an awkward feeling filled the space inside him, so he couldn't act as he used to Nindy.
